I Need Urgent Help Before I Mess Up Big Time

[Nimo]

thanks love, i completely understand what you are saying..i figured as long as am all over the place controlling and nagging him, I will never enjoy being with him and if i will eventually lose him (i.e if he is not my God given), then i may as well enjoy him when he lasts...

[xoxo]

Yeah your situation sounds a lot like me, my bf used to be good friends with a girl that he had sex with, and I used to be jealous of it. Later i found out he was extremely drunk and had tried to get with her, but nothing happened 2 weeks into our relationship. The thing is he used to ENJOY when i used to get jealous of her, he used to try, because it makes them feel better. And like was said your a self fufilling prophecy I feel if I wouldnt have been jealous of her in the first place and gave so much energy to it, it wouldnt of happened. I forgave him because at that point I was flirting with the idea of going back with one of my exes, but I became paranoid as well, searching through his computer, all his emails, facebook messages, cell phone everything. Well I gave up doing that and changed my way of thinking of jealousy, NOW it is the complete opposite he is the jealous one going through my comp deleteing and blocking my exes off of my msn, stealing my phone when im stealing. ect. Soon that will fade though when he realizes im devoted to him , as he is devoted to me, and if hes not theres lots of men out there that are deserving !