Will there be any consequences in the afterlife if I commit suicide?

[Adam85]

Sorry for asking this but I need to know what people think if they may be informed on this topic. I've read a few articles on the internet saying that there will be no punishment as such and that I can rest. I just wanted to know if anyone could affirm this for me by any spirtual experience they may have had or have known someone to have had.

I don't won't to bore you with my life story so I'll try to keep it brief I'm 24 from the UK. Basically I feel detached from the human race I don't have any real friends I find it hard to form friendships and impossible to form relationships with the opposite sex.

And yet I don't want to flatter myself but I believe that I'm a really polite person quietly spoken though I don't have any confidence as i was bullied at school and my dad died when I was 8 so I never really had a male role model which is why I believe myself to be weak and ineffectual and something of a push over easily walked over by other people. I find that life is given to people who aren't as nice as me but always seem to get what they want cause they've got the confidence and the ruthlessnes etc and I've missed out on stuff other people my age have taken for granted like I've never had a girlfriend, social circle and social life and I've never managed to secure permanent employment.

I was very close to my nan who i lived with until she got Alzheimer's disease I was caring for her until she advanced into the later stages of the condition and had to be put in a home. I haven't been the same since and I'm not really close to what remains of my family which is just my Mum who I've had a very turbulent relationship with in the past, my step dad, brother and sister. I no longer live with them.

So basically I want to end it I'm constantly depressed (the fact I'm unemployed doesn't help) I feel my life is wrong and doesn't need to exist I can't see me ever forming any relationships because I lack a spark needed for socialising with people my own age even though I'm very friendly and polite. I consider my politeness to be a weakness infact.

I don't want to go on living a hollow worthless life I don't want to put my mum through pain but she herself has often said that I'll never be happy so I hope she'd eventually understand.

I just need someone to reassure me I won't face anything bad in the afterlife cause I couldn't be bothered with that I'd rather just have obilivon.

Sorry for boring you all could someone give me some info though would be much appreciated.