Any ideas on what this is, how it work? ANY IDEAS OR INPUT!

[laceyjade10]

am trying to work on my perception, um, whatever you want to call it.
I have always seen things, had dreams and good intuition or guides. I have extremely southern Baptist parents who would freak out and punish me as a kid when I talked about what I dreamt, felt or saw..It has only been in the past year or so that through the internet I am finding people who talk about it! It's really great to find so much info and people willing to talk!! I just wish I had local friends to talk to...
Anyway, alot of times it is overwhelming what I feel so I would leave or try and go to sleep with a radio on after checking all my locks obssesively and making sure I have something to protect myself. I havent really found info on ways to practice or maybe filter what you sense so you can understand it. I just get the uneasy feeling like I'm not alone. The more I just think about it, the more things seem to go on around me. Light will turn off or blow out, hear weird static stuff on the phone, think I see a shadow around a corner or comming into the room. Sometimes the figure shaped shadows are dark and sometimes they are whitish.
Just the other night I was thinking about it and got so exhausted but still felt odd so I did my usual practice that I have done since I was a child, I reached over and turned on my radio, low, on a country station. As I was closing my eyes and trying to concentrate on the song, the volume slowly turned down until it was all the way down....I just froze for a few minutes with my eyes tightly shut. I finally reached over and turned it back up and it didnt turn down again.
So, the next night I got out a recorder, sat on the couch, and decided I was going to try and communicate or whatever you want to call it. I closed my eyes and said out loud, "Ok, I am listening. I am going to try and hear you." Felt silly, but it felt right. So, I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on making my brain go to that level between awake and sleep. I dont know what a professional would say, but I just kinda feel that is when my subconscious could maybe hear better but I could still kinda control..?..
Well, what happened when I reached that level was overwhelming! The only way to describe it. It was like I heard 10 or more voices all around me talking. I couldn't understand all of it. I know one male voice seemed pretty agressive and angry, but I couldnt get what he was saying. A couple of things I did make out..A female voice kinda desperate saying, "We try getting in across the street but it's too crowded!" And other kid or lady saying, "They wont let us in!" One said, "What is she doing ?!" and I remember hearing someone yell "Water!" And just tons of talking. And all the while there was that one agressive presence or spirit or whatever it was. I didnt see him or the others but I could feel them all around me. Ninety miles an hour. That one male spirit went behind me and it was like pounding the air. He scared me and I was overwhelmed. I was trying to pull out of it, snap out of it, but it was hard...Like I was stuck. Then this female voice came in so clear and loud and close. She said, "Lacey." In a tone like a mom or teacher would to make you snap out of a daydream. It snapped me out immediately and I expected to see someone in the room because that voice was so clear. I looked at the clock and only 5 minutes had passed. I didnt recognize the voice, it didnt have a southern accent like all of us do. It was very clear and authoritave but not mean or hostile in anyway...I felt so grateful to that voice for snapping me out.
Anyway, since then I havent tried to go on that wavelength again. I wanted to learn more and see if there is not a better way to control that so it wouldnt be so overwhelming. Maybe, should I be in the presence of someone else??
Also, I didnt think about it at the time but there is a church directly across the street..Weird that they said they couldnt get in, wouldnt let them in, and that it was too crowded...!!! I dont know if they were talking about the church or not, but it definetly was a crowded...I expected to maybe pick up a word or something faint, not to dive into such a crowd and didnt expect anything hostile...
SO, please, anyone know anything?? Have any input or ideas? What is the word or term for doing that? What can you do to work on it?

[ElleWmhhw]

Hi Lacey

I've always been aware of what you have discussed since I was a child. From what I have learnt and experienced is that there are different levels of energy and vibrations, almost like you are able to hear/see through different lenses. But obviously your experiences at the moment are not as harmonious and full of light as you would like and I can understand your fear or nervousness. When I was younger I was guided by an old family friend who had many years of experience to visualise and surround myself with light. If I felt unsettled or that a negative presense was in the room I would visualise an opening of light entering the room and offer the people around to go into it and be supported - leaving me etc. We all are like magnets and attract things and life experiences to ourselves (in fact everything) and as you are interested in what is going on at another level these energies will be attracted to you also. You have the power within yourself to say no, to bring in light and choose another perspective.

I would recommend meditating on light and relaxation bringing as much positive feelings into your room and body as you can - its great fun and you can develop your abilities further through it. You can take yourself on a guided meditation where you can meet in a peaceful garden etc. your guides or family etc.

Many times in meditation when I have slipped out of meditation and into daydreaming or nearly sleep I get a tap or my name to wake me up back to meditation. So I would guess that the lady calling your name was to snap you out of the vibration that you were tuning into.

Nowdays I wear a protective cloak made of brilliant white light and crystals. Before I didnt believe that this method worked until I met another person very similar to me who I could feel he was wearing a silver armour, I couldnt sense his energy as clearly and only felt the presence of cold silver. I asked him and it was confirmed so I now wear my own.

At the end of the day this world is all about learning and experiencing. I have always taken the stance that I believe when I feel its the truth or that I have had an experience to verify it. I wasnt like this as a child and was too naive to take responsibility for making up my own mind. But I would recommend that you try things that feel good to you and that you feel comfortable with.

If you have any queries or if it has not answered your question please feel free to ask.

Hope this helps xx

[Mato Kinze]

Lacey,
What you are describing are classic signs of sensitivity and Awakening. They are also classic signs of early stage schizophrenia.

Only you can truly determine which it is.

The next time you go into that state (and you should definitley go there again when you're in the right frame of mind to do so) make sure and protect yourself first. ElleWmhhw has mentioned a very strong method that obviously works well for her.

ANother, very similar option would be to quiet your mind just enough to get the background noise out, but not so much that you open the channel you did last time. In that quiet space, picture covering yourself in pure white or golden light. Envision this light as a protective force that will repel anyone or anything that may wish you ill will. Envision it as a filter that will only let in positive, loving energy.

When you have covered yourself in Light, go deeper into your open channel and ask for your Benefactor to come to you. I suspect you will encounter either the voice that snapped you out of your last situation, or a female form of some kind.

If none of these things happen, seek the help of a Healer or Medicine Person. If they cannot help you, you should probably see a counselor. I don't mean to be flippant or condescending, but schizophrenia is a serious condition that often manifests itself in a person's late twenties, early thirties after several years of "odd" feelings and "encounters".

One should never discount the mundane explanation in favor of a spiritual one without first eliminating the Mundane as a possibility.

All that being said, you may have a very strong gift for connecting to spirits, Angels, Allies and/or Guides. If this is the case, that gift should be nurtured and grown: preferably with the aid of a teacher or mentor.

Good luck!

[laceyjade10]

Early stages of schizophrenia? Nice, I guess I'll have to look those up...

But thanks for the suggestions, I'm going to try it.

Where I live in Louisiana, I dont know any people that think or talk like people do on this forum. Most people are strictly religious in my area and immeditately dismiss any of these subjects as crazy talk. So it's nice to hear some positive and insightful feedback. I love this.

But, here's another (schizo) example. When I was a kid I told my parents I could feel the spirits of native americans on our land and I felt like I was connecting with them. I didnt actually see an apparittion but I could feel the spirit in my mind much like I did that night but just not as overwhelming, and only one or so. I also said that earth, the trees, the woods had their own spirits and I could feel them as well when I spent time in our woods. ..Well, my parents freaked out! Our church attendance picked up to include Wednesdays as well as Sundays, lol.
First,they said that Indians historically, were not in our area..Then they said that if I was seeing things it was evil or I was dilusional. They wanted to know who I had heard talk like this or where I had heard such nonsense..
So, I rarely talked about those things again and felt very depressed.
But a few months after that I was sitting under a tree by the pond. My hand felt something smooth and it was an arrowhead. It was like confirmation for me and made me feel so much better. I showed my parents and they still never believed anything...

Just an added note, as if anyone cares, 10 years later, I was sitting under that same tree telling my son's how special that land was to me, telling them that it held alot of history, told them about the arrowhead, and as I was showing them where I found it, I found a civil war mini-ball! Kinda crazy, huh? ( I have a friend who works fora local battlefieldand confirmed what it was.)