Revenge of the Darkworker

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Cheers,

Think about a small kid building a sand castle. After a while some bullies come about and break the castle. The kid is angry, but either unable to exact revenge (as the others are too powerful) or just unwilling to (as it would waste him valuable time which could be better used to build a new sand castle). So, he starts a new castle, and after a while the bullies come about again.

OK, now you have described me. I have always thought of revenge as impractical, a waste of potential for both sides. Even if I have to fight, I fight to gain power, not to extract personal revenge. Seems like a perfect darkworker mindset...

...but the problem is that I still remember the past. The mere thought of people violating the non-aggression principle (bullies) makes me think of my past experiences, and I go mad. I used to think that a darkworker would not have to forgive and forget, but I can't think of an alternative myself. The question is thus: what is the darkworker alternative to forgive&forget, or is there such a thing?

-SS

[Savage]

One alternative would be for the darkworker to focus on efficiency and self-control. In most situations revenge is inefficient and leads to loss of self-control.

[Asmoday]

Actually, this is the darkworker path doing what it is supposed to do....

SIGH.

You are not supposed to forget. You are not supposed to move on.

I know where you are, I've been there.

For you, the only path is to either slink back into neutrality, or face it.

Here's the thing: You cannot play the power game without first having the absolute knowledge that you will strike down those whom you must. The dark path is not some self-indulgent summer camp. What your dark path is trying to do is to show you that you wanted something, created it in love, adored it, then others destroyed it, and went away. Then, they came back. You did nothing to prepare for their return, and they did the same thing. Pain is our teacher.

I reject revenge as inefficient. Immoral maybe, but if you choose the path of self-love, revenge is like a surprise gift that only you will understand.

Revenge is the ultimate act of self-love. Someone has sullied the divine, you need to respond when they do that.

If you dwell on this event with attention and dedication, instead of letting it shallow-repeat in your mind (which is the actual inefficiency here), it will fill you with a torrent of fear, and humiliation, which you can then transmute to anger. This is the exact same process by which lightworkers transmute sadness into inspired compassion, except self-directed. Bring that anger cold, into a decided focus. Ask yourself this question:

What must I do, what must I become, so that others can never do that to me again?

Then, do that. Become that. And, with those new abilities, use wraith on those who sully your pure reflection (within the bounds of society, as far as you can stretch them, safely).

Only then will you regain your focus, fully, and emerge higher up the ladder.

If you can't do this, switch gears, move into neutral, then into light. That is your proper home.

Otherwise, remember: Light brings to bear all our selfishness, greed, and hatred so that it may be purged. Its a painful process. Compassion is the fuel. We strip all barriers to others so that we can see the divine.

But dark brings all our weakness and imperfection to bear. Fear is the mirror. Anger is the fuel. We strip all barriers to our highest expressed self so that we can see the divine.

In the beginning, we are alone. In the end, we...are...alone. You have survived this far, thus, you can grow.

[Brien]

Look at it this way - anger at those bullies gives them too much credit. They are ultimately worthless compared to you. How could ants enrage a god?

Now, whether or not your exact revenge is a different story. Revenge may be the most practical solution. Revenge may make them stop abusing you. However, it must be carried out with self-control. When one has an ant problem, one simply poisons them. You dont go into a fit of rage, impotently stamping every little ant in sight, leaving the nest (the root of the problem) intact.

On the other hand, any sort of revenge may be a waste of your time. It may solve nothing. Consider it carefully for each case, exercising self-control and being completely self-centered. Who cares what those ants "deserve"?

[Akashic_Librarian]

Asmody I sense alot of conflicting energy in you
Your post actually scared me a little. I couldn't finish it for that afore mentioned reasons.


However I will say this. Use your best judgment. Don't worry about what a Darkworker or Lightworker would do...Just think what would YOU do, and that will lead you to your correct path, not the other way around.

[ken nubo]

Forget about the past, it's a waste of time thinking about it :\

[Freelancer]

Originally Posted by ken nubo

Forget about the past, it's a waste of time thinking about it :\

Its a usefull tool to learn, very usefull even...
But your right, dwelling on the past and constantly reliving it is pretty useless.

To OP;
Honestly I'd stop worrying about becoming a light or darkworker, nothing against steve and his excellent blog but I'd dare to say 99% of the people are not yet ready for either one. If you are than you will polarize naturally, for me I was caught in a rut while feeling pulls from either side and not really moving forward. So once I decided to merely understand light/darkworking and 'getting' the underlying principles my life became more focused towards my dream life (whatever THAT might be). I believe that if you can't intuitively answer these questions than your probably not ready yet.

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Cheers,

And thanks for the very helpful answers. They, especially Asmoday's post, made me think, and in the end I found this...

I was raised in a welfare state and taught by idealistic parents. The children's world is a harsh reality which is completely unimaginable to adults. Everyone thought that I was bullied because I was different and not dependent on the general opinion. I disagree - I was bullied because I did not defend myself well enough.

If you want to waste your talents and live unnoticed, you can probably manage without investing a lot to your defense, since the society of the mediocre will protect its own, at least in a limited amount. If you strive to be something greater, you will also need to invest - probably even considerable resources - to your defense and security. Like a "physical exercise tax/insurance", which you must spend from your energy to keep you from falling ill, a "security tax/insurance" is a portion of your energy that you spend to protect yourself from threats of all kinds including frauds, psychic vampires and bullies.

The darkworker alternative actually becomes meaningless in this POV, since without investing to a reasonable defense, you have no-one to blame than yourself. There is no need to revenge, as there is no need to "revenge" to a tree trunk you have stumbled by running too fast and not looking around.

Have a Dark day, SS