Toothpicks

[Wade]

Hi everyone,

Ok so I have this thing happen to me on occasion and I'm curious to what it is. I really thought that I was beginning to have a seizure or something when I could feel it coming on so I would always try and suppress it or make it stop. I was talking to a fried today and he said that I should post it here to maybe get a better understanding of it. Just so you know I have really never believed in demons or any of that kind of stuff....not sure if this makes a difference or not. Here it goes...

It think it happens when I am quite tired. i will lay in my bed and have this sensation that I am actually sinking into the bed, maybe about a foot down. Everything feels really heave, my arms, legs....everything. At this point when this happens I can get up and shake it off and it goes away, but if I stay still and just let it happen I end up feeling heavier and heavier, and then I have a sensation of toothpicks (messed up, I know). I can taste them, taste the texture, it's like when I clench my jaws i have this sensation of toothpicks. Its kinda hard to explain but my whole body has this feeling of toothpicks...I think...anyways sometimes I play with it and try to go a little deeper but I usually get a little uncomfortable (scared) and make it end. I have had this for a very long time, not really sure but probably around 13 years old and I'm now 37. I have no idea what toothpicks represent, I just chalked it up to a mild seizure that I could control. Anyways any ideas I would be grateful. It's probably been a year since it last came on but I think I could induce it myself if I tryrd....not certain though.

Thanks,
Wade