Darkworking and School

[Akashic_Librarian]

Right so I have pretty much decided I would like to be a Darkworker. As such I am aiming to integrate darkworker principles into my life. I have been doing so, slowly, for a while now but I feel I need to make a big push to break the barrier and really get the ball rolling.

I am 17, (18 in January, yay!) and I am doing my A-Levels, I really want to get ABB or BBB in my subjects and my biggest problem is I can't study effectively, I have been doing better recently but something is blocking me. I can't honestly think of the problem myself and it's making me a bit worried because time is ever passing and I am not getting much better.

I wondered if any Darkworkers out there had any tips on how to approach this problem.

[CroMagna]

I'm having the same problem. Something is blocking me from really being vigilant about succeeding in life. And I'm in a state of panic because time is drifting. I'm 25 and out of school. At least be glad you're younger and still in school. I would give anything to go back to school knowing what I know now. But I know I sure am glad I'm still young. My boyfriend is 32 and way out of school and still doesn't have a sense of direction. And he is not unique in this.

The problem is that you aren't motivated. You aren't motivated because you lack self-discipline and purpose. Please do not take offense. I'm not calling you lazy. I'm saying the lack of self-discipline stems from a lack of purpose.

For me, I have been slowly getting better because I developed a sense of purpose. My purpose in life is: to be the best, slickest, coolest, sexiest darkworker that has walked the face of the planet. Period. It is deliberately extreme because like Steve said, outlandish purposes are more motivating. "To be a good darkworker" will not wake you up at 6 am and send you to the gym.

I notice that when my self-discipline slides it's because I'm losing polarity. I'm experiencing feelings of guilt about choosing the dark side of the force. I have vivid daydreams about helping people or explaining my choices to people. This is clearly guilt and misplaced love energy. When this happens, I most certainly lose focus on my goals and become "lazy". Then I have negative thoughts about people attacking me, and this is obviously my sub-conscious mind telling me to stay on the path of "evil". Then my motivational energies return.

This block might be from the fact that you have not fully embraced the darkworker path and stripped away social conditioning. You are evidently trying to gradually slide into it. But it's a conscious choice. Either you are or you aren't. If you say you are, then you are.

I would recommend doing the following:

1. Set your own standards - don't allow others to define you. If you say you're a darkworker, you're a darkworker. You don't need to be a mafia don. A lot of mafia dons are not even darkworkers at all, but are non-polarized. And some menial worker may love life and be a good darkworker thus far. It's a mentality, not a post. And if you don't see anything wrong with being a darkworker, then there's nothing wrong with being one. You owe no one any explanations. If you have the right mentality, you will not even be thinking about everyone else.

2. Do not eliminate negative thoughts, embrace them, then redirect them - negative thoughts are not the devil trying to ruin your life. My mother always says "idle minds are the devil's workshop". They are your own compassionate subconscious ideas trying to keep you from making certain mistakes. If they did not "work" in some capacity, you would not have them. My negative thoughts of people attacking me were to keep me from repeating history by going back to being the soft, insecure hyppie that wants to be accepted by all of humanity that I was in college. Once I realized that, I recentered my mind on Self, redirected the thoughts, and refocused. Once you pinpoint the purpose of the thoughts, you can use them to your advantage, and then redirect them and refocus.

3. Chanting and mantras work - all of this meditation/chanting stuff sounds like BS to some people, and like a waste of time, but these are the people that will stare at a TV screen for four hours and wolf down junk. Meanwhile Steve makes more than the vast majority of people, wakes up at 5 am, and is in the best shape of his life. Chanting is a simple way of reminding yourself of your life purpose and can be done at anytime to rev up your engines. I would imagine more esoteric and "evil" chants would be more stimulating to you. It is for me.

4. Fantasy makes life more interesting - I find it useful to see myself as a movie/cartoon villain. Like a Sith. Again, extreme concepts are more enlivening. Make it you against the world.