Subjective Reality/Living from Inspiration Dreamers

[MidasGirl]

I thought I'd start a thread for those who have decided to join Steve's avatar() in the Subjective Reality experiment/trial. Living from inspiration also seemed perfect for me and at this point I can't tell the difference.

I thought it would be nice to have a central thread where we can share our experiences, if your avatar so feels inclined.

I started doing this on Sunday, and by the following day I had already dreamed one other person in my personal life to join me in this.

I know that Ssandra was also going to be doing this as well.

So far, only 3 days into it, I've been having really deep insights in some areas of my life, mainly money and relationships. Some of it has been deeply painful. Nothing like taking full responsibility for all that you're creating.

[gloci]

Originally Posted by MidasGirl

I thought I'd start a thread for those who have decided to join Steve's avatar() in the Subjective Reality experiment/trial. Living from inspiration also seemed perfect for me and at this point I can't tell the difference.

I thought it would be nice to have a central thread where we can share our experiences, if your avatar so feels inclined.

I started doing this on Sunday, and by the following day I had already dreamed one other person in my personal life to join me in this.

I know that Ssandra was also going to be doing this as well.

So far, only 3 days into it, I've been having really deep insights in some areas of my life, mainly money and relationships. Some of it has been deeply painful. Nothing like taking full responsibility for all that you're creating.

How do you decide what's inspiration and what isn't?

For example, say if I felt like playing the xbox, I'm pretty sure that isn't inspiration lol

[MidasGirl]

Originally Posted by gloci

How do you decide what's inspiration and what isn't?

For example, say if I felt like playing the xbox, I'm pretty sure that isn't inspiration lol

Why isn't playing xbox inspiration?

[Angela]

Originally Posted by gloci

How do you decide what's inspiration and what isn't?

Does it breathe life into your life? Does it breathe life into the lives of others? Do you feel moved? If you're not sure, then it's not inspiration.

[gloci]

Originally Posted by MidasGirl

Why isn't playing xbox inspiration?

Because I can't see how it can do any good in my life

Originally Posted by Angela

Does it breathe life into your life? Does it breathe life into the lives of others? Do you feel moved? If you're not sure, then it's not inspiration.

Nicely put

Only problem is that I don't get that feeling too often

Sorry about this MidasGirl, I feel like I'm hijacking your thread

[Angela]

Originally Posted by gloci

Only problem is that I don't get that feeling too often

Could that be because you are waiting for inspiration to happen to you, or perhaps looking to find it? You can also generate it, do inspiration on purpose, if you want to.

[gloci]

Originally Posted by Angela

Could that be because you are waiting for inspiration to happen to you, or perhaps looking to find it? You can also generate it, do inspiration on purpose, if you want to.

Yeah I was kinda waiting for it to happen.. How do you generate it?

[MidasGirl]

Originally Posted by gloci

Because I can't see how it can do any good in my life

It's not about seeing how something can do any good in your life. That's operating from a SR. You could start by stopping doing anything that does not feel inspired. Even I find myself, when I'm not inspired, doing things as fillers. If you find yourself playing xbox and it doesn't feel inspired, just stop. And do nothing. Just like most people can't stand silence, most people also can't stand being in a doing-nothing vacuum. But sometimes that is exactly what you need to do to create inspiration.

Something I've been doing lately is simply to invite the thought, "I invite inspiration in my life today, moment to moment" and I let that thought go. Then I just go about my day as I would.

Sorry about this MidasGirl, I feel like I'm hijacking your thread

You're ok. In my world there is no such thing as a thread being "hijacked".

[Angela]

Originally Posted by gloci

Yeah I was kinda waiting for it to happen.. How do you generate it?

Well, I'm glad you asked!

I've used a bunch of tools for generating inspiration. One of my favorites is the process of examining where I'm not being as effective as I'd like to be; looking boldly at what I'm believing is The Truth about the situation, myself, or others; examining it for truth; getting present to what I'm creating for myself and others out of that belief; and looking to see what would inspire me if I weren't believing that old, outdated belief. That's one of the processes I do in my coaching, and it's especially powerful when you examine beliefs about yourself at the level of your identity.

Another tool is to simply look at what you could let go of that you don't need anymore, and to generate something that would make a difference if you were to generate it.

For example, let's say you're facing a task that you've hated since childhood, like: doing the dishes. You could:

Let go of your resistance to it and Just Do It; and
Generate the sense of momentum that comes with completing tasks.
(ANY completion generates energy, and if you get yourself on a roll of completions, the work can be energized and even inspired. You start with one spoon and then it's easier to do one fork, and then you'll want to do one plate, etc. to the bottom of the sink. Completions generate energy.)

OR

Let go of some old gunky thought you've been thinking (e.g., dishwashing is grunt work; you can't tell me what to do; only girls are supposed to do dishes; etc.) and
Generate something that works better (e.g., I'm creating a peaceful environment for myself; I'm expertly freeing up flow; wouldn't it be fun to sing "Madame Butterfly" at the top of my lungs while I clean the kitchen?)

I could go on and on.

[gloci]

Originally Posted by MidasGirl

It's not about seeing how something can do any good in your life. That's operating from a SR. You could start by stopping doing anything that does not feel inspired. Even I find myself, when I'm not inspired, doing things as fillers.

Yes I do that a lot!

Originally Posted by MidasGirl

If you find yourself playing xbox and it doesn't feel inspired, just stop. And do nothing. Just like most people can't stand silence, most people also can't stand being in a doing-nothing vacuum. But sometimes that is exactly what you need to do to create inspiration.

Something I've been doing lately is simply to invite the thought, "I invite inspiration in my life today, moment to moment" and I let that thought go. Then I just go about my day as I would.

Ok. I'll try that Thank you!

Originally Posted by Angela

Well, I'm glad you asked!

I've used a bunch of tools for generating inspiration. One of my favorites is the process of examining where I'm not being as effective as I'd like to be; looking boldly at what I'm believing is The Truth about the situation, myself, or others; examining it for truth; getting present to what I'm creating for myself and others out of that belief; and looking to see what would inspire me if I weren't believing that old, outdated belief. That's one of the processes I do in my coaching, and it's especially powerful when you examine beliefs about yourself at the level of your identity.

Another tool is to simply look at what you could let go of that you don't need anymore, and to generate something that would make a difference if you were to generate it.

I think one thing that may be holding me back is a task that requires courage and it is dictating a lot of my life.

Basically, my father died when I was 5 and left behind him the family farm, which raises animals for slaughter. My mother worked very hard, and some other farming neighbours helped us out a lot to keep the farm going.

Up until about last December, I was very eager to be a farmer, and as being the only boy in the family and neither of the 2 other girls interested in farming, I was the natural inheritor of it.

Then I became vegetarian in February and have gradually worked less and less on the farm because I don't want them to think I want to be a farmer. I don't mind the work, but I don't agree with it on a moral level. I've also spent a lot of time on the computer. This is causing lots of arguments between me and my big sister and mother. My mothers assumption is that since becoming vegetarian I have less energy and my sister just thinks I'm a lazy prick.

I'm scared of telling everyone that I don't want to be a farmer because that would be the equivalent of b***h slapping everyone that has helped with the farm in the face.

I've told my Granny, but she thinks vegetarianism just a phase I'm going through and not to say anything to my mother

When I think about inspiration this is the thing that pops into my head and this is something that I could let go of that I don't need anymore

Originally Posted by Angela

For example, let's say you're facing a task that you've hated since childhood, like: doing the dishes. You could:

Let go of your resistance to it and Just Do It; and
Generate the sense of momentum that comes with completing tasks.
(ANY completion generates energy, and if you get yourself on a roll of completions, the work can be energized and even inspired. You start with one spoon and then it's easier to do one fork, and then you'll want to do one plate, etc. to the bottom of the sink. Completions generate energy.)

OR

Let go of some old gunky thought you've been thinking (e.g., dishwashing is grunt work; you can't tell me what to do; only girls are supposed to do dishes; etc.) and
Generate something that works better (e.g., I'm creating a peaceful environment for myself; I'm expertly freeing up flow; wouldn't it be fun to sing "Madame Butterfly" at the top of my lungs while I clean the kitchen?)

I could go on and on.

This is full of little synchronisities from the universe/my dream, e.g. let go of resistance and Just Do It

[Vayy]

Originally Posted by MidasGirl

I thought I'd start a thread for those who have decided to join Steve's avatar() in the Subjective Reality experiment/trial. Living from inspiration also seemed perfect for me and at this point I can't tell the difference.

I thought it would be nice to have a central thread where we can share our experiences, if your avatar so feels inclined.

I'm really glad you made this!

I'm on day 4 right now, and I must say it's been mostly an uplifting experience so far. I had a lovely conversation with a homeless man at the bus stop this afternoon, and where normally I'd be uncomfortable and try to get away as quickly as possible, I had a genuine chat with him and held hands and was told repeatedly not to take hard drugs. Got it, self. No heroin.

Changing my perspective to one of oneness has made me so unbelievably happy! I didn't know that it could be such an empowering thing. When I'm nice to others it isn't just to be polite anymore. I've never felt so connected. And I've had this almost spaced out.. high feeling, too. Like I'm not quite so grounded anymore. Things are starting to feel much more possible. I've had some pretty freaky synchronicities and manifestations too. Two days ago I was on the phone with my friend thinking to myself that if I didn't get ride to her place I'd have to ride my bike in the rain, and when I looked out the window there was a guy on a bike riding past my window. Maybe that one is stretching it a bit, but I laughed pretty hard at seeing it.

I've been trying to keep myself constantly thinking in "this is a dream" and "there is no spoon" and "we are one consciousness" terms, and have actually found it's pretty tiring. At night my sleep is broken and most of my dreams have to do with me convincing myself and other dream characters that subjective reality is real. XD

I'm excited to see how this unfolds! I'd also like to know what experiences everyone else is having.

[MidasGirl]

Thanks for sharing your experiences Vayy.

I'm on Day 10 today. One of the reasons I haven't posted on this thread since I started it is because taking on this SR lens has led to insights and breakthroughs that just leave me raw and amazed. It's like doing the Landmark forum everyday (for those that know how raw it can leave you if you immerse yourself fully). And since the breakthroughs involve people that (could) log in here and see them, I'm not very comfortable sharing them, for everyone's sake.

But in general, for me SR has really opened up things that had been buried so deep inside me, yet so obvious that it's a surprise I never saw them before.

My experience is that making the shift into SR is literally a decision to get into the mind of your Higher Self and have things revealed to you on a daily basis. You'll be surprised stuff that's buried in our subconscious!

All I can say is, don't try this unless you're ready for your life to be shaken up a little. Yet nothing will feel more profound!

[MidasGirl]

Ok, so it's day 14 of this and I'm so thankful to Steve for starting the SR trial because this stuff is completely life changing (or is it life saving?). This reminds me of when I decided to do my vegan trial, halfway through it I knew I had shifted into becoming a vegan and it was not much of a 30-day trial anymore. I feel the same about SR.

What I've experienced so far is that just actually shifting into SR and inviting the answers causes the breakthroughs to start occurring. It's like the difference between conducting an experiment in a lab for years trying to learn answers, versus just letting the answers flow through you. In any case, the answers are always there, it's just that we're pretty good at blocking them.

So my major breakthroughs so far have been in relationships.......even my relationship with my daughter which was already great has been magically transformed into this completely loving and magical relationship. I used to stress out about how much time she was playing video games, that I had to remind her to do simple things, and all that is gone *poof* and now she tells me she loves me so many times in the day I found myself wondering if there is something wrong with her The bad news is when I try to play 'dream daughter' with her she takes advantage of it and goes, "well since you're just dreaming, you should buy me whatever I want! After all it's just a dream" tee hee.

Hope everyone is having fun!

[AlmostGodess]

I have discovered the character "I don't love you, I don't need you". I have been hiding this character for years simply because I did not know what to do with her. The meeting with this character was painful, but not as painful as it would have been some time ago.

As I understood, the idea here is just notice these people appearing and playing their part, but not oppose them or try to do anything about it. Am I right? For example, if I come across this place in me that does not like me, should I attempt to heal that place or just acknowledge it?

[ssandra]

I somehow missed this thread completely

I've been doing it mainly related to my existing relationships. And funny thing.. my f-i-l who normally annoys me a LOT, doesn't do that anymore

The last few phone calls were just normal, nice, no teasing, no weird things, and once even just to thank me for having done a wonderful job....



I'm going into this slowly. I have no patience (and don't want to have the patience right now) to see things blowing up in my face...

As for living inspirational.. I do try to do that, except that I have to deal with my laziness. Sometimes laziness is inspirational, and sometimes it is simply laziness

[Vayy]

Originally Posted by AlmostGodess

I understood, the idea here is just notice these people appearing and playing their part, but not oppose them or try to do anything about it. Am I right? For example, if I come across this place in me that does not like me, should I attempt to heal that place or just acknowledge it?

I've been wondering this also.

On another note. I was at a Mongolian restaurant last night with some friends (saying goodbye to one who's going to the Philippines to build houses for the poor) and at the end of dinner we got fortune cookies. I asked to receive one that would have to do with subjective reality and inspiration and the fortune I got was: "Follow the advice of your heart."

[AlmostGodess]

Originally Posted by Vayy

I've been wondering this also.

On another note. I was at a Mongolian restaurant last night with some friends (saying goodbye to one who's going to the Philippines to build houses for the poor) and at the end of dinner we got fortune cookies. I asked to receive one that would have to do with subjective reality and inspiration and the fortune I got was: "Follow the advice of your heart."

Thanks, Vayy! Let's hope we'll get some advice from our advanced experimentalists as well

[MidasGirl]

Originally Posted by AlmostGodess

As I understood, the idea here is just notice these people appearing and playing their part, but not oppose them or try to do anything about it. Am I right? For example, if I come across this place in me that does not like me, should I attempt to heal that place or just acknowledge it?

You can also start to dream them as a supportive character, instead of as an adversary. This is your dream. You can change your dream, or dream your characters differently. Or recoding/reprogramming your characters --as Steve is calling it.

Read Matrix Energetics book if you get a chance. Although it centers on healing diseases, you can apply it to anything else. The premise is that you can re-arrange something simply by observing it differently.

[Angela]

The "people" you're in conflict with ARE your supportive characters, often your most profound support. They are your buddies in learning to get the results you want.

Haven't you ever seen those great subjective reality movies with Spencer Tracy and Katherine Hepburn? (Or "The Taming of the Shrew"?)

[Gene]

As the Dali Lama is reported to have said of Mao after Mao died in response to a question about the deceased, "He was my greatest teacher."

[AlmostGodess]

Originally Posted by MidasGirl

You can also start to dream them as a supportive character, instead of as an adversary. This is your dream. You can change your dream, or dream your characters differently. Or recoding/reprogramming your characters --as Steve is calling it.

Read Matrix Energetics book if you get a chance. Although it centers on healing diseases, you can apply it to anything else. The premise is that you can re-arrange something simply by observing it differently.

This is what I learned from Angela last night as well. It is a new thing for me. I have never thought of seeing these parts of myself as supportive and friendly. It is true that only thinking in these terms eases my anger. It literally brings tears to my eyes. Don't know why

Originally Posted by Angela

The "people" you're in conflict with ARE your supportive characters, often your most profound support. They are your buddies in learning to get the results you want.

Haven't you ever seen those great subjective reality movies with Spencer Tracy and Katherine Hepburn? (Or "The Taming of the Shrew"?)

Originally Posted by Gene

As the Dali Lama is reported to have said of Mao after Mao died in response to a question about the deceased, "He was my greatest teacher."

I have expected to learn things about people and about myself from this forum. But I did not expect to learn so much in terms of culture, music, movies, books etc. I am afraid I am buying almost everything which is recommended on this forum

Thank you!

[lookcloser]

Originally Posted by MidasGirl

You can also start to dream them as a supportive character, instead of as an adversary. This is your dream. You can change your dream, or dream your characters differently. Or recoding/reprogramming your characters --as Steve is calling it.

Read Matrix Energetics book if you get a chance. Although it centers on healing diseases, you can apply it to anything else. The premise is that you can re-arrange something simply by observing it differently.

So when we change our modality to that of SR, its kinda like lucid dreaming right? You realize your dreaming and you start consciously changing your dream?

[lookcloser]

Its day 1 for me but its ALREADY blowing me out of the water!
I felt totally relaxed, protected, blissful, lively, awake and AWESOME. Can you give me some more tips on internalizing this completely, like anything YOU personally find effective?

[MidasGirl]

I'll write something for you tomorrow morning, lookcloser. Somehow I tend to be more inspired in the mornings, and right now I feel a little off center and want to keep to light posting. Hope that makes sense.

Though I'm sure someone else will chime in.

[lookcloser]

Yea of course MG Subjective Reality Does this website work for you?

[Vayy]

I'm not sure where to post this, so I'll post it here. The strangest thing has happened.

This morning reading through the news, I came across an article that talks about the death of Charles Haddon, the lead singer of a UK band called Ou Est Le Swimming Pool. I was browsing music on YouTube a few days ago and came across them for the first time. The song I listened to is called "Dance the Way I Feel."

Here's where it gets weird.

Last night when my mom was watching Sex and the City reruns, I entered the living room right when a lady who was at a party that Carrie was attending, was giving a speech (in a way "performing") and fell out of a window to her death. The singer, Charles Haddon, also fell to his death shortly after performing at a concert. I listened to the song again and a part of the chorus that at first I thought had to do with SR, really hit me:

'stop breathing
imagine none of this is real'

I don't know what to make of this.

[cylon]

Well, I see the sad face but there's also possibly a bright take on this. Someone died. A part of you sends you a message "none of this is real". To me it sounds like, don't get caught up in the concept of death and loss because it's imaginary.

Your higher self only wants you to become more aware of it. It's a GOOD thing. Sometimes it feels so good you feel like your heart is going to explode. But one thing it isn't is scary or dangerous.

Your ego feels separate, your ego is what gets scared and disturbed. But none of this is real, so there's nothing to worry about.

That's how I choose to interpret your post.

[Vayy]

Originally Posted by cylon

Well, I see the sad face but there's also possibly a bright take on this. Someone died. A part of you sends you a message "none of this is real". To me it sounds like, don't get caught up in the concept of death and loss because it's imaginary.

Your higher self only wants you to become more aware of it. It's a GOOD thing. Sometimes it feels so good you feel like your heart is going to explode. But one thing it isn't is scary or dangerous.

Your ego feels separate, your ego is what gets scared and disturbed. But none of this is real, so there's nothing to worry about.

That's how I choose to interpret your post.

That's how I wanted to interpret it too.. but then there was this little voice telling me that it's awful someone's death would be the thing that got me more convinced about SR and Oneness and all the Spiritual things I'm exploring right now. And then I thought, but in actuality no one really died. And then I was confused and posted here.

(And somehow I knew you would be the one to reply, cylon. Curiouser and curiouser...)

Thank you for your take on this. I'm inclined to want to agree, but there's this part of me that feels really weird about what happened. It's like.. couldn't there just have been more rabbit synchronicities? Did he have to die? You know what I mean? I guess I have to stop seeing things as good or bad, just, as they are. It's tough.

[cylon]

It takes time. Seeing everything as your creation doesn't take away the compassion you feel for others. They are you after all. The compassion you feel for this person is fundamentally your own self-love being reflected back to you.

Compassion will never leave you but the way you choose to look at these things will probably change over time. I've observed that the pain and suffering of "others" is usually the first thing that people stumble with when they get into this sort of perspective.

The ego feels separate. That's why hearing that it's all a dream, and that no one ever lives or dies doesn't really make much difference. As long as you feel separate, you will always think that it's happening to someone else, when it's really happening to you.

You'll get there though. These are deep beliefs you are confronting, they aren't going to vanish overnight.

[Vayy]

Originally Posted by cylon

You'll get there though. These are deep beliefs you are confronting, they aren't going to vanish overnight.

Thank you for your support.