love=pain. Why?

[danas]

Im feeling so down
Theres a lot to appreciate in my life. But I feel so down because there's no one partner to share it with.
Without one person to share my life with I do not see the point anymore.
I give so much love and time and acts of kindness to my friends and family. But where is my partner?
My career is going so well now. Financially Im doing well. Health-wise I look and feel great... Thank God. but I dont know what to do.

Love for me is torture. Lets face it. Its just torture for me to open up and get close to someone because I feel so much pain when I realize its never gonna happen with my love interest. Again and again I face rejection.
Why is this pattern happening?
Maybe I get too close too soon. But whats too soon? I get close after a few weeks of mutual closeness.
I attract men who are more and more suitable for me. And then when it doesnt work out it hurts much more.
How do I get out of this pattern?
What actions can I take now?
Yes, if Im brutally honest. In my world Love equals pain.
So how do I get that out of my system?