Making the leap to Subjective Reality

[Jason McIsaac]

When I was about 10 years old, I experienced pockets of solipsism, sort of a non-empowering form of subjective reality
(my take on Solipsism is this: you're the only person in the world, but you're just passively watching it, not creating it.)
I've been trying to get myself to make the leap to subjective reality for the past couple of months, but without success. I've listened to
Steve's podcast on 'the true nature of reality' several times, it's outstanding. I believe I understand what Steve's saying but I still can't make that 'leap of faith' after so many years of hardened belief in objective reality. BTW, I find Steve's podcast on eliminating fear has many of the same ideas and is easier to grasp.
There are two ways that I've been trying to eliminate my objective beliefs: 1- Follow Steve's path: shaking up the objective beliefs with multiple,
profound I-M experiences and then realizing that I-M can't really work in an objective reality because you'd get too many conflicting intentions.
OR 2- Follow my own path by trying to put myself in my own 10 year-old shoes: Get myself to adopt Solipsism, then make the short leap to subjective reality.
I tried to remember what caused me to believe that I was the only person in the world. And I recall thinking this: The belief that my mind was complex and powerful thing. I was amazed at the power of my own mind. I believed my mind was so complex and amazing that I could not grasp how there could be billions of others like it.
(Now that I think of it, it seems that belief in the power of your own mind has to be a prerequisite to subjective reality. How could you create
an entire universe with a clouded, inconsistent mind?)
It was easier to believe that I was watching a play presented for my benefit than to believe in billions of other conciousnesses. I don't really recall thinking about who was in control of this 'play', perhaps I believed it was me creating it, but I never believed I was 'controlling' it.

So I've been trying to get to subjective reality through both of these paths but I still can't shake objective reality.
Maybe Steve can help!? Steve, (or anyone else who's followed the path) can you give us some more detail on your journey to subjective reality.
1- How long did it take you to adopt subjective reality after making the realization about the problem of 'conflicting intentions'?
2- Was there an 'aha' moment?
3- Was there a particularly profound I-M experience that made you take notice in the first place?
I would never have tried this but for Steve's genuineness, consistency, intelligence and believability. Steve, thanks for doing what you do.
Jason