Spiritual advice greatly needed!

[Amie]

Hi there everyone! My name is Amie and this is my first posting here. I would like to say hello to everyone and as well ask for any feed back that is possible.

O.k. this will be a long post, and as well you may think that I am rambling a bit but I have yet to find anyone to speak with on these subjects.

When I was five, I was asleep/awake and in front of the bed I saw 4 brightly glowing entities. They had a outline of a human body but thinner with oval shaped heads and no facial features. They telepathically asked me to leave with them and I knew I would not return. I tried to get out of bed but I could not move my body, I started to weep when I saw my mother in was seemed sometime in the future and she was crying because I was gone and at that moment they vanished. As well a few times that year I saw what appeared to be a flying saucer with red and blue lights. Also I always wanted to sleep next to my mother because I was frightened of these other beings that was small, dark and evil like a shadow. I do not know what they are just that they wanted to change me some how and if I could touch my mother and gather her energy I would be ok.

At 12 years, I had a dream that I was flying through the clouds and a bright blue sky. The clouds broke apart to reveal a sun and in front was a ankh that had wings and the base of it had a formation of what appeared to be a cloud or steps leading to the ankh, the symbol was golden like the sun and very large in size.

Also I could manifest things easily, I noticed this around the age of 11.

Around 14 I started to meditate I become aware of this positive energy and negative energy. That there is a struggle going on. That if you are infused with this love vibration and send it out to others you can help remove negative energy, or infuse it with your own and help loosen it in some way. Also this negative energy is fully aware of its role and tries to do the exact opposite and change the energy in the universe with fear and control.

I was standing at a bus stop one day and saw this man he looked at me and new that i vibrated at a high level and I could see his face turn into hate. If I was alone I am sure he would have killed me on the spot. I could also read that he was a very intelligent being but used his knowledge in different way then I did.

Control and fear is important to these things and it is important that we send healing energy to the planet and send loving energy to people around us. I think this will help.

Also I was walking down the street one afternoon and I could not feel my feet touch the ground and I saw "energy strings" interwoven between everyone and everything and into the sky. At the same time I could feel myself connected simultaneously to everyone and everything.

I had to stop meditating because things got weird, it was like I was a radio picking up all the channels and I felt this tickle type energy on my face and shoulders and even on my hands this was all the time, this energy got really strong and I started to see white sparks of light this was not bad but I was open to everything and started getting attacked, I did not know what to do.

This one time I fell asleep and everything was black and around me there was this man floating about 3 inches above me. I could feel him sucking my energy and so I turned my head and this really deep prayer came out of me then I could feel him pulling away and my spirit pulling with him then everything snapped back like a rubber band and he tuned into a puff of gray smoke. I was attacked quite a bit at that time. Once I picked up a bible and started to pray and I could feel this energy coming out of my head. A lot of stuff happened and it was like I was in a black hole for a long time.

I am now just coming out of this long period in my life and would like to go back to meditating but don't know what all this means and don't want to be attacked. If anyone could help me understand what this means. I would be most grateful!

Thank you all for reading and god bless!

[Nneka]

Hi Amie, I've stopped meditating because of strange occurences myself. I've started surrounding myself in an egg of golden light. So far this is working for me. Hope it helps.

[Pixellator]

Try reading this post over at Gaia:
Removing Hooks Meenakshi's Blog. I don't think this permalink is working correctly, so search on the word "hooks" on her blog.

You seem to be susceptible to other people draining your energy. Do the excercises suggested in the link above. The title is "Removing hooks in the night of new moon."

Yes, there are energy attacks happening all the time. Work on building up your confidence, and I recommend reading at Gaia. Try the pod "The Power of Light" Gaia Community Group — The Power of Light
and see if you can learn some new techniques for maintaining your field of energy and raising your vibration.

Sorry. after testing the link to "Removing Hooks", I found it not working.

Here is an excerpt:
"There are hooks we place on others, and those we allow placed on us. Either way, we have hooks in our energy field.
I would think it takes a few sessions, as you feel guided, till they are removed.

MEDITATION:
Clear the space that you will meditate in, with aromas, sounds, colors...anything that helps you relax and raises your vibration.
Call in guides and masters, and healing light.
Intend to become aware of hooks in the energy field, and remove the ones as we see fit [ i.e. decide while encountering each hook during meditation].
Focus awareness in different parts of your physical or energy body. Where do you feel tight? A hook? If you don't find any, the intent you made will help. You can also think of the people that you have strong emotional reactions to - 'love' and 'hate', annoyance and pleasure. It is very likely that you have exchanged hooks with them--see where they are in your body.

When you encounter a hook, become aware of who it is from, how deep it is, and whether you are ready to let it go.
Focus light on that area, and then gently ask the hook to leave, in light and love. It can be placed in a bubble of healing light to be transmuted.
Then fill the space left behind and also seal it with love, healing.

Then, on to the next hook...

When all hooks for a particular session are clear, and you feel ready, gently send healing to the aura [ at the higher levels of aura that includes the people in our lives] and came out of the meditation.

Drink water and ground."

[NightSpirit]

Hi Amie,

I don't know your religious background but you mentioned a Bible and I assume you know about Jesus. It is possible you have been given the gift of discerning of spirits, so I want to encourage you in the exercise of that gift.

You already know there is a spiritual realm and that there is a battle going on and that you need help and that is a good place to start.

It is natural that dark spirits would try to confuse you in the exercise of you gift or try to scare you out of exercising that gift or harm you as you said you believe that man would have. You seem to understand that those spirits are seeking and need your permission to take you with them.

You may not know that Jesus has been given all authority of all the works of the enemy and that with Him nothing shall by any means harm you. You have authority over your own spirit and Jesus will back you up in that. And He will allow you to use the authority of His name over these spirits.

Also, in 2 Kings 16,17 it says that those who be for us are more than those that be against us but sometimes we need our eyes opened to see this.

The only caution that I would give anyone is that when some who didn't know Jesus tried to use His name against some demons, the demons beat their clothes off of them and sent them running, as told in Acts 19:14. And don't let them accuse you or make you think you have to be perfect to use your gift because you are perfect and forgiven in Christ and since they are of the father of lies their main intent is to lie to you and to confuse you or trick you out of your authority or, as I said earlier, scare you so much that you run from your gift.

Meditate on God's love for us and the power of Jesus and find out what He wants you to do with what you see. He does not give us gifts to torment us but to show us "great and mighty things that we know not of".

[bellemeadows]

What you describe leads me to believe you have been a shaman in another lifetime. The seeing of energy, the manipulation of the experience in the dream as you describe, these are shamanic abilities.

You have two choices here:

1) You can get yourself a shamanic master to teach you how to hide from those who have such abilities and are greedy and destructive, so you can keep yourself safe from them. You can learn to exist within the shamanic realm safely, and learn to help others with your shamanic gifts, or

2) There is another option. Jesus, Buddha, Sri Nisargadatta, Mother Mary, and others who have experienced the reality of ghana, can help you with this issue from a totally different perspective. While we play in time and space, there is an aspect of our attention which is captured by the perspective of consciousness. Those who have found the deeper reality, and experienced the calm, endlessness (beyond time and space, beyond consciousness) of ghana, can wrap your consciousness in the protection of ghana, as a grace they offer to you. Such protection will flow outwards from your inner connection, and you will be utterly invisible.

Acceptance of such 'grace' may mean you give up your ability to play in the shamanic realm -- I don't know. That is a Q you might want to ask for input from Jesus or Buddha on. I would work with them on this entire issue; the prior poster is right, you may have these gifts for a reason which I would not know. But Jesus, etc. -- the enlightened one -- would know. Personally, I don't care to play in the shamanic realm, because it can be as mesmerizing (or perhaps even more mesmerizing) as any other aspect of consciousness, so it is not something that is tempting to me.

All you need do is ask, if you want such grace.

What I find is that when I am attuned to the ghana state, working with those who have experienced it, I am invisible to those around who are playing in the shamanic experience. Totally invisible. It is even difficult for folks to give me readings, because there is an aspect of my being that is no longer entirely attuned to consciousness.

In your position, I would ask for such grace. I would actively ask Jesus or Buddha or whoever to protect me and enfold me in the great love that I may be invisible to those who walk in consciousness.

It is the quick path; but if you cherish your shamanic abilities, I just don't know. Still, I would much rather have such grace and protection than play in that shamanic realm.

Hope that helps, Belle,