Love/Fear (Certainty) vs Others/Self (Uncertainty)

[Katrina]

When I think of the choice between being a lightworker and being a darkworker as being a choice between Love-based and Fear-based - the choice is very very simple. Lightworker.

But when I think of the choice between lightwork and darkworker as a choice between Serving Others and Serving Myself - the choice becomes very hard and I ultimately say Darkworker.

I'm wondering, has anyone else felt similarly or have any thoughts about it?

[sadavis00]

First of all, I don't think darkworking or lightworking is a choice. If you feel in your heart that you alone have true value, then you must become a darkworker to serve yourself. If you are somehow able to see and actually feel true value in others, then lightworking will probably feel right for you.

[peacefulmind]

Originally Posted by Katrina

When I think of the choice between being a lightworker and being a darkworker as being a choice between Love-based and Fear-based - the choice is very very simple. Lightworker.

But when I think of the choice between lightwork and darkworker as a choice between Serving Others and Serving Myself - the choice becomes very hard and I ultimately say Darkworker.

I'm wondering, has anyone else felt similarly or have any thoughts about it?

I know where you are coming from. At first, I felt the same way and then when I began digging deeper and deeper within myself I realized the strong appeal that both have on me not because of social conditioning but for what they are. For instance do I want to live my life as someone who is powerful or someone who is humble, do I want to be kind and generous or captivating and strong. As you can see the appeal on both sides is quite something. The thing that strikes me most is that as a lightworker you can be strong and captivating and as a darkworker you can be kind and generous but for different reasons. So just dig deep and find what appeals to you about the different sides and then dig even deeper and find out which sides appeal has what you want most, and then go for it.

[Katrina]

Originally Posted by sadavis00

First of all, I don't think darkworking or lightworking is a choice. If you feel in your heart that you alone have true value, then you must become a darkworker to serve yourself. If you are somehow able to see and actually feel true value in others, then lightworking will probably feel right for you.

To borrow from Steve's article on polarization:

"Mixing love and fear energies is the result of not having made this choice yet. We aren’t certain what to believe. We don’t even know how to make the choice. But ultimately that’s exactly what it is — a choice to be made of our own free will. Although you likely have a pre-existing moral bias about this decision, in the grand scheme of things there is no right or wrong answer. You can choose to polarize with fear, or you can choose to polarize with love. The whole point of your human existence is to help you come to terms with that decision and then to actually make it."

I think it's a choice, and I think a lot of people could go either way if they sit down and think about it. I was wondering if looking at it through different models changes what someone would choose.

For example, if you're looking at the model of You vs Others, that doesn't make any sense to me really. I immediately struggle against the idea of living my entire life in service to others. I want to enjoy my experience here by my terms and for me.

But if you look at the model of Love vs Fear, easily I'd always rather act out of love than fear - whether I'm doing for myself or for others.

The two models he's used to describe polarization and lightworkers vs darkworkers don't seem to equate in my mind. I'd rather work by the model of love vs fear because that makes more sense to me, but if I had to use the other model I'd rather work soley for myself than solely for others.

So I wonder, if you can be someone who acts mostly for yourself but always with love. Would that mean you weren't polarized as a darkworker because you weren't using Fear energy? Or does the fact that I want to use love energy over fear energy automatically place me in the lightworker category no matter whether I believe I'm acting for myself or serving others? If I want to polarize, do I have to either change my stance on what kind of energy I want to use, or who I want to serve to really end up on one side or the other? Or does polarizing by choosing love energy over fear energy hold just as much value?

I know that it's not the choice that I make that's important so much as that I make the choice and continue to act on it, but I still wonder whether ultimately I'll be a lightworker or a darkworker or if I should just disregard the terms "lightworker" and "darkworker" all together and choose polarization through love energy vs fear energy because that model of it is what I understand best.