Trouble shaking resentment

[Enlightenment]

Hi guys,

Lately I've been having some real trouble shaking resentment even when I try to consciously think about the causes of that feeling within myself. I believe it is really affecting my social life and my interaction with people.

On two different occasion this month with two sets of people I have encountered someone not being forthright, thereby causing me much inconvenience and resentment. The first was that my neighbour went ahead and called a plumber because the landlord was away on vacation and was apparently not reachable. I ended up having to pay half the $400 plumbing bill. This annoyed me because for one, I didn't call the plumber and wasn't aware of the serious plumbing problems when the landlord rented this unit to us. Secondly, my children and I had some fun things planned for the end of the summer and this plumbing bill used up all of the money allocated to the daytrips with them. According to my neighbour, the landlord hasn't responded to several voice messages, but I find it difficult to believe that, in these days, one cannot check one's messages and then respond from Europe, I mean I have been able to.

The second thing that happened was that I found a producer for my screenplay and my literary agent wrote up an option agreement, a legal agreement to sell the script to the producer, and the producer's partner called up and announced that they never did have any intention of optioning the script and if they did, she wasn't informed of it! Something is amiss, either the two producer partners have really bad communication, or they aren't being forthright. I pray it is the former because I don't like feeling suspicious of people. I still am wondering how one partner can ask my agent to send over a legal agreement for them to sign, and the other partner not know anything about it.

Anyway, my agent said 'all's well that ends well' but I don't feel that way at all because it didn't end well. The fact of the matter is, I would have gotten a big fat check in the mail for my script as well as having a producer for my film by now... but I don't. Another thing that is important is, these producers want to do other projects with my agent, whose agency also has a production department. In fact, I know there is some negotiation going on involving another one of his writer clients. I have told my agent that I hope he doesn't go ahead with any other projects with these producers until my project has been squared away, meaning agreements have been signed, etc. I'm worried that all this stalling is so that the producers can secure a deal with my agent on other projects or worse my agent can secure a deal with them on another of his writer clients. I don't like feeling this way, and I want to trust people but it really is difficult to feel trusting when your mind can reconcile the facts with what appears to be happening.

A few times before, we thought we had a producer but then they didn't come through. I want to keep the faith and not be cynical or resentful because I know one reaps what one sows, but it really is difficult looking at the bright side of things when the situation is so repetitive, even for we self-aware' people. Now one of the producers is calling me next week and I honestly don't know what to say, I think there should be a conference call with all four of us so that there are no 'misunderstandings'. What do you guys think? Any help or suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

E