Do You Ever Feel Like You're Being Tested?

[StacyT]

I mean REALLY tested? Like the universe is just standing in your way throwing roadblocks at you every move you make? For about a week now I have set about accomplishing a seemingly simple set of tasks and the universe is really getting creative with all the Sh** it's throwing at me.

Pretty much everything I never even KNEW could go wrong, HAS. And literally, just at the VERY MOMENT I was about to have a complete MELTDOWN, and fall to my knees, trowing my hands up to the heavens and screaming, "Why!?!" - I spotted a woman carrying a bag, and in huge letters on the bag was the word, "Believe". I KNEW that message was directed right at me - I could FEEL it in my bones. I started laughing.

I can't help but feel that someone's playing a really sick joke on me...

[gigij]

Originally Posted by StacyT

"Believe". I KNEW that message was directed right at me - I could FEEL it in my bones. I started laughing.

Love it when that happens. Had the same thing last week, not quite as intense as yours, but was thinking about giving up on something and the two license plates in front of me were 'believe' and 'imsure'. lol

Sometimes you just need a little boost to keep you on track.


Don't give up.

[joelr]

A few years ago I had a bunch of different "challenges" come up all at once. It does feel like a sort of pre-planned test.
Or another way of looking at it is that the first thing(s) that happen put you in a low negative energy state which then causes other negative events to unfold.

I found that during the aftermath of the initial problems, where I was still mentally suffering, even more, unrelated things started going wrong. I eventually had to make big changes to just get to a neutral place.

[StacyT]

Originally Posted by gigij

Had the same thing last week, not quite as intense as yours, but was thinking about giving up on something and the two license plates in front of me were 'believe' and 'imsure'. lol

That's awesome, Gigji! I love when that happens, too, it's like the message erases all the previous obstacles and you get to wipe the slate clean.

[StacyT]

Originally Posted by joelr

Or another way of looking at it is that the first thing(s) that happen put you in a low negative energy state which then causes other negative events to unfold.

I was thinking that, too. It was almost uncanny the number of 'bad luck' things that were happening. Maybe I was attracting them. I think I'll go sit in a quiet room and meditate for a while.

[newsbone]

Every other day, the life of a Christian is all about trials and temptations...in one hand Satan throws this tricks to make us sin, and t he other God tests our faith; this happens only to christians.....ii dont about the rest of the people!

[Tanja]

Originally Posted by StacyT

I mean REALLY tested? Like the universe is just standing in your way throwing roadblocks at you every move you make?

Funnily enough, I've been feeling like that for the last month.
I guess this explanation sounds plausible.

Originally Posted by joelr

Or another way of looking at it is that the first thing(s) that happen put you in a low negative energy state which then causes other negative events to unfold.

Still finding my way out of it..blah

[Cloverhart]

Absolutely!! I find it espcially happens when I commit strongly to something, then the Universe throws all kinds of things at me to make sure I'm serious. Instead of being negative or letting it get to me, I just smile and say outloud "I don't think so, you're not going to get me." Later I'm usually "rewarded" with some kind of sign.

[gigij]

Originally Posted by Cloverhart

I just smile and say outloud "I don't think so, you're not going to get me."

My favourite is "Those who doubt me only make me stronger."

But I've also been told that if the universe is constantly putting things in your way that means that the thing you are trying to manifest is not in your highest good. Manifesting something that is in your highest good should be easy and effortless. Just putting that out there, I don't necessarily subscribe to that belief.

[lifeforce]

For me, I´ve noticed that it´s a two steps forward one step back thing. It´s a cycle. And it happens over and over. Witch is why I welcome the hard times instead of getting frustrated. Cause I know it will get even better than before

[joelr]

Originally Posted by Tanja

Funnily enough, I've been feeling like that for the last month.
I guess this explanation sounds plausible.


Still finding my way out of it..blah

I am too. I got to a point where I was still ruminating on past events too much throughout the day and re-creating/manifesting similar scenarios so I took a break and went to chill out with some relatives for 6 months or so.

[joelr]

Originally Posted by gigij

My favourite is "Those who doubt me only make me stronger."

But I've also been told that if the universe is constantly putting things in your way that means that the thing you are trying to manifest is not in your highest good. Manifesting something that is in your highest good should be easy and effortless. Just putting that out there, I don't necessarily subscribe to that belief.

Yeah I think you have to be careful with that because if it's not true then you end up quitting things because the universe sent a "message" to do something else.

If you read information about high achievers, I think that chicken soup for the soul book also talks about this, these people succeeded because they stayed persistent. Some of the greatest folks in history like Ben Franklin, Babe Ruth etc... if you read about how many negative things were thrown at them on their way to success you might say "wow I would have quit long ago".

The story about the guy who invented the first baby doll who wet herself (I think it was that one) is crazy! The guy kept going forward after a ridiculous amount of adversary. Borrowing money, getting hassled by his family.
He did become a millionaire eventually.

The whole idea of LOA is to ignore things that work counter to your goal and stay focused.

[rei]

i have felt like this before, but i've come to the conclusion that it isn't the universe or a higher power doing it, and it isn't supposed to be some kind of punishment or anything of that sort.

i have come to think it is things i specifically asked for. i usually don't remember asking for them, but they are lessons i chose to experience. or, as gigij said, they can be things we asked to come to us to show us we are not on the right track for our plans we made before we came here.

and then, if we're paying attention, we also notice messages when we are on the right track. my recent experience is similar to this, it has come about in a rather fantastic way through extreme syncs and such, and last night i had a teeny flash of doubt while i was watching a little tv to get sleepy. on two different channels, within seconds, i heard two different phrases to remind me the doubt was unnecessary.

i know it's easy to read to much into things, but anyone here who's experienced synchronicities before knows, they have a specific feeling associated with them, right when they happen and not after as a response to them. a feeling that is a bit like deja vu, but at the time of the experience. i'm grateful for these, they help me stay where i'm supposed to be.

if everything is falling apart, that can sometimes be a sign that it's supposed to, that we've outgrown the situation or already achieved whatever we set out to get from it. sometimes it helps to pause and reflect, to see if it is better for us to surrender to the experience... to flow with the current of life instead of trying to swim against it.

and i would guess sometimes it can be karma. but karma isn't meant to have a punishment tone to it, it is just a force to provide balance. example, on my birthday this year, a girl rear-ended me then ran off on my way to get a massage. it was a minor thing, more annoying than anything else, but the unexpected nature of it, and the sort of emotional/spiritual energy around it, ended up making me think it was something i needed to go through to balance out something i'd done before. don't know what it was balancing, i don't need to know, all that matters is the balance was restored.

[joelr]

Originally Posted by rei

i have felt like this before, but i've come to the conclusion that it isn't the universe or a higher power doing it, and it isn't supposed to be some kind of punishment or anything of that sort.

i have come to think it is things i specifically asked for. i usually don't remember asking for them, but they are lessons i chose to experience. or, as gigij said, they can be things we asked to come to us to show us we are not on the right track for our plans we made before we came here.

and then, if we're paying attention, we also notice messages when we are on the right track. my recent experience is similar to this, it has come about in a rather fantastic way through extreme syncs and such, and last night i had a teeny flash of doubt while i was watching a little tv to get sleepy. on two different channels, within seconds, i heard two different phrases to remind me the doubt was unnecessary.

i know it's easy to read to much into things, but anyone here who's experienced synchronicities before knows, they have a specific feeling associated with them, right when they happen and not after as a response to them. a feeling that is a bit like deja vu, but at the time of the experience. i'm grateful for these, they help me stay where i'm supposed to be.

if everything is falling apart, that can sometimes be a sign that it's supposed to, that we've outgrown the situation or already achieved whatever we set out to get from it. sometimes it helps to pause and reflect, to see if it is better for us to surrender to the experience... to flow with the current of life instead of trying to swim against it.

and i would guess sometimes it can be karma. but karma isn't meant to have a punishment tone to it, it is just a force to provide balance. example, on my birthday this year, a girl rear-ended me then ran off on my way to get a massage. it was a minor thing, more annoying than anything else, but the unexpected nature of it, and the sort of emotional/spiritual energy around it, ended up making me think it was something i needed to go through to balance out something i'd done before. don't know what it was balancing, i don't need to know, all that matters is the balance was restored.

Yes I think they are things we create. They could be giving feedback on our status.
Personally I don't usually read into coincidences - unless it leads directly to a manifestation - if I'm visualizing on a wallet or something the synchronicity where a wallet falls out of the sky or whatever is the one I think about.
All the other events leading up to that moment could be positive, negative, this, that. I let it go until I see my wallet.

There was a time I was working on the spirit guide/higher power/personal god or entity concept. Frankly I came away from that time thinking "is there anything at all out there?

[Mynder]

Yes, I have experienced this, as have many obviously. I have also experienced feeling judged/weighed. A test of character, perhaps, where I need to make a decision. It can be about morals/ethics, it can be about willpower or perseverance, or any other personal quality or ideal.

After I make said decision, I sometimes feel an odd sense of "congratulation". I can't really put it in better words. It's like performing in a contest and having seen none of the other contestants, but knowing you've done very well.

So yes, I believe I am being watched, I believe I am being challenged, and I believe I am being tested to see whether I am fit to get where I want to be, and can be trusted to handle my "power" responsibly.

[IFeelGood]

Originally Posted by StacyT

I mean REALLY tested? Like the universe is just standing in your way throwing roadblocks at you every move you make? For about a week now I have set about accomplishing a seemingly simple set of tasks and the universe is really getting creative with all the Sh** it's throwing at me.

Pretty much everything I never even KNEW could go wrong, HAS. And literally, just at the VERY MOMENT I was about to have a complete MELTDOWN, and fall to my knees, trowing my hands up to the heavens and screaming, "Why!?!" - I spotted a woman carrying a bag, and in huge letters on the bag was the word, "Believe". I KNEW that message was directed right at me - I could FEEL it in my bones. I started laughing.

I can't help but feel that someone's playing a really sick joke on me...

Are you aware that Mercury is in retrograde? Your experiences are not unusual for this time period...no kidding. I always know when one is coming. Everything seems to get f!@#$ed up. Especially anything related to communication. There are usually 3-4 a year and they last a couple of weeks. The current one ends on Jan 15th. It started on Dec 26th but I felt its effects sooner...

Mercury Retrograde - All About Mercury Retrograde

[ellie]

Originally Posted by Cloverhart

Absolutely!! I find it espcially happens when I commit strongly to something, then the Universe throws all kinds of things at me to make sure I'm serious. Instead of being negative or letting it get to me, I just smile and say outloud "I don't think so, you're not going to get me." Later I'm usually "rewarded" with some kind of sign.

I do the same thing now and yep I get a sign too afterwards. One where you laugh afterwards and just know it was a test

[Tanja]

Originally Posted by joelr

you end up quitting things because the universe sent a "message" to do something else.
because they stayed persistent.
The guy kept going forward after a ridiculous amount of adversary.

Originally Posted by rei

they can be things we asked to come to us to show us we are not on the right track for our plans we made before we came here.

I didn't manage to find the right words myself but this is basically it, I'm still not sure whether I'm just supposed to be persistent or is this a ''sign'' I'm not on the right track.

[rei]

Originally Posted by Tanja

I didn't manage to find the right words myself but this is basically it, I'm still not sure whether I'm just supposed to be persistent or is this a ''sign'' I'm not on the right track.

Tanja, i am not sure anyone but you can figure that out...

something to try, take some deep breaths and then from within you think of the idea of "persist in what i'm doing" - how does it feel? how does it feel for you in a few months from now? ...then do the same with "let go of what i'm doing" and see how that idea feels for you.

you seem intuitive to me, so if thinking about it feels stuck-y then maybe feeling about it will help?

[joelr]

Originally Posted by Tanja

I didn't manage to find the right words myself but this is basically it, I'm still not sure whether I'm just supposed to be persistent or is this a ''sign'' I'm not on the right track.

Rei is right you have to figure it out yourself.

With that said I believe the universe sends only feedback. In other words if you're looking for a relationship but meeting the wrong people that's feedback that there are still some limiting beliefs or negative thought patterns being repeated.

Again Rei said to look inside which is even more true.

If the universe or your higher self or the Oracle from the Matrix are going to give you a sign why would it go through all the trouble of causing a missed plane or any kind of external event that is hard to understand, when they, it, you, could simply give a mental message, a strong feeling, some internal signal. Rather than figuring out which license plate is going to be driving by you at what time some inner communication is very likely.

So that calls for some quiet time with meditation, reflection and looking at things in different ways.

I don't have any specifics but even if you don't have a STRONG feeling it's best to just continue doing the best you can.
When I was really struggling I even made some choices that were obviously not the best choice.
But I think following "signs" over what you really intuitively feel is a mistake.

The part where I stop is - if someone is experiencing negative manifestations why would they manifest a "positive" message that will point them in a positive direction? That implies a God or higher power helping us out.
I've found that until my inner self changes mostly nothing positive happens.

That is after all the LOA. Adding something else is Theism.

[gigij]

Originally Posted by joelr

There was a time I was working on the spirit guide/higher power/personal god or entity concept. Frankly I came away from that time thinking "is there anything at all out there?

I went through this as well. The conclusion that I came to is that these are all conventions created to be used by those who need them. They can be helpful however they are kind of like 'middle men' who actually keep us one step away from the source. You don't really need them, just go direct to the source, that's where the power is.

That's my take on it anyway.

[Tanja]

Originally Posted by rei

Tanja, i am not sure anyone but you can figure that out...

Originally Posted by joelr

Rei is right you have to figure it out yourself.

Oh yes, I know that. I guess I wasn't clear enough in my reply (how indicative), I didn't mean any of you could give me an answer, it is what I've been asking myself.

Originally Posted by rei

something to try, take some deep breaths and then from within you think of the idea of "persist in what i'm doing" - how does it feel?
you seem intuitive to me, so if thinking about it feels stuck-y then maybe feeling about it will help?

Thanks for this suggestion, I'll do that.
And you are completely right, I've been approaching this from my ''head'' all the time, even though I'm more of a ''feeling'' person.

Originally Posted by joelr

when they, it, you, could simply give a mental message, a strong feeling, some internal signal.
So that calls for some quiet time with meditation, reflection and looking at things in different ways.

You are right about this one too. I've been slacking off with my meditation, trying to juggle a lot of different things.

Thank you both

[rei]

you're most welcome

[icutoffheads]

you are testing yourself. thats all. to see if you will wake up. hard times are perfect times for us to realize the world, situations, people, everything is a mirror of our perceptions of them, thats what you experience. doesn't matter if the entire time it's going bad, and you sit there thinking "this is going to go good, this is going to good" if you perceive the situation as bad, that's what you get. think if whats happening in your life has reflected any fears or worries or anything like that. how do you view yourself and how has your reality reflected the way you view yourself? what fears and worries do you have about yourself and how has your reality reflected those fears and worries?

[bananya]

Originally Posted by Cloverhart

Absolutely!! I find it espcially happens when I commit strongly to something, then the Universe throws all kinds of things at me to make sure I'm serious. Instead of being negative or letting it get to me, I just smile and say outloud "I don't think so, you're not going to get me." Later I'm usually "rewarded" with some kind of sign.

oh wow... I accidentally came across this thread and your post felt like "wow!".. Just few days ago the Universe "threw a huge brick at me" when I was an inch away from one of my big manifestations (which I believed it first granted me with, all I had to do was take actions and so I did, and then "bahh!" - it went away...

so I've spent the past few days thinking "why" and wether it was a sign for me to stop or a test to see how serious I am.
I also consider myself more an intuitive person, rather than "head" and all the feelings I have now are "This only made me more stubborn and persistent in going this way"...

And I think coming across this post proves I should keep trying.
Thanks

[dreamlearner]

This thing happened with me entire life.Whenever i planned something,opposite happened.In fact i reached such a stage i can't plan something because of fear of failure.I have stopped planning and let the life decide course of my actions.I never believed in luck but last 15 years of bad experiences have sapped my life force.
I don't know who is testing me.I always say,to have confident one must succeed in something.If life want to throw so many failures at me,i can't but turn negative.So the result of all my testing is:

I don't believe in god
I don't have friends
I don't have relatives
I don't have money
I don't have house
I am not in any romantic relationship
I am always angry,confused,self-focused,fearful
I have depression

So all life's tests have produced these astounding things in my life.Whoever is testing me have to stop at this point.Its too much.