How do you accept "this" is how reality works?

[nin64]

I've watched that "Creating Abundance" videos and I really find it hard to believe that the reality I'm living in now is not completely materialistic.

I've received some "synchronicities" after practicing this "law of attraction" few years ago but I simply dismiss them as luck or coincidence. Like the time when I found RM20 under a tree. At first I thought this is the synchronicity that everyone is talking about. But some hours later, I simply said to myself that some people just put the money there to please some spirits so that they can pass their finals. Oh, this is also the time when I think money will make me happy.

Recently (ever since last week), I noticed RM1 notes in my reality almost every time I take a walk. So is this how the universe "really" works or am I deluding myself. That is, that the universe somehow respond to my vibe.

Or, maybe I am deluding myself by thinking that the whole reality is materialistic.

Also, I noticed that I am seeing a lot more SBI! than ever before. It's driving me crazy. The product sound very nice but I can't help but to feel sceptical. Another synchronicity perhaps? Should I follow the white rabbit?


p.s. This have nothing to do with the topic (I think), but last week you gave the message "Your spirit is strong, you can get through this." or something like that through twitter, and at the same time I surf the net. I rarely do internet surfing now.
I am experiencing some tough challenges here, to make things even worse, I can see that my life is going downhill and there's no way I can fix it. I can't fix it even in 2 years time because I'm just too weak. I felt like want to give up and kill myself but that message feel like it came from a best friend that want me to be strong and face the challenge. Can't believe I said that an online blogger whom I never met before as a best friend. gasp.
Maybe human aren't completely selfish after all.
Well.... er... thanks (Sorry, not used to say this word online or offline)