Crazy, disturbing dream

[JMononoetoe]

Wow, I had the most disturbing dream ever tonight. I think it's just a regular nightmare, although I did not experience it as scary, but more as surreal. It wasn't scary, it just didn't make any sense in a surrealistic kind of way. Or perhaps it was just too sick for it to be simply scary.

I'd like to say that reading this dream might not be for those who are squeamish.

In the middle of nowhere there was a huge rock kind of thing, or rather an elevated platform made out of stone. There was a stone staircase chopped out of the wood, circling upwards around the platform. On top of the platform there was a big house, it seemed like it was an old house that was showing signs of age. It occupied all the space on the platform.

My mother, her boyfriend and I were living here, in this aging house in a forsaken , dead wasteland. My mother's boyfriend and I had seen something in the stone that seemed off. It was right at the beginning of the stairs. It was like something was sealed away with cement. Whoever tried to hide what was behind there didn't do a very good job though.

With a shovel we tried to hack the cement away. My mother's boyfriend was out of breath and lacked the energy. This was quite odd as I am actually the person who tends to be out of energy.
I then hacked the cement away myself and found something that was quite disturbing.

In the stone wall we found a dead human face. The face had it's mouth open and some water was coming out of it. It looked like a dried out water source.
I don't know why we did it, but we tried removing the face from the wall. As we pulled the face off the stone wall, we soon discovered that this face wasn't all there was in the wall.

In fact, what we pulled out was even more disturbing. It seemed like a never ending stream of dead human waste (intestines, arms, heads and more). I soon got the idea that this whole rock was filled with dead human waste, and I was terrified by the fact that the foundation of the house we lived in consisted of dead human matter. That's where the dream ended.

I have no idea where this came from, I haven't been watching any crazy horror movies lately. I can't imagine how this dream could even have a meaning for something in my real life. Maybe this is just a brain fart.

I thought I'd share it with you anyway. Gee, ain't I kind to be sharing such a disturbing dream?

[Angela]

The predominant meaning of this dream is that you like me.

Secondarily, do you think the foundation might be YOUR foundation? Maybe the dried-up water source is something you've always valued generating, something that really nourishes you, that you have not been generating lately? And the human waste -- could that be something of yourself that has been going to waste because you haven't been being The Source?

I find it really helpful when interpreting my dreams to start by looking at each facet of the dream as an aspect of myself. What part of yourself does your mom, her boyfriend, etc. represent about your own self?

[JMononoetoe]

Originally Posted by Angela

The predominant meaning of this dream is that you like me.

... Huh?

Originally Posted by Angela

Secondarily, do you think the foundation might be YOUR foundation? Maybe the dried-up water source is something you've always valued generating, something that really nourishes you, that you have not been generating lately? And the human waste -- could that be something of yourself that has been going to waste because you haven't been being The Source?

I find it really helpful when interpreting my dreams to start by looking at each facet of the dream as an aspect of myself. What part of yourself does your mom, her boyfriend, etc. represent about your own self?

Hmmmm....
Gee, dead human waste being my foundation? And I thought I was a happy person, hahaha
But seriously. The dried up water thing... It just came to me, when the water isn't dried up, there's a strong stream of water that just keeps flowing.

If I look at my life up until now, I've basically always 'succeeded'. Never did I have to do a year over at school and everything seemed to go pretty nicely... Until afterwards when I had to choose for a specific studying direction. I went to university for computer science, to only find that it wasn't my way to go. Since then I've been kind of stuck and I'm still there, trying to find my way.
So perhaps you could say the stream has come to a temporary halt.. Perhaps.

The way I live now is very closed off from the outside. Every now and then I play Dungeons And Dragons with a couple of friends of mine, but for the rest I don't go out much. I don't see a lot of people. I'm usually at home with my mother and her boyfriend, and my guitars.
This could explain the 'living on a lonely rock' thing in my dream.

Even though I like being alone every now and then (or at least silent), 'prolonged exposure' to loneliness does make me somewhat sad every now and then (thank Source for the internet though!). Being lonely or not 'fitting' in a group of people tends to eat me up from inside. Or in exaggerated wordings: It's killing me from the inside.
This could explain the dead human waste.

It's interesting though. This would portray me as a very sad and depressed person, but actually I'm quite a positive person most of the time. Or... Would that be the rock, the shell around my foundation?

This stuff is weird, hahaha. No, actually I'm pretty sure that I'm not depressed. Maybe it's because of the shift of consciousness I'm making slowly but surely?
Or maybe I'm all wrong about this
Who knows? ... I should.