I'm officially freaked out

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The whole concept of subjective reality is so mind bending to me, but at it's core it makes so much sense to me.

I've always wondered why I was me, how out of 6 billion people I was the only 'me'

I really like the concept of SR and I've seen things and made things happen that people who don't believe call accidents or coincidences, but I know in my being I've created them.

I've always felt there was something not right with the world, that I knew a truth that was fundemental to my existance, but couldn't name it or properly identify it.

I have a few questions I'd like to hear opininons on.

1. If SR is real, then my children who I love dearly are just extensions of myself. I had a lot of trouble even trying to accept SR as it means my kids are not their own beings. which saddens me.

2. If SR is to be accepted, then I'm totally alone and that also makes me feel sad.

Maybe I've got SR wrong or don't understand it very well, it feels right on so many levels, but I'm not sure I 'get it' when it comes to other people and loved ones etc.

I always thought that we were all from God or the source, but we all at least were specific beings with our own collective but seperable consciousness.

SR implies that isn't true??

I have to stop now, before I manifest grey goo leaking from my ears

Like to hear your thoughts, please keep them simple as I'm overloading as it is.

Jeff