Guarding Thoughts In Spite Of Adversity

[RedneckGyrl]

Hi Y'all,

I am not sure if this is the appropriate are for sure to discuss this, as I am new. If not, please let me know and I will move it to where I am supposed to for discussion. But, I wanted to share that famous quote that I have posted on my refrigerator so that I can remind myself how to live the life I really want to. It goes as follows:

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

Often, I have looked at this and thought that there should have been one more element added to the beginning of this quote. So, I got on my ole word processor to add it and print out the new version to replace the old one. The new element reads, "Watch your input, for they become thoughts."

I just felt that this new element added that punch to kick start this famous quote. It also left open an area for a daily reminder to always be aware of the type of input I allowed into my thoughts to begin with, so that my thoughts would be as healthy as possible. After all, it's the thought life that leads to the final destination of who we become.

It's much like a computer. Input is all those commands and data from various sources, that feeds information into a computer, that determines how it functions. Corrupt input renders a malfunction and proper input renders function.

So, I had to take a stand back to get a self-awareness check, so that I could compare the present state of being to see if it matched up with my subjective and ideal reality. I had been practicing this type of reality checking and "RE"creating since 12 years old, but up until a year ago I had a hard time reality checking and "PRO"creating.

I was continuing to allow the wrong input to enter into my thought life and it only ended me up with a heap of mess to undo so I could redo, and that was exhausting my source of joy - peace - intellect - and love well....instead of creating a perfect environment to create something beautiful and satisfying.

How? Let me share.

Media: Television, radio and the theater were breeding grounds for violent, perverted, rude, and narcissistic thoughts that influenced me to react to situations that were negative. Not only has the discovery on how images that we allow to enter our thoughts influence us, but they have scientific proof that whatever images you think about stimulate your brain waves to act out those images as if you are really doing them.

I had to decide that if I really wanted to become a peaceful, virtuous, polite and universe serving person, I had to eliminate the information from all sources of media that interfered with that process. Now, I only watch and listen to a limited amount of media and with content that promotes all those good things that I want to be. There are times I just wanna catapult the television into oblivion, but then I think how much I would miss Animal Planet, the History Chanel and PBS Network.

Associates: From strangers to friends and family members, there were those that breathed discontentment, bitterness, untamed anger, back biting, lying, manipulating. When I was hanging around these people, I naturally became what they were. When I went to bed at night, I didn't like some of the things I said or some of the ill mannered behavior I acted out throughout that day. Meanwhile, griping and groaning about the very same negative things of others who I chose to hang with that day.

Funny thing, I didn't see the connection back then. I was stuck in a rut, attracting those type of people in my life and compromising my own values out of fear of being rejected, ridiculed and being lonely. But, I made that choice a year ago to start never allowing myself to be afraid to hold true to my convictions and choose to hang out with only people who are like minded.

I started doing this in November of 2005. It wasn't easy for me, because I allowed myself to be conditioned by parents who pounded it in my head, that to be liked by everyone, I had to lay aside who I really was deep inside. Because, if I didn't fit into everyone's reality of what I should be, I would die being miserable and alone.

Thanks Mom and Dad, but no thanks! I no longer believe that lie, because I found out on that November, that this universe is way too big to be limited to having negative people only. I learned, that I actually allowed the reality of my parents to become my own and I needed to stop letting them control my realty, like I had been doing all these years.

Yes, when I first went on my journey to my own realty and stopped watching negative crap on the television, stopped listening to negative crap on the radio, stopped going to negative movies at the theater, and made other changes for the better, I got so much flack for it.

I was actually verbally attacked by all those negative people in many ways/ Some mocked me, some told me it was a phase and I would come out of it eventually, some made comments that were only to serve to make me feel as though I was betraying the relationship by not joining in on things that I no longer was interested in, and some flat out reacted to me with anger and hatred.

I was scared at first and doubt came rushing in with the thought of what if everyone rejects me and I miss out on a bunch of fun, just because I choose to change the road of negativity I am on? Back then, I thought it would kill me. But, today I am so glad those people chose to never hang around me again. Because, now I have room to include only positive people into my life and they are precious to me.

With them, I have the freedom to protect my thought life so that I can be all the good I want to be. What's so awesome is that they are always there to support me and give my head a good thunk when I deviate for some silly reason.

Although I am new to this site and watched The Secret DVD for the fist time in my life this past Saturday, this concept hasn't been new to me for a little over a year now. When I started searching for groups on the internet to see if there were others that believed in what I now have words to describe my experience, as Intention and Manifestation/Law of Attraction, that's when I discovered just how much bigger this universe is.

I am still working on this fear of being rejected and alone for choosing to create my desired realty. I know I still breathe and move amongst all kinds of people and need to better develop assertiveness and self-esteem in order to be confident in my decisions to have only good input enter my thoughts. This is the objective reality, that I have to work with to not make it my subjective realty.

So, there are still moments, far and few between that I still get this cringe and get all tight in the chest, my stomach gets churned, my heart rate goes up and blah blah blah, when negative people cross my path. On those rare occasions, I still fear those type thinking I am a total idiot and rejecting me. I just get so disgusted at myself when that happens.

I just had to get to the point one day, that even if the reality that dear ole Mom and Dad, of remaining faithful to my convictions meant I would not be liked by everyone in this universe...and be an outcast, then so be it. But, since I don't believe that realty anymore.

I now know that I am worthy to be loved for who I am and worthy to be respected for my values and convictions, even IF I am the only one that shows that love and respect. But, the more I rid myself of the conditioning my parents did on me, the more I find out that there are others out there in this big universe, that share the same values and convictions as I do and want to see me succeed reaching my reality.

But, like I said there are those rare times the old way of stinkin' thinkin' comes back to rear it's ugly head with that stupid FEAR word. Is there anyone out there that has actually worked through this fear, to where you can now actually say that you never get afraid to stand your ground to negative people who try to drag you into their negative lifestyle?

I would like to know what your final straw was that caused you to consciously make a decision to never allow those negative thoughts from outside sources and others to hinder your personal growth? What was your mindset just prior to breaking totally free? What conscious decisions did you finally make that helped you accomplish this?

Thank you all for spending your precious time with me. I know this was long winded, but I have so much to share and so much to understand, still. I am AWAKE AS AWAKE A GIRL CAN GET, well....I am awake like I have never been woken up before. This feels so good that I can hardly stand it. After reading this site and the forums and watching The Secret, it only amplified more good stuff to feel. So, I appreciate your willingness to stay with me.

With joy - peace - happiness - and love,
Redneck Gyrl