How to find my purpose in life?

[yuan]

Hello everyone,

Hi, I am new here and I need help finding life purpose.

I read "The meaning of life: Part 1 Intro" and the article suggested that "If you want to understand what you truly believe, observe your actions."

So what are my actions? Nothing exciting. I am an international student studying Accounting and Finance in Australia. I study hard because my parents pay for everything I use in Australia and I don't want to fail a subject and waste their money. I do not have a job because I am lazy and do not want to work as a labour. I do not have many friends because I cannot afford to waste time having fun. So what I do daily is just study study study and when I am bored, I watch TV, browsing internet, call mum, or spend some time with my boyfriend.

Everyone consider me as a good student because I usually get high distinctions. But I know I don't love Accounting, that was mum's choice so I had to study that's all. Also I do not know what I should do after I graduate (my lecturer was impressed with my results and suggested doing a honours degree, I did not like the idea as I don't know what my research topic in ACCOUNTING would be) and I don't know what I want to become in the future (maybe sit CPA exams and become a public accountant?!).

I am really desperate to find a purpose in life because I think this would enable me to live more consciously and happily, eventually I will be able to achieve what I want in life.

This is why I am here and I request you to help me.

My question is: What should I observe from my boring routines? (Being a good student? A good accountant? A good daughter? Or what?) How do my actions now relate to my goal in the future? What steps I should follow to find my life purpose? Can someone tell me please?

Mum always says that I am a student so I should concentrate on my studies. So I shut up and study hard. But inside my heart I wish I could have a life purpose which I can think of everyday and working hard towards it. I really hate living without a purpose.

Thank you all for giving me advice. All the best for everything.

Kind regards,

Yuan


p.s. I read "How to find life purpose in 20 mins" and tried the method for 30 min without success. All I can think of when I was in the process was: study hard, get a good job, make mum and dad happy, be nice to people etc. But these are not making my cry so I don't think these things deserve the title 'life purpose'. So please help me, please! Thank you very very much!