Ah, Bah, Grumpf!

[Rose of Cairo]

Well I still think it's not pretty but I loved it from the first day on It's not about pretty, it's just... it's so much me! With long hair I always used to bind it together and looked severe. Now that's, er, completely different This style resonates much more with who I want to be!

I'll take some pics and post them as soon as the camera works again. Could take a few days.

[dancer]

Sounds perfect!

[tsdary]

Hey Rose -- Don't you hate PMS?? It just ruins the whole week.. but in the end, it's over w/ (at least for another month!) and you're seeing straight again.

Transitions in life aren't always easy.. and from the sounds of all the different transitions you've got yourself facing.. like moving in/out of Germany.. honey that is HUGE! Breakups are stressful and so is moving, and so are career changes.. and we never know if what we're transitioning into is going to be less or even MORE stressful than before..

I went to college, worked a couple years and found myself so stressed over trying to kiss a** in the corporate world to try to get more pay, more status, more power, more vacation... it just doesn't end.. or so I thought!

Have you ever thought about what it would be like if there were no stressors in the world? Depending on yourself - to get out and just LIVE... travel.. w/out the BS?

I want you to know this is what I do - I help ppl get out of negative situations and get ppl to live their life more freely, positively, and wealthy. I am fortunate to say I live an incredibly abundant life that is set for my kids. I travel when and wherever I want to, I am my own boss, I make my own decisions, and it's all because someone helped me. But, I wouldn've have had this amazing transitioning experience if I didn't want to be helped in the first place. So please look at this w/ an open mind, and if you were like me, looking for a way to find your inner peace and HAPPINESS, and you're serious about making a change in your life for the better, hear me out on this. Good luck w/ your living situation, your moving, and your writing! Do what makes YOU happy! (Let's hear it for PMS ladies!!)

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[{aspiring_to_clarity}]

Hey, Rose. Just checking in with a quote from the book I am reading (again) right now. I thought of you when I read it:

Life is a good teacher and a good friend. Things are always in transition, if we could only realize it. Nothing ever sums itself up in the way that we like to dream about. The off-center, in-between state is an ideal situation, a situation in which we don't get caught and we can open our hearts and minds beyond limit. It's a very tender, nonaggressive, open-ended state of affairs.

-excerpt from When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron

Love you dear!

[Rose of Cairo]

The off-center, in-between state is an ideal situation, a situation in which we don't get caught and we can open our hearts and minds beyond limit.

That's true... when we agree to do so instead of clinging to our controling habit

Now I finally know when I'm moving: on 02/19. So, roughly three weeks to go. I'll try to get everything done asap and spend the last week in France.

[Rose of Cairo]

Bleh. It's not feb 19 finally, it's march 3 I will definitely not stay here more than one month more! So I decided to pack all my stuff as quickly as possible, arrange everything and jump into a train. I'll come back in march to get my stuff.

[{aspiring_to_clarity}]

Wow, that stinks. Yes, just go. I think it will make a big difference.

[Rose of Cairo]

To affirm my resolution, I'm dying my hair!

[{aspiring_to_clarity}]

Cool! I request pictures.

Have you ever considered shaving your head? Not that you would do it once you've just dyed your hair! I just ask because I found it fabulous. Maybe not your cup of tea. I didn't exactly do it to achieve some look. But surprisingly I learned a lot from the experience.

[seeker5]

Originally Posted by Rose of Cairo

To affirm my resolution, I'm dying my hair!

What color? Green?

Too bad about the delay - seems smart of you to go ahead and go on the train while you go get your stuff later.

[Rose of Cairo]

Brown!

I already had them orange (a natural fire red) and this time I wanted something new.

Aspiring, yes I considered shaving my head but never did it. I cut them at 1cm length tough. If I don't like the brown, I'll shave them and just wear the pink wig

[seeker5]

Originally Posted by Rose of Cairo

Brown!

I already had them orange (a natural fire red) and this time I wanted something new.

Aspiring, yes I considered shaving my head but never did it. I cut them at 1cm length tough. If I don't like the brown, I'll shave them and just wear the pink wig

Wow. Remember to take before and after pictures!

[Rose of Cairo]

Er...! I did NOT cut them at 1cm length this time! Don't you dream about short hair, seeker5! They're half-long

[{aspiring_to_clarity}]

Having a shaved head is definitely a conversation starter. I got a lot of people calling me GI Jane or singing Sinead O'Connor songs to me. And quite a few interesting questions. I am really glad I did it though. Showering and getting ready in the morning was a breeze!

Must see pictures!

[seeker5]

Originally Posted by Rose of Cairo

Er...! I did NOT cut them at 1cm length this time!

I know, I was refering to taking pics before dying them brown and after you've died them brown. And then if you don't like brown, take more pics after you shave it off!

Don't you dream about short hair, seeker5!

HEY. My dreams are between me and myself! Back off them!

[dancer]

Originally Posted by {aspiring_to_clarity}

Cool! I request pictures.

Have you ever considered shaving your head? Not that you would do it once you've just dyed your hair! I just ask because I found it fabulous. Maybe not your cup of tea. I didn't exactly do it to achieve some look. But surprisingly I learned a lot from the experience.

There are so many cool women on this site! Would love to know what you learned. I have always wanted to do it, but didn't have the courage.

[Rose of Cairo]

Please replace mentally all occurrences of "them" and "they" in my last few posts with "it". I'm too lazy to do it myself now

[{aspiring_to_clarity}]

Originally Posted by dancer

There are so many cool women on this site! Would love to know what you learned. I have always wanted to do it, but didn't have the courage.

Hey, dancer. Well, the reason I shaved my head was in support of my cousin. She found out she had cancer and would have to go through chemo. She was really dreading the thought of losing her hair, so I just told her I would shave my head so she wouldn't be a baldie alone. My hair was about shoulder length at the time, but I had had fairly short cuts before, like a Meg Ryanish pixie kind of thing.

Anyway, I took a pair of scissors and chopped the majority of it and then took the clippers to the rest. Immediately I thought I was pretty bad ass . And I actually thought I looked kind of nice.

From the experience I learned:

People have a lot of preconceived notions about girls with shaved heads. Most asked questions: Are you joining the military? Are you a lesbian? Are you ok? (meaning - you're not sick are you?) I worked with kids at the time in a church setting so I got a lot of shocked looks and speechlessness too! One particularly adorable little girl called it a "hair ball" instead of a bald head.
People will call you sir if you have a shaved head even if you have other female parts (ok, so they are not really prominent, but still!).
Strangers will talk to you if you are "odd." Most of them are really nice and curious and you can have some interesting conversations.
It's just hair. It will grow back.
I felt pretty free of social norms and expectations. I guess that taught me that looks are not the most important thing. Might seem cheesy, but it was something I needed to learn.
Doing something like this for someone will leave a lasting impression on them and is a tangible evidence of how much you care about them.

Hmmm, I am sure there was more. I would encourage all women to do it at one point in your life, but I don't think it will catch on!

Sorry to hijack your thread, Rose. I am leaving now.

ETA: BTW my cousin is in wonderful health now.

[dancer]

Wow, what a wonderful thing to do for your cousin. I hope she is ok.

I've been feeling a bit grumpy today and the "hair ball" story got a chuckle. Thanks for sharing your experience. I'm not sure why I wanted to do it. Hmm, there's a bit of bad ass in me, would like to be free of social norms and I've always been a bit of a rebel. Oh, and I've never wanted to be a princess.

Rose, please forgive me for the hi-jack. I put out an intention re. PMS and it seems to have made a difference. Tolle wrote something about PMS, which I thought was interesting. Can't remember the details, but will look it up for you if you want?

Congrats on making your decision re. home move.

Lots of love and hugs...

[{aspiring_to_clarity}]

Yep, she's fantastic. About to have a baby.

Oh and the Tolle thing about the collective female pain body and PMS and stuff was very interesting.

[Rose of Cairo]

No need to apologize for any "hijack" ladies, I enjoy having you as my guests very much

Aspiring, thank you for sharing this wonderful story.

dancer, of course, that's very interesting. Looks like it wasn't PMS though. But yes, please, tell me!

[dancer]

Sure thing, Rose. I've had a quick look, but cannot find where he wrote woman having an opportunity to drop through the pain body into consiousness during PMS. I promise to find it and post something within the next few days.

It's amazing, this week, I was thinking about how people get fed up with being miserable or whatever it is they are fed up with and change their lives in a heartbeat. I might have even posted my thoughts in some other post. Just now when skimming Tolle, I noticed a paragraph about this very thing. I do not remember reading it... but now I'm observing others and thinking why was my decision to wake-up so slow and why not get into this choosing stuff. I'm choosing, but there seems to be choosing and CHOOSING and I want to get into the CHOOSING way of choosing. Now, I'm tired and on a ramble sorry and I'm a hi-jacker, again.

[Rose of Cairo]

You're not, this thread is called "Ah, bah, grumpf" which means "rambling around aimlessly". Nowhere is it specified that only Rose has the right to ramble in here I gladly share my thread with you!

Now seriously, I find what you're saying very interesting. Sounds like synchronicity, so there's obviously a reason you get your attention pulled towards this topic.

I think your asking why and wanting what is not is resistance to the present moment. You're wanting to change the past. Cause in this very moment, your choosing instead of CHOOSING already belongs to the past. Why not choose (er, I mean, CHOOSE) something new right now?

Care to share what that is you are fed up with?

[dancer]

I'm not particularly fed up with anything. In fact, apart from yesterday's grumpiness - perhaps grumpy isn't the exact feeling, as I wasn't bitching at anyone or annoyed - I'm feeling relaxed and am proud to say happy. Aside, from mentioning the feeling to you, I was just aware of it. OK, I must have owned it in some way cause I told you I was grumpy, but I didn't let it take the steering wheel and that feels like a huge milestone.

Since joining this forum, I have been inspired by many and I feel like things have clicked, somewhat. Each of you give me different things and I feel selfish as I'm getting more than what I give. Inspired by Angela, I have decided to connect to love and have been thinking about it, but not really sure how to go about it. I've made half-hearted attempts. I'm practising gratitude, visualisation, being present, but mostly just thinking about it.

Just, before sleeping last night, I thought about my choosing post and decided to CHOOSE living from a place of love, BEING love. Then I read your post this morning and think wow, Rose is so cool she tapped into my subconsious before I got clear on deciding to CHOOSE. Thanks, Rose.

Just to share... a few days ago, I put myself in a pink bubble of love and let it float into the universe. There are no words to describe how it felt.