Real Intimacy

[Mondrian]

I'm restarting this topic from its beginnings in the INTJ thread because it's not so relevant there.

One thing that's really bothering me lately is that I do kind of long for another to know every fiber of my existence. And also to have an immortal pillar of support in my life. I want to be able to say or do anything to somebody and not be rejected by them. I want someone who really will be there through thick and thin.

What I'm seeing at the moment is that there is no one like this in my life. I know I am asking a lot and if you were to ask me if I would reciprocate these things I'd probably say 'no'. But this just seems to leave a world full of individuals who will not go beyond their self-interest when it comes down to it. Such a world feels lacking to me in some way.

In this context, I admire something like a suicide pact where two people give themselves completely to the other in the ultimate way. Perhaps not the best example but it gets at the magnitude of what I'm talking about.