Religion Is Not Evil, but it's holding me back

[lemuria]

I had a feeling that I should have post this things months ago, but I ignore the feeling, thinking "everything going to be just fine...". But, it's not!

Well, this need some introduction... I was born in Islam.
1 1/2 year ago, I was an atheist, but a very miraculous incident made me changed my belief and went back to Islam. In just a few days, I believe in God and become a very devout Muslim. After a month or so, my friends begin to noticed my "transformation".
And according to LoA, religious people attract religious people. And now, I'm surrounded by Muslims who are very religious. So, after some time I become a preacher. And now I'm not afraid of public speaking and changing my belief

Here's the problem: My friends still thinks that I'm a Muslims with a lot of faith. And they'll come immediately to the "rescue" if I show signs of losing my faith. So advices are greatly appreciated, I might give you some of my virgins if I were to be sent to heaven.

I know I shouldn't be focusing on the don't want, but I still get the feeling to post this thing for quite some time.
So far, this is the biggest obstacle I need to face.

[Gukkor]

The feelings of loved ones can't be changed, simply dealt with in good or bad ways. You are probably right that your friends with try to keep you from changing your beliefs. I would say the best thing you can do is be honest with them about what you believe. Explain to them that you are not losing your faith so much as you are exploring it more fully. They may not understand, but if they are really your friends, they will not abandon you simply because you choose not to limit your spirituality.

[Eric Revelin]

Let them think what they think, let them say what they say. They can't "rescue" anyone that doesn't want their help. Whatever your reputation may be, you've got to be honest with yourself and pursue the spiritual path that your heart would lead you to. Anything else would be madness.

You make a mockery of faith when you pretend to hold beliefs that don't resonate with you. It is disrespectful to others to let them think you are one of them when in truth your heart and soul have gone somewhere else. I say this not to foster guilt but to provide clarity on the weight of your decision.

Your time is precious so don't waste it. Your religious friends may not stay with you through the transition but in the end it will be for the best. Be civil, be open, be free. You already know what needs to be done, all you've got to figure out is how you're going to do it.