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04-28-2008, 03:45 AM
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 |  neutrality and my joe dirt esq life story
hi, im neutral... i dont get much accomplished and i seem to just float along with the breeze i try my best to leave things exactly as i found them if i cannot improve upon whatever said aspect is... my presence tends to go unnoticed i am rarely extroverted unless i am pulled or interested by someone elses polarity i like to thing of myself as a lightworker yet it seems that i donot have enough desire to fuel my willpower to maintain within my current realm... (a college student) i am worried about where the wind will blow me next... i am sure my soul is eternal...so i have no fear...yet, i cannot help but feel uneasy, because, i have no stability.... i have dreams, yet i dont know how i will ever acheive them. no thought manifests without action, yet i am not certain about how i should procede... money does not buy hapiness, this im sure of! i am not motivated by worldy gains. i seek: stability, electricity, a roof, food and, internet access, and enough money to buy books, i like toys, i do not know to what extent i am willing to go to to acquire them... (vehicles; i desire a motorcycle a truck to transport it and a car), i get lonely, so want to love a woman who loves me back.... i am lost, depressed and uncertain... i feel like it is the whole world agianst me... my polarity is shifted slightly to the good side i am always looking for an oppurtunity to better the world , yet i am not driven i have not connected my current reality with my dreams there is no road for me to follow, yes there is; i am a student and i suck at it... Last edited by Dewzy; 04-28-2008 at 08:30 PM. |
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04-28-2008, 08:39 PM
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no one should care about my problems if i dont... alt least enough to change things up. i apologize for my approach... i did not come for advise, or as a contributor... i came as a leach... to throw MY emotional trauma at the world... and i even managed to miss the correct forum... i had/have lightworker sydrome, and was infected....INFECTED by fear.... .........Trancendental nature..... And...not or.... active awareness and purposeful action........ i should probably invest in that journaling program like erin spoke of  thanks for the forum to express myself!aka vent... |
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05-07-2008, 09:28 AM
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wow, so much is always so little why bicker and quivel? some thoughts make me shiver be a king or a quitter being disconnected from source is being a choir member hoarse please believe thats when te devil hands you the mic but its alright, angelic beings take flight its sad, but; sometimes... your day is my night sleep @ 4 am... undisciplined mayhem read read read read read read read... pointless do do do do do do do do do do do ...stinks learn learn learn learn learn learn learn... inteligent learn do learn do learn do learn do learn do.... smart heart i.... depart |
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05-08-2008, 06:14 AM
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^ agreed ^ i vent... this time where u guyz can see it... not<> i a reflection... a shade or a shadow... ...but not i... i is cool.... Dewzy is the reflection of the repulsed.... the anti-thesis.... ...i am D... he is cooler than dewzy... |
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06-15-2008, 06:04 AM
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i get shiver when i read my words from the past i remember that "IT shall not always last" still i aspire, still in inquire... i do not want to be known as a lier the urge to erase must be displaced if i am to lose this sense of lost grace why write if function loses form why am i always so torn im anonymous and still i struggle with ego oh why, wont i let me go? i so desperatly want to be free! i why said he, foolishness i thank you guys and girls for reading and responding... it just seems like ... im trying way way way too hard, all the time... stuck in a self defeating loop stuck... feels like its my middle name |
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