'Giving' up on girls

[Xin]

Seriously. The more effort I put into this, the harder it becomes. I'm just 17 and even though I've never even kissed a girl, I am thinking of 'giving' up on girls for the whole senior year. I was nice, became jerk, became whatever... And still haven't got any. The few good things I got from girls didn't even sprout from focusing on them - they were just natural extensions of a mindset I had.

No, this is not one of these whining threads you get to see about how unfair it all is. Of course I want to have a relationship, intimacy, hell, even to just get action. But looking into the past, I can't avoid but to wonder about the foolishness in all of this.

I'm definitely thinking of putting 0% effort into having something with girls. It's just dumb; instead of focusing into it, I can actually spend time having fun, playing guitar, surfing, travelling, chasing my dream, working out, studying... Hell, I can lead one amazing life, so why the hell am I fretting over 'not getting any'? For God's sake, let me wake up! Let me talk to everyone, get to know people, learn stuff, travel, enjoy life, without having to worry about something as stupid as kissing a girl I don't even care about.

Sure, if any comes my way, I'll take it. If not, the better. More time for my stuff. I also think that this may be the mindset I've been looking for.

Just wanted to share.