I'm on a plane of light?

[Andrew Gubb]

A while back my higher self gave me the desire to connect (that's what he told me), so I asked a friend to channel for me, and he came through. His message was: you are on a plane of light. That was what he wanted to tell me so badly.

It seemed so odd to hear that. Ok, so if I'm on a plane of light, WHY AM I SUFFERING LIKE THIS? Why is my life an absolute MESS? Why am I wracked with shame and experience intense hatred and fear?

Worse, if THIS is a plane of light, how unimaginable it must be to be on a plane of DARKNESS...

Now, though, I'm starting to realise a bit. Everyone suffers. A lot. Everyone has an ego. Everyone feels hatred and shame. It's about the balance.

I was getting pissed at myself for not being good at fulfilling my sexual need. Then I saw something on the television about a guy at forty who was absolutely sweating in his pants at the prospect of touching a pair of tits. This was actually supposed to be something normal.

I was getting pissed at myself for not being good at making money. Then I remembered that at least I'm not a wage-slave, and I know how to live for free if I ever need to. Most people are too bound by cages of shame, conformity and fear to ever think of not being a slave. Imagine! People being slaves their whole lives! Doing insane hours for things they don't like, not even because they need to for productivity, but because their masters want to see them obey orders!

Other people have friends... but they're not happy. I feel like I'm not socially fulfilled, but many people who think they are and will never work on themselves in this respect are actually wracked with loneliness.

I guess I couldn't bring myself to accept just how much suffering there is in the world, not least my life. It's incredible, but there it is.