Getting off drugs, getting into shape, eating right, talks with Buddha? (long)

[DoAnyOfYouExist]

Lately I have been thinking of quitting my habitual marijuana use, which has been going on since Junior year of highschool (I am 23). I get home from work and hear from my sis about a friend who came over recently, while I was at work. He had said he quit smoking mj and got a good job making 12.50 an hour. I thought this was a sync.

Then a friend is over and we are smoking a blunt. As he is leaving he sees that my sister and her friend are going to go work out at the gym. Friened exclaimed "What's up with the free pass?" I have had getting in shape and taking better care of my body on my mind for awhile now but alot this week.

So we talk about starting to hit the gym and eat better. Through my whole life I have skipped breakfast, usually lunch and just eaten dinner. Maybe some days a snack here or there throughout the day. Sometimes I eat really late dinners and a few snacks through the night. I feel I have been starving myself and it needs to stop.

There was a point during Jr/Sr year of highschool and two years of college where I lifted weights atleast three to five times a week. I maintained a weight of 185. I am six foot two and last time I checked, which was a two to three weeks ago, I weighed 150. I have noticed it in the mirror and the reflection in my window at night. I can see my ribs slightly and if I suck in a lung full of air it is just not pleasing to look at.

So I get up to heat up the left over half of my meal from two o'clock, which was the first meal of my my day(Burger King =/ also been contemplating going vegetarian). I freeze up at the microwave buttons for a moment as if they foreign to me. On the T.V. in the living room the T.V. show "Scrubs" is on. Definately one of my favorite shows on T.V. full of great insights and lessons, along with great humor. If Buddha were here now I think he would enjoy it, but thats just my opinion.

Anyways I freeze up and hear one character, Carla say to another, J.D. "Aww you freeze up again Bambi?" J.D. is off in his head alot and occasionally goes a little blank in the face. I thought this way another nice little wink from the universe a little sync if you will, with some humor.

Then I think about quitting my herb smoking and I hear almost in my voice, just slightly different tone or presence to the sound, "Yes! Drop it, Drop it, Drop it!" On Sunday I read a book on Zen by Osho and this was one of the things the Buddha had said to a king in a parable.

Now earlier today I had sent out a mental plea to Jesus, Buddha and Mohammad. I said that I respected each of them and stated why and asked them to guide me and help me to become a better person, more capable of helping those around him.

So I asked if Buddha had helped me. I got a reply "Yes" I am not saying one way or another wether I made this conversation up in my head all alone or if Buddha had given me guidiance, but I did humbly thank Buddha and agreed to quit smoking and get in shape.

So I heat up my food and eat. After eating I get up for a glass of water. Out of the kitchen bay window I notice a beautiful light orange rose that has come into bloom. I just have to smell it and tell it how beautiful it is and give thanks to it and sing it a litttle song, I think to myself. I go out to smell it and notice a wonderful baby praying mantis on one of its petals.

About 6 days ago I placed mantis egg pods in my garden on the other side of the yard. I have noticed no mantis in the garden or anywhere else for that matter until now(and I was hanging out in the garden earlier smoking a blunt). I smell the rose and although my nose is slightly congested(always is for me) it smells subtle yet divine. I stand there a good five minutes just admiring the rose and the mantis. I tell the rose how beautiful it is and how much I appreciate it. I thank it with a song to sing its praises.

I see myself progressing more clearly and quickly after I get myself clean and healthy. Thanks for reading. All comments and thoughts welcome. I love you guys.

[DaveTyler]

Wow man we're identical.
i NEVER eat breakfast, I smoked sooooo much marijuana etc.
incredible... Good luck with this

i can't provide answers, so sorry:P But I know you will get them;D

[DoAnyOfYouExist]

Told you we had alot in common

One other weird thing I forgot about. I ate two reeses peanut butter cups and one of them had two wrappers on it, which was weird(never happened to me before). I then thought to myself "two chocolates, three wrappers" Then "Your 23 birthday will be very important." My birthday is coming up July 2nd. Should be interesting. Most of my birthdays have been uneventful, besides the one when I was 6 or so and got my collarbone broken...

[Simmiah]

DoAnyOfYouExist,

Is this voice from inside your head or body? Because I had EXACTLY the same experience. I was pondering something about a situation where I felt really troubled because I felt the OTHER person was angry & ...a temptation to blame & then a big ol' voice from inside of me very loudly said, "The negativity is within you. Not them."

It was really weird. It was a male voice too & considering I'm a girl..odd.

I've heard this same voice at other times too. Very short & succinct. I believe it is guiding me on dealing with my emotions right now which is probably one of my weak points.

You asked for guidance. You got it. I had earlier that day prayed for some guidance & help too. Hmm. Coincidence. Doubt it.

Oh yeah almost forgot to add. I had just bought Gary Renard's book that day (Disappearance of the Universe) & funnily enough, when I was reading it..he talked about hearing a loud male voice from inside of him...same thing. Short statements telling him exactly what he needed to hear. I believe this is quite commonplace. Hmm. However I have no clue who they are. & it seems that these voices are unlike say schizophrenic voices where they hear tons of voices.. for me it is quiet then suddenly a booming male voice. Weird. I haven't mentioned it up till this point but since you posted... I thought I'd share.

& btw, only a few months ago I changed my diet drastically. I had been feeling heavy..though I'm not heavy but.. anyways. I found myself naturally drawn to eating more whole grains whatnot. I don't know if my body's changed but anyways it seems sometimes parts of your life change because you're already changing inside. I hope that makes sense.

[DoAnyOfYouExist]

That makes perfect sense Simmiah, thank you for sharing your experiences with me

The voice doesn't seem to be in my head but all over my being, hard to explain. Just short statements here and there telling me things I already know, it is just time to start actually listening.

[autumn]

Hey, I like this convo.

I actually quit myself, 3 or 4 weeks into it now. I was a heavy heavy puffer, daily, for well over ten years. & don't get me wrong I still really love Ganja. I've had great experiences talking with the oversoul/nature spirit of this particular plant. I even grew for years, small time, in my closet, and it was theeeee most fullfilling hobby ever. I also had a beautiful glass bong. This last decade of puffing has been wonderful & I would not trade it for the world! I also would do whatever I could to help protect those that still do, & those that supply it too!

BUT I have this healer that has been working with me for a little while now. Which I had been keeping this a tight secret from her. Because, even though she always supports & votes to legalize it for all reasons, she also believes it's a very sacred herb. & in general talks we've had about it (like around voting time, when there was a measure to legalize it here), her view is to only use it once a year & only to take an intentional sacred spiritual journey. Which only once a year! Yowsers! I didn't even remotely think I could or would ever want to cut back like that! But she doesn't use it herself at all, even once a year for the *right* reasons.

So the last time I was on her table. She asks me "are you *arrrroooouuunnndd* someone who is a heavy marijuana smoker". And I'm like, "uhhhhmmmmmm, Uhhhh, yeah, that would be me" (which of course she knew the correct answer, once she tapped into my energies in that particular session, before asking. I could tell by the way she asked she knew, but I think she was also a little surprised too.)

She said I had a heavy infestation of negative entities messing with my emotions just so they could feed off of me! I was like "Oh". Darn it......

I also have a special protection up, that doesn't let in anymore of this kind of thing. Just still working to gradually clean out old infestations, "dark-force energies", which even non-puffers have. But she also warned me that I could undo this protection, by repeatedly opening myself up so much in this way! It's a meal ticket for *some*, certain baddies, basically. Getting 'intoxicated' just really loosens up the energy centers.

So she was really gentle about it, because gosh darn it, I'm was a pot-head & I liked it, but I was very receptive to the idea of quiting too. It must have been time & that is why my guides showed all that mess to her. Also I didn't feel it interfered with productivity or anything else at all , like *they* try to tell us. Except I did keep having intense emotional issues, despite all the work I had been doing, healer assisted, as well as on my own. Well that has all cleared up perfectly now! I still get slightly, & I mean slightly pained/emotional over problems sometimes still, but not anywhere like I used to! It is sooooo nice & I would have done anything to get to this point of inner peacefullness. ANYTHING, anyways. I was feeling too much pain for no reason.

I also got into the teachings of Abraham, which are really nice. They actually don't 'believe' in *dark-force energies* though...so that's not like *truth* or anything, just a way at looking at things. Which better to not give that stuff any attention anyhow. I try to stay really focused on beauty & light & the flow-of-well being! (with continued practice it gets more constant & second nature to feel good all the time) Which is the only flow there is! Unless we get into some mind-set or some way of looking at things that pinches that flow off. They also have great teachings about working our way up the 'Emotional Guidance Scale'! Emotions are Guidance...wow & how it all works...double wow. It's been amazing learning from them. BUT I wasn't having huge success after several months, I was having minor success. But nothing like now, until I got my energies more cleaned up through defferent practices (like Erin's Chakra spinning meditation is great!) & got 'sober' & kept practicing tuning into the *flow*!

But, so, I got the message, more or less. At first I guess it was hard, but easy too. I had a good reason & felt good about quiting. But all my friends puff, & 4 different customers at my work would just automatically slip me nice buds here & there for free. Which before I got a chance to tell them all what I had decided, I would accept such gifts, & then take the buds to less fortunate friends, who have no intention of quiting. I could even sit there while my friend's puffed. They all accept me doing this & love me still & treat me no different. I just pass, in stead of puff-n-pass. It's quite easy actually, really. Although I also mentioned 'hard' because in the begining of trying to quit, I still couldn't help but puff a few times, but a few weeks apart.

Well the last time I did it, my car got stolen (talk about traumatic) & totally trashed! AND basically my car got stolen exactly at the time I was toking up (according to the time of the hit & run on the police reports), after being *clean* for a few weeks. So even if it's not entirely related in all ways, I got the message on that front/syncrinicity anyway, & stictly haven't puffed or drank in about 4 weeks (although I think I can still drink a beer once in awhile, after some time passes, just not get drunk).



Okay this is getting waaaay long, but I also keep having dreams were my sub-conscious is telling me that the longer I keep not getting high, the clearer & more psychic I'll get! I do have natural psychic abilities and would like to develope them, so that's nice to hear anyway, another plus.

It also has become easier to spend more time exercising & making better choices about eating. I actually started to eat breakfast too! That helps to stabalize emotions as well, blood sugar stuff, my healer also guided me on. As well as I have been having incredible conversations with higher/inner-self, spirit quides, angels, and my sweet dragon companions have re-enetered my life in a major way!


Hope that helps! It is nice to have done this for myself. If it's your path to quit, if it's what your inner-self & guides are telling you to do, then good luck! I know you can do it! AND it's even just as fun being 'sober' all the time as it was puffing all the time.

Love

[DoAnyOfYouExist]

Thanks for sharing Autumn. I'll agree with you on how wonderful growing the sacred herb can be. Oh how calming it is, hard to even explain how at peace I have been when tending to my plants. I am sorry to hear about your car. Congrats on quitting and thank you for the words of encouragement. I know I can do it, and it will be easy for the most part. I have quit before for like 6 months. Everyone in my life smokes though so it will be around me but I will do as you do and just pass. This has been a long time coming. I have had a voice telling me on numerous occasions "You have gotten all you can get out of this, it is only a hinderance to you now." I think things are going to get great pretty quick here. Haven't smoked since yesterday(yall might roll your eyes at that comment but I normally am high 24/7). On the dark energies, that sounds like a possible cause for the emotional states and tensions I have been experiencing. The whole using me to feed off of is giving me some weird dejavu feelings as if I have been told this before...

I am on the road to dropping all habits and addictions(besides air and food, need that stuff if I wanna stay physical and help out here). It has been written so it shall be so.

Thanks again for your story Autumn, I enjoyed reading it.

[autumn]

Thanks for reading all that....lol...I get sooo long winded on forums. I actually did tons of editing, adding more details & info, since I originaly posted it & you replied...lol. In case it helps any.

Love & Blessings! Thanks for letting me share!

[DoAnyOfYouExist]

Oh no Autumn thank YOU. Feel free to share with me anytime. I love reading, especially when it has substance and you have substance, your husband is very lucky. Nothing but love for you, look forward to seeing you around here more often. I enjoyed your post about astral projection as well Take care

[autumn]

Ahhhh, THANKS, that is so nice to hear. Gheeeee! I'm going to go do some reading now, you all are so interesting around here so far!

[DaveTyler]

It's not that hard quitting marijuana, I smoked about 20 spliffs everyday but quit(partly because I had panic attacks, but whatever, I quit )
I loved what it gave me when it gave it to me but it's in my past, I don't need it to be happy anymore.
I'm quitting cigarettes now though so we can still quit something together if you want to

[DoAnyOfYouExist]

Sounds good Dave. I recently got back into the habit of smoking cigarettes because my driving job has alot of downtime between deliveries throughout the day. Half the people I work with smoke so I fell back into a habit I had thrown away long ago. I have about 5 djarums left but I am down to throw the pack away now as this is another habit I need to kick. So sure Dave lets quit the cigs for the best of both of us.

[Simmiah]

Originally Posted by DoAnyOfYouExist

That makes perfect sense Simmiah, thank you for sharing your experiences with me

The voice doesn't seem to be in my head but all over my being, hard to explain. Just short statements here and there telling me things I already know, it is just time to start actually listening.

You know I'm glad you posted about it cuz now I don't feel so crazy that I heard this voice. heh.

ANYTHING, anyways. I was feeling too much pain for no reason.

<--quote from autumn

Actually another interesting thing... three nights ago I had 2 nightmares in a row which were very intense. Interestingly enough they were centered around my husband..the first being that he died. Anyways I knew instantly they were not "true" or prophetic because ..well let's just say the dreams were way whacked out not realistic. I had a instant hunch the moment I woke up the next day that something had been triggering intense dreams about him just to feed off of me. I had to pray the last few nights & last night I forgot to... & I woke up between dreams, had a feeling something not right was in my room, prayed & didn't have any problems. So..yes I believe there are entities who do this. There's another thread called "astral vampires" in the psychic forum. & well, anyways, someone called them "chits" I call them "black blobs" because that is how they seem to me. Anyways I've noticed any sort of prayer seems to really drive them away. Thanks for sharing!