Father

[Gracestars]

In another thread today I made mention of a sync that I was scared to share, for being too scared of discovering its meaning. Or rather, of receiving confirmation of the meaning I sensed was within it. But I know it now, so I need not fear nor hide it any longer. Reflections welcomed and appreciated, as always. Otherwise, thanks for just reading and being with it. It's a biggie for me.

Not sure this is the right sub-forum, but anyway, this is some crazy ♥♥♥♥♥.

On Monday, I was sipping wine with my beau on my balcony and he was filling me in on some radical genetic research currently being undertaken in the hopes of curing cancer. He’s a math dude, so it was technical, but the talk somehow led to my line of work, specifically about fathers.

At that exact moment, a loud thud happened upon the roof above us, him more directly, and from the thud bounced a bird which dropped, falling in front of our faces, to the ground in my front yard. In case that isn’t clear, a bird literally fell, dying, from the sky. Out of nowhere. Inches from our faces. We were both shocked, spun out. He grabbed a glass bottle in case he had to *put it out of its misery*, a prospect that made his eyes pop with fear and a resigned sadness, and which I could barely handle, and we ran downstairs. The bird twitched a bit, some blood trickled on the paving, and we realized it had already died. Aftershocks. Some relief, at least, that he didn’t have to euthanize it.

For a moment we sat, back on the balcony, as I scoured my sources on the possible meanings of dead birds falling from skies: bad omen, family member dies. Me = semi panic.

The added weirdness? I had just bought an antique bird cage that was sat in the same corner as my beau and as the bird that fell fatally from the sky. Was I trapped, had I lost my freedom? I wasn’t sure, it was one theory, I was freaked out.

I decided we needed to give the bird a funeral. And we did, and he did, bless him.

The last few days I haven’t been able to shake the experience. Then, today, I got a call from one of my mother’s oldest friends. She is friends with a woman who knows my father. For those who don’t know this story, my father left his planned, first-born baby girl as an infant, never to return again. Me. It never bothered me growing me up, but with age I realized the great, sometimes gaping hole this left. My mother’s friend informed me that my father is dying of cancer.

Bird falls dying from sky, during conversation about cancer and fathers. My father, I’ve never known, is dying of cancer.

Whoa.

I guess it is time to do some major resolving. I knew the day would come, I didn’t know it would be now.

Thanks again for reading.

Peace out.

[Lakshyayidhi Lakshmihi]

I have a dear friend who had a similar experience. Her father left her mother and older sister when she was an infant, her older sister was 2. He started a new family, but when she was 16 he called her up, dying of lung cancer. She decided after some deliberation to not meet up with him, but I think that it has been difficult for her to resolve things on her own since then and she has this eternal conflict with men....

Anyways, I wish you luck, strength, and peace. Now is the time to work through our deepest emotional blockages. Not fun, but it's better after it's done.

[ssandra]

Strength and good luck to you.

Whatever you choose to do or not do, I am sure it will be the right choice. I'm here for you if you ever want to talk about it.

[rei]

Wow!

That is really something.

If it helps, it is my understanding that unfinished business can be addressed with the essence through heart energy regardless of where they are in space and time.

And as well, I trust you to flow through this with choices that are perfect for what is needed in this time.

Much love and wow again.

[Gracestars]

Thanks for the support, ladies. I appreciate it. xx

[Kishka]

Gracestars, my heart goes out to you. It must be a pretty confusing series of events. I hope everything turns out okay for your family!

[NDN Scholar]

Life was hard as hell growing up with my single-parent mom. I have a lot of bitter feelings that need to be overcome. But it makes me happy to see you act the way you are. Makes my heart feel warm or something.

Peace.

[elucidate]

That's pretty crazy Grace. I've had birds fly right past my nose...twice...and I mean right past my nose, so I could feel their wing tips on my skin...but dead birds falling from the sky and coinciding with news...that's heavy.

The others have pretty much covered it, but again, if you need to talk, I'm here.

[Gracestars]

You guys are awesome. Thanks again.

[lifetimelearner]

I would like to give you a hug
>>>>>>>>>>>>>hug<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
and say that on my way to my father's funeral a baby bird fell out of its nest and landed on my windshield and died -I never thought about this again until now -strange !

[ginkgo]

Many people are superstitious. If you are then it can mean anything that you want it to mean. If you are not, then it means nothing. That event is telling you that you will die. I am certain of that-- that you will die someday. That is the only thing that is certain in your life-- death. Taxes are not certain since a congressman did not pay taxes for 14 years.

House censures veteran Rep. Rangel for misconduct - WTVM.com - News Leader 9, Columbus, GA

[Gracestars]

Originally Posted by lifetimelearner

I would like to give you a hug
>>>>>>>>>>>>>hug<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
and say that on my way to my father's funeral a baby bird fell out of its nest and landed on my windshield and died -I never thought about this again until now -strange !

Thanks, LL. Very strange, indeed. Thanks for sharing.

*Hugs back*

[Gracestars]

Originally Posted by ginkgo

Many people are superstitious. If you are then it can mean anything that you want it to mean. If you are not, then it means nothing. That event is telling you that you will die. I am certain of that-- that you will die someday. That is the only thing that is certain in your life-- death. Taxes are not certain since a congressman did not pay taxes for 14 years.

House censures veteran Rep. Rangel for misconduct - WTVM.com - News Leader 9, Columbus, GA

What does paying taxes have to do with my post? I find this response insensitive, tbh. A bit like spam.

[Weena]

hey Grace, to me this is definitely a major sign. Are you going to see your birth father and talk things out? I guess it's your last chance to hear him out and to tell him what's on your heart...

I wish you the best possible outcome whatever you decision is regarding this. What a story...

Much love.

[votoshka]

@gracestars - Ginkgo often does that... I don't think he means to be insensitive?!

Anyway...wow what an occurrence! I'm not sure what it all means, but there does seem to be something deeper there... are you going to see your father or not? I am not sure what I would do in that situation.