Dating while separated

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I have been separated (not legally separated) from my wife for about 12 months , I've been living in the basement and in the living room for that amount of time. Everything about her irritats me, I do not hate her, I can sa i hate myself for getting married so young !!!!!STUPID!!! I couldn't wait to stop sleeping on the same bed with her, add to it that i got married at 19 years old now I'm 43 with a 19 year old daughter.
I've been dating a woman for 3 months now we click big time. she's got everything that I was looking for, that my wife is lack of, It's not the "afraid of being alone thing" that never cross my mind, i pass that stage when I was 19.
Also it is not the rebound thing, I will never go back to the wife, it took me a long time to make that decision due to my daughter who was too young at the time and me being afraid of the unknown AND MY LACK OF CONFIDENCE . I can tell you that I hate myself for being such a coward by not saying no to things that I did, for example : got married at 19,renew vials, all I said when she she suggested that we renew our vials was: I'm doing this for you, not for me i do not care about this; I was such a dufus, idiot, imbecile moron.
I have to see my lawyer this week to proceed with the divorce.
it's going to be tough but I have to do it, I'm not getting any younger.
REMEMBER all these things that happens are my fault.