I need help with husband

[tami2102]

I am not a perfect wife and i have made some choices in the last year to make my husband want to leave, but he never did. Then he says he forgave me for what I have done, yet he still brings it up. I was told to give up all my friends who were guys and I dont talk to my girlfriends as much as i use to. We have two kids who are 17 years old and 12 years old. They are doing ok with it but not really. Another thing with my husband is out of the blue four weeks ago he tells me he has a girl who is his friend and will be his friend regardless of what me or her husband think. That hurt so bad after he told me to get rid of my friends. He has totally been ignoring me and sneaking around I feel to visit her. She has wrote to me and said she is not going to be a homewrecker but i feel she is just by not stopping the talking to my husband whether he contacts her or not. If there is anyone who can help me becuase i am in fear of loosing him or loosing my mind. I am going to counseling but it is so hard for me to get over this. Please help me.....