Energy/Autoimmune diseases/Spiritual causes?

[Ilique]

Hi All -

New to your forum - have been reading various threads over the past few days and am a bit intrigued by some aspects of spirits/energies/etc. that are often the topics. I'll be honest. I went online to search out information on "evil entities" because I am writing a story and needed something bad to fight against the good in the story. The story actually grew from a dream I had. It was one of those intense, "stick-with-you-way-longer-than-seems-normal" kind of dreams, about a strange basement area and my landlord, who became possessed when he entered it and subsequently tried to murder both myself and his wife. Yes, weird dream, and of course it branched out into impossible scenarios from there, but ended with me finding a quite amazing man with psychic abilities, and forming an immediate attachment.

I don't have any plans for this story. Writing it is an exercise for me, in some ways, but also a way to let the story out of my mind. I have always had a tendency to get too wrapped up, mentally/emotionally, with books or movies or stories. If I find myself in a mental fantasy that is hard to shake, writing it out in a story helps center me again.

But I got stuck on what the "evil" could be in the basement and so I came online to research a bit. That brought me to this site.

Now, after all of that .. *LOL* .. I'm not sure what I believe at this point. I've long known about energy/attitude and how it affects most aspects of your life. I've been a dog trainer for decades and, to be good at that, you need to have a mental energy that transmits to the dog and basically tells it: "I am leader. You are follower. I will treat you fairly, and you will respond with gratitude." It isn't a matter of physical strength, although when you are physically strong it helps you to be mentally strong when you're working with animals. But the energy/attitude is something that always came naturally to me. After all these years teaching other humans how to train their dogs, it's easy to see that most people do NOT have that natural energy/attitude that allows them to communicate their leadership easily.

Moving on. The year is 2004, and I'm finding I have a lot of pain. I'd always been strong and fairly active, working with horses and dogs for my entire adult life. I was training in agility with my dogs at the time and teaching agility classes. Coming into the winter, I was at one of the best points in my life - EVER - when it comes to financial potential and organization. But the pain got worse, and in January 2005 my hands became very swollen and I couldn't move my fingers or lift my arms. Other joints flared too. I was soon diagnosed with an autoimmune disease (rheumatoid arthritis).

My mother had been diagnosed with RA 3-4 years earlier, after going through a tremendous amount of stress (taking care of my Dad, who was dying of cancer). My stress level was high at the time I was diagnosed, partly because I had so much going on and partly because I hadn't fully processed my Dad's death in 2002 and my best friend's suicide in 2001. On top of that, all of America was still reeling from the 9-11 attacks and the feeling of the whole country was one of stress.

I assumed, at the time, that I ended up with RA just because I inherited it from my Mom. I still think that's why it was in my system - however, after reading many of the threads on this forum, I wonder what kind of outside forces may have pushed this upon me. Up until summer of 2004 I had been physically strong. I'd had some rough times, mentally, with a lot of "gray" in my life, but had always gotten through them on my own, through my own strength (I consider myself, overall, mentally strong as well as physically). But I've never considered spirits attaching themselves, or entities of some type affecting my mood or mental/emotional well-being.

So - in YOUR experience and with YOUR knowledge - how likely is it that my physical illness was caused/encouraged by spirit entities? And how does someone like myself - who has never considered this a possibility and who has always depended on her own strength - deal with it?

By the way, the autoimmune disease is still very much there. I fight it every day. I'm in pain all the time and on various medications to combat the damage happening to my joints, and the pain, and the various other wonderful things that happen along with rheumatoid arthritis. I've completely lost the life I used to have. Unable to work due to the constant pain and difficulties sleeping/moving etc., I reluctantly gave up and applied for (and received) disability in 2009. It's been a struggle of epic proportions, mentally - emotionally - and physically.

Any thoughts? Thanks in advance -

Melanie, in the chilly state of Alaska

[AngelPsychic444]

There could be outside entities causing some of your problems or just making normal problems worse..it's sort of hard to say, but I have read reports of things like this.

The one suggestion I have for you, that might be able to give you some relief with your problems is to ask your guardian angel for help.

I have a thread where I explain a method called requesting most benevolent outcomes (MBO's), where you repeat a simple phrase that tell's your guardian angel what's wrong and also requests help from this being.

I've had various physical things happen to me like backaches and headaches and other things clear up very quickly using MBO's and think you might get some much needed help this way. You could request an MBO to have your guardian angel get rid of any negative spirits in your aura or home that are causing you undue stress or draining your energy. Plus the fact you can request an MBO to help you find a great doctor or natural healer to help you resolve your problems or at least point you in the right direction to get some much needed help.

Here's the thread I'm talking about, I would take the time to read through it and also explore the links in my very first post in that thread... so that you have all the background information.

The Gentle Way: requesting most benevolent outcomes

[desertrat]

I would say go in to deep medatation , ask your higher self/guides / masters what is causing your r.a. and the proper corse of acction . desert rat

[Ilique]

Thanks so much for your responses - I really do appreciate it!

I read up on the MBO's and I'm letting the concept simmer in my mind for a bit. I wrote down what needs to be said (I tend to be a note-taker, works best for me that way).

I did try a quick MBO regarding my teeth, one of which has been KILLING me lately. I've been doing better on antibiotics but still having to struggle with pain daily. It twinged slightly earlier while I was reading through the MBO information, so when it came time for me to write down what I needed to say, I said it outloud and used my teeth as the request for the benevolent outcome. My teeth stopped twinging and I made it through the entire day with NO pain in the tooth! That was kind of amazing, because this one tooth has been a ♥♥♥♥♥ to deal with.

The whole idea of just asking for these great outcomes and having them granted to us seems wrong to me, though. It's like getting something for free. And being able to ask for them for such minor things as a parking space or a short line at the grocery store. It seems like the guardian angels would get tired having to deal with constant requests especially ones that are not that necessary. Is there some reason why the guardian angels are so willing to do all this for us with no expectations in return? Or do I have things mixed up yet?

Melanie