How do you know If you've got some kind of attachment??

[Silwer]

I visited a reiki healer/shaman some time ago who said I had something passed down through the generations... like many of the women in my family felt really depressed and useless during their life's and now sort of expect me to take over their bad energy and "save them" by ... well I dunno what they expected me to do about it... but in any case this healer I went to said she removed that bond so they could move on and I could take back my own life.

everything was all well and nice, I stopped being afraid of the dark and I no longer had nightmares about the house I grew up in...

Well... at least until today, this night I dreamt I was sitting in the kitchen of that house with some people (who I never seen) and I heard some strange noise from outside, so I asked one of the guys what it was. He replied:
"Have you already forgotten about your family legacy?"
And thus my heart started racing and fear completely took me over and I begged them to help me but was ignored. Soon my fear was replaced with rage and I woke up.

When I fell asleep again this black dog like creature that has been hunting me for many years in my dreams attacked me but I managed to shake it off by trapping it in a circle and repeating something in a strange language.

I tried calling the archangels in the dream to help me be rid of it forever and I was given a sword with glowing blue symbols on it and a great force of light and comfort filled me... but then when the hunt began it was like something else intervened and "the angel" that I sort of felt around me had to step aside as if not to get involved.

This could all have been a dream yes, but this was the only thing I dreamt about all night, it was vivid, clear and I remember it. That usually doesn't happen unless I've asked my main guide to give me a clear message.

So... does anyone think that this might be something more then a silly little nightmare? How do I find out If i still got something hanging on to me? Or if I even can get rid of it?!

thanks for reading

[desertrat]

Try the circulation of white light Circulation of white light after you have done the ritual visualize the white light filling any demons around you . Also while in deep medation visualize your higher self as a point of white light in deep space , ask your higher self to fill the demons with light . desert rat

[Emerald Rain]

Have you actually recognized that pattern in real life? That your relatives were/are unhappy? If not, perhaps that healer wasn't as reliable as you might think and the dreams could have been influenced by subconscious fear. If you have noticed these attributes in your female relatives, then I'll be staying tuned to hear what others have to say.

I've been told that we have something similar in our family, but I was told this by a family member, not a healer. It's all of the females. Myself, my mother, my grandmother, etc. I'm interested to know if anyone has an idea of what this might be and how to get rid of it.

[Silwer]

Emerald Rain: This was also a thing passed only to the family females, I didn't know anything about my grandparents (never had a chance to meet them) but when I asked my mom afterwards if it was true that my grandmother and others before her had been feeling like that she confirmed it.

I also know my mom had nightmares in the house we lived in, but she only told me that after I told her about mine. They were quite similar, except that my mom once had something grab her ankle when she was awake.

I'm glad my post might find some answers for you too

desertrat: Thank you! I'll try that, It might take some time to master it though, my visualize skills aren't too sharp yet ^^;

[Emerald Rain]

Originally Posted by Silwer

Emerald Rain: This was also a thing passed only to the family females, I didn't know anything about my grandparents (never had a chance to meet them) but when I asked my mom afterwards if it was true that my grandmother and others before her had been feeling like that she confirmed it.

I also know my mom had nightmares in the house we lived in, but she only told me that after I told her about mine. They were quite similar, except that my mom once had something grab her ankle when she was awake.

I'm glad my post might find some answers for you too

Oh my Grabbing her ankle?! That would terrify me. I've had similar occurrences but they seemed innocent in nature. I suppose I'm projecting here, did that event scare her or did she just kind of brush it off?

Out of curiosity, how long did you live at the house where you both had the nightmares? If you've since moved elsewhere, have they continued? Did your grandparents or any other relatives live in the house before you? Would you be comfortable sharing the nature of the nightmares? Have any other paranormal experiences occurred around you?

This is quite eerie and very interesting. I hope you don't mind my curiosity; I think that the more information the more able we'll be to determine what's going on, but I absolutely understand that not everyone wants to share their entire life stories. Anyway, I'm going to keep researching this and I'll keep you posted on whether or not I find anything useful.

Also, I feel obliged to say that my mother guessed it is depression that runs in our family. That could be an option. But I'm not satisfied with that answer. If that was the case, I find it difficult to understand how my brother and uncles are quite stable and easy going. So, take that however you will.

[Silwer]

Oh yeah it freaked her out a LOT! I think both me and my mom had the habit as kids to jump up in our beds and run for our life's every time we went to the bathroom in the night xD

The theme of the dreams are simple, (It might/will sound silly, but as a child this was terrifying ... and annoying ) this nightmare "creature" is mostly a four legged furry animal that in the dreams lived under my bed, pulling me under it whenever I would get up from bed. This is why I always slept with a lamp always on next to my bed. It might be a common fear for kids to have a monster under the bed, but in my case this thing didn't stay there. It moved around in the house, chasing me around to bite my nose of .. or well as time progressed "chew on me wherever he could bite."
Pretty much every dream I can remember from that time ended up with me being killed or eaten alive. Very vivid and painful dreams. (and I did not watch horror movies)
As I got older and more angry/annoyed/tired and able to defend myself the dreams turned more psychological where I together with my mom tried to escape from the house and this creature would sabotage every plan we had, like breaking the car or locking the doors. Sometimes it would hide in the field outside the house and attack me from there if I went outside. It also threw away all our food so we would starve.
An extreme dream I remember is how I sat on my bed crying for my mom and she came running to pull me away from the bed and these long spiky things shot up from beneath it and impaled me...

In the more recent dreams it has attacked me as (don't laugh yourself to death) a "hamster" sized thing... I know that sounds damn stupid, but you try to catch something super fast flying towards your heart and burrowing into your chest!
Now its more like a dog, last night it was two of them even, sometimes it even possesses the shape of my (now dead) black dog. Once even my cat because I would hesitate to hurt them.

I know this thing can talk/ or could .. or maybe this is different things, a creature and a human like entity. Either way it or them is not nice.
My mom told me to try and talk to it/hug it/ love it but that mostly ended up in me getting hurt... (my mom don't believe there are any bad entities out there, but that it is my subconscious wanting to tell me something. It is strange to hear her say that after she told me she had a dream where a truly evil beast tried to take me away from her)

I was somewhere in elementary school when we moved out. The night before that I had a dream confrontation with my nightmare creature and I bit it pretty badly in the face so it fled. It was quite calm for a while after that but it soon came back, through the door even! But in a more human form trying to make "peace" but I guess it wasn't serious about that... (in the dream that was) I cant even count how many dreams i've had where I've been running around in the house closing all windows and locking the door to keep it out.
I might have experienced some paranormal things but I think my mom had had the more obvious ones. My mom said she lifted from the ground when a sister of hers died in a heart problem. She has also felt something when a brother of hers died and she heard my dad calling her name the same night that he killed himself.

Maybe I could write more, but its almost midnight where I live so I cant think very fast. If you want to know more keep asking or pm me or even add me to skype if you want.
I've never had many male relatives around as me, my mom and her mom lived alone in that house. But my moms brothers seemed pretty normal and often joked around.

[supremeDMK]

I myself have had dreams that involved me fighting against overwhelming odds (like big groups of people) and always losing in the end.
However when I started meditating before sleeping the dreams became weaker and are now completely gone.

I believe that the meditation calmed my mind and also helped me let go of the emotions causing the dreams. Which were in my case fear and hatred for a certain type of people.

So maybe you can just meditate before sleeping and try to let go of the emotions that haunt you and see where that takes you.

[Silwer]

I've tried meditation before, but that makes me too alert and my head so clear that I can't actually sleep. I've practiced lucid dreaming and astral projection, so I'm no longer completely at the mercy of the dreams, but its still very exhausting mentally.
I'll keep trying though, maybe I just haven't learned to do it properly yet.

Thanks fro the advice.

You might be right about this having to do with emotions, but I have no idea what around me could have created such fear and hate, especially in such a young age and even now :S
I grew up alone with my mom and I've never been a social person so I barely know anyone or any situation that would cause that ... well I do get stressed out in big crowds because it is just too much for me to keep an eye on, but I don't dream about groups of people...

I have taken a reiki healing course to fight this though, and I will attend an expert course next month. That way, if there is some emotional mess inside me I should be able to heal it without even needing to know what it is. (I wouldn't mind knowing but unless the cause shows itself to me I really cant know :C )

[supremeDMK]

If meditation makes your head too clear and alert you can try doing it while laying in your bed. On me it has the effect of giving me a dreamless and deep sleep.

Good luck with the reiki and dealing with the dreams in general!

[Silwer]

dreamless and deep sleep ey? Maybe that is what i'm experiencing when listening to binaural beats D: Never thought about it that way ...
I always wake up feeling like i've been sleeping but think I haven't because I don't remember any dreams.

Thanks, you too!

[wstein]

Possibly, you never fully disconnected. More likely the family legacy has hunted you down in an attempt to get you back.

As you have not indicated what was behind the legacy, it’s not so easy to advise you what to do. However, if ‘it’ is strong enough to push aside angelic help, the clearly you are going to need a bit more assistance on your side.

It may only be a ‘nightmare’ now but if not dealt with, it can lead to a new attachment. Not trying to scare you, only suggest that you take the situation seriously and deal with it sooner rather than later.

[TuningIn]

Hi friend. How are you doing today. I am not a healer or mystical person who can magically fix whatever it is that's wrong or attempt to cause you to look upon me as a source of life when times get rough, but I will be a friend.

Listen to me and consider such thoughts...

You know what you know. That thing in the back of your mind that refuses to leave you alone. That reoccurring "dream theme" to your life. The magical happenings of synchronicities in your life, and if I am correct, you have someone that you can speak to about such things, who has the same "problem" (if you want to call it that... *shrugs*) and you know during those times of interaction, that what you know, is infact real, and will happen, for it already is. Friend, do not shy away from me out of fear. I am only here to speak to you, and remind you to breathe, and accept that truly, there is more to life than the physical, and there are tasks given to certain people. This is referred to often as destiny, and my perspective on that term and all of what it's concept contains, is that all that anything ever is, is exactly what it is, and what has happened, will happen, and whatever happens, happens, and everything happens for a reason. . . You know what you are, and who... So let go, and accept yourself....

Have a cookie, and by the time you finish eating it, you'll be right and rain... You'll remember you don't believe in any of this anyway....Just like Neo in "The Matrix" as he leaves from seeing the Oracle for the first time.

You've heard exactly what you needed to.

Much love.

[Silwer]

wstein: I can't really indicate what the "family legacy" is as that was something a dream character told me it was. I know though that the females in my family have rather low self esteem, and even if they are strong personalities and very wise they seem afraid or unable to do what they really want.
The healer said that they were depressed and sad when they died, and that fear can sometimes take on a life on its own. Maybe they passed on that fear and uncertainty to me so that I could deal with it and let it go. Maybe the healer removed the heavy energies they left behind as I no longer fear the house itself but the creature is left because I still fear it myself. That would sort of make it an embodiment of my own fear.

It would be a damn tough lesson to learn to deal with something that terrifies me so deeply... but ... thats a part of life I guess.

TuningIn: Your post and way of writing sounds a lot like my spirit guide... well not only that...
Thank you friend, that is something I've needed to hear from someone else for a very long time. I've probably known it, and been told about it but not until now when its written in front of me I can truly take in the meaning of the words.

[TuningIn]

I'm glad you understand. Be sure to pm me if you ever have a sudden inclination, or help of any kind. I may not be able to help, but I shall do the most with what is given, for it is not given for me to possess, but rather for me to give, just as freely as that which I have and/or will need, was and is given to me. Take care friend. Remember, breathe.

[Acting Like Godot]

Originally Posted by Silwer

like many of the women in my family felt really depressed and useless during their life's and now sort of expect me to take over their bad energy and "save them" by ... well I dunno what they expected me to do about it...

....How do I find out If i still got something hanging on to me? Or if I even can get rid of it?!

You can get rid of it by not taking it seriously. Which is not to say it is fake. It could be real. But it is still something you can get rid of, by not taking it seriously.

Take small, simple steps towards building the opposite sorts of vibrations. For example, if the problem is vibes of depression and uselessness, then take small, simple steps of creating vibes of quiet joy and usefulness.

Do it in small, simple steps. Don't make it a big challenging project for yourself, which would lead to negative consequences of defeat, if you fail. Instead do it with many small, simple steps everyday whereby you will surely succeed.

Today, do one thing that brings you joy or serenity. Tomorrow, do one thing that makes you feel useful. Repeat cycle. In this way, the curse is steadily chipped away and weakened and falls away unobtrusively.