having different life

[Green]

Dear All,

i really need to talk with someone about this subject and i think this is the best place to have different views about this, i have a problem and i dont really know if it is truly a problem, may be it is something irritating me only and may be there are others who have same worries, shortly i have always felt that i am different than anyone else i felt something inside me differentiates me from others and i wanted to have a very different life then years passed and life just went normally. but this isnt the problem the problem is that while i see that life was boring i hanged all my lost dreams on my partner i want him to make for all my boring time, i want a different marrige life cant define how different may be very romantic may be um looking for surprises the most important thing is that i always blame him for being such like anybody else. and sometimes i am upset and i cant tell him why, he doesnt understand.

[torilink]

I think what you are describing is normal for all humans with a functioning egoic mind - you want to feel special.

we always try to find validation of our specialness outside the self, in relationships, things, careers, money, etc. - but it won't be found there.

You really need to just accept your experience - warts and all, and when you get to that spot of accepting exactly where you are right now, then begin visualizing your life as you desire it.

I'd start two lists - one of what you love about your life right now - and the other list about what you desire to experience that would bring you greater joy.

but it all starts right where you are and realizing that nobody but you can make you feel whole/complete.

[skywalker160]

You know, everybody is different.

I think you have an issue of self love.

Learn to love yourself

Give yourself affirmations like "I Love myself" I am worthy to experience self love". etc

Hope this helps

Jonathan