Indigo children?

[thestral]

Ever since I was very young I have been told that I am a "light worker" and all sorts of things that I personally was very confused about, I was just a child. I have a near genuis/genuis level IQ, was walking and talking long before my time and was put into a private school for my kindergarten and first grade years because my preschool had taught me all it could and the public school district said I was too young. I've always been an oddball because my interests always seemed decades ahead of my age. I pretty much labeled myself an outcast.

But when I hit high school is when the talk started about Indigo children. I had several people - strangers on the street, the guy sitting at the booth behind us in a restaurant, my friend's psychic - tell me I'm an Indigo child. I'm now 24 and finally finding my spiritual side. I really have gotten into LoA (and loving it!) I had completely forgotten about the Indigo stuff until a guy came up to me at the beach and asked if I knew I was an Indigo child.

I was raised by parents who were pretty loose on religion, we did not follow faith. They encouraged my interests (even though they thought most of them were weird) but were very big on thinking anything New Age was crap. I had the same belief until a year or so ago.

Can I be one and not know it? Could I have "suppressed abilities"? I keep trying to brush this off as craziness, but when it keeps happening it begins to weird a girl out. I'm too old according to what I've read. Or am I something else?

[Erin Pavlina]

Read up on it, I suggest, and see what you think. I'm no expert, so I recommend Doreen Virtue's work.

[thestral]

Thank you Erin! I did a little research and there are adult Indigos, who are supposed to be here to "pave the way" whatever that means. Its just so weird to have complete strangers come up to me on the street and call me this, I could only brush it off for so long!

[searstower]

thestral,

Yes, you can be an indigo at any age. The Indigo just indicates a particular color in your aura. In the eighties and ninties, there were a huge percentage of children being born who had the color indigo in their aura.

'Indigo children' have a reputation for not only being geniuses, but for being rebelious and having trouble with authority. Lots of people think ADD is a form of indigo expression.

I'm 24 and I've been told that I'm a crystal child, a different aura color. Enjoy your investigation!

Rebecca

[Natasha]

I'm 24 too, and my more spiritual friends call me their "golden child." lol. Luckily for me, that one doesn't come with any preconcieved notions (besides that old Eddie Murphy movie! lol), so I know I can take it as what it is meant: A compliment on my personality and talents.

The Moral: Sometimes a name is just a name. You don't have to read anything into it, unless you want to.

[CFPurpose]

I found this list about 2 years ago. Supposedly, you are an Indigo if you possess all of the following characteristics or are only short by 2 or 3. I have a hard time indentifying myself or anyone as an Indigo. "Indigo" is a term we have come up with and who's to say someone is really anything we have termed? Hmmmm.

Are intelligent (though did not necessarily have top grades).

Are very creative and enjoy making things.

Always need to know WHY (especially why they are being asked to do something).

Had disgust and perhaps loathing for the inanity of much of the required work in school, the repetition.

Were rebellious in school, refusing to do homework, rejecting authority of teachers OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure.

May have experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult.

Have difficulty in service-oriented jobs - resistance to authority and caste system of employment.

Prefer cooperative efforts or leadership position or solo if expertise is valued.

Have deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity.

Extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) - to no expression of emotion (full shielding).

May have trouble with RAGE.

Have trouble with most systems (either emotionally, mentally, or physically)- political, educational, medical, law.

Alienation from politics - feeling your voice won't count and that the outcome really doesn't matter anyway.

Frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc.

Anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you."

They feel a need like a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. May be stymied what to do.

Have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years.
Had few if any Indigo role models.

Have strong intuition.

Random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder), may have trouble focusing on a task unless of OWN choosing, may jump around in conversations.

Have had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, hearing voices.

Sexually expressive and inventive OR may reject sexuality in boredom. May explore alternate types of sexuality.

Seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world May seek this through religion, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups or books, or individually.

If they find balance they may become very strong, healthy, happy lightworkers.

Metagifted Education Resource Organization: Adult Indigos

[thestral]

Are intelligent (though did not necessarily have top grades).
Yep, I could have had top grades but homework bored me

Are very creative and enjoy making things.
*counts fingers* I act, sing, do comedy, paint, pastels, sketch, and write

Always need to know WHY (especially why they are being asked to do something).
Now this is me to a T! All my relatives always told me that, even as a toddler, I always asked why! I still do, much to the chagrin of my co-workers!

Had disgust and perhaps loathing for the inanity of much of the required work in school, the repetition.
Oh gods, yes!

Were rebellious in school, refusing to do homework, rejecting authority of teachers OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure.
The latter. Parents would have killed me.

May have experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult.
Both the feelings, and the several attempts.

Have difficulty in service-oriented jobs - resistance to authority and caste system of employment.
Yep, except for the one service job that had a very loose hierarchy, which I adored

Prefer cooperative efforts or leadership position or solo if expertise is valued.
*nods*

Have deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity.
*laughs* I'm always saying I feel for all people, but cannot stomach morons.

Extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) - to no expression of emotion (full shielding).
The former until I was a teen, then swung to the latter. This is something I'm seriously working on.

May have trouble with RAGE.
Used to, been working very hard on this one

Have trouble with most systems (either emotionally, mentally, or physically)- political, educational, medical, law.
Law and education, do not get me started

Alienation from politics - feeling your voice won't count and that the outcome really doesn't matter anyway.
This does not fit. I'm very involved politically

Frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc.
Definate rejection

Anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you."
Oh yes...

They feel a need like a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. May be stymied what to do.
I have felt this way forever but only recently realized how I was going to do so.

Have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years.
Had few if any Indigo role models.
Yep. My folks were not religious, so I took it upon myself to study every religion I could. Live in a big city, within biking distance of 30 different houses of worship.

Have strong intuition.
Live my life by it

Random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder), may have trouble focusing on a task unless of OWN choosing, may jump around in conversations.
Yes! I cannot visualzie worth beans, cannot focus for more then a few minutes at a time.

Have had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, hearing voices.
All the time, less now that I've met my spirit guide

Seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world May seek this through religion, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups or books, or individually.
All the above

If they find balance they may become very strong, healthy, happy lightworkers.
I kept getting told I was a lightworker

[DoAnyOfYouExist]

Originally Posted by CFPurpose

I found this list about 2 years ago. Supposedly, you are an Indigo if you possess all of the following characteristics or are only short by 2 or 3. I have a hard time indentifying myself or anyone as an Indigo. "Indigo" is a term we have come up with and who's to say someone is really anything we have termed? Hmmmm.

Are intelligent (though did not necessarily have top grades).

Are very creative and enjoy making things.

Always need to know WHY (especially why they are being asked to do something).

Had disgust and perhaps loathing for the inanity of much of the required work in school, the repetition.

Were rebellious in school, refusing to do homework, rejecting authority of teachers OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure.

May have experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult.

Have difficulty in service-oriented jobs - resistance to authority and caste system of employment.

Prefer cooperative efforts or leadership position or solo if expertise is valued.

Have deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity.

Extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) - to no expression of emotion (full shielding).

May have trouble with RAGE.

Have trouble with most systems (either emotionally, mentally, or physically)- political, educational, medical, law.

Alienation from politics - feeling your voice won't count and that the outcome really doesn't matter anyway.

Frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc.

Anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you."

They feel a need like a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. May be stymied what to do.

Have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years.
Had few if any Indigo role models.

Have strong intuition.

Random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder), may have trouble focusing on a task unless of OWN choosing, may jump around in conversations.

Have had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, hearing voices.

Sexually expressive and inventive OR may reject sexuality in boredom. May explore alternate types of sexuality.

Seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world May seek this through religion, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups or books, or individually.

If they find balance they may become very strong, healthy, happy lightworkers.

Metagifted Education Resource Organization: Adult Indigos

I am 22 and a half and all of that ************ fits me to a T. I always knew and was told that I am special, not like other people. I was told this by my parents, doctors, teachers... They said I had a problem with authority and doing what I was told though I could become a great man if I chose. Could I be an Indigo child? Sure why not, I can be whatever I please, I hold every key.

[JJH]

Don't get too hung up on identifying with a list of traits. You simply are....

[thestral]

Originally Posted by JJH

Don't get too hung up on identifying with a list of traits. You simply are....

I know I am. But I desire to grow and learn more about myself spiritually, but I need incentive to do so, as there is so many paths to explore. Since I identify with so many traits, it makes that path more appealing to study, to learn and to grow.

[Believer]

That list pretty much describes every person on the planet, everyone will find ways to fit those to themselves because being an indigo child sounds cool and everyone wants to be cool.

That's how I see it anyway.

[Brendon Colby]

Originally Posted by Believer

That list pretty much describes every person on the planet, everyone will find ways to fit those to themselves because being an indigo child sounds cool and everyone wants to be cool.

That's how I see it anyway.

Well according to this site, it describes at least most of the people born since 1992! I'm astonished at how accurate this list is at describing me. I have never heard of an "Indigo child" before. I can tell you that if this did accurately describe most people, esp. those my age (26) then I would have had a MUCH less difficult time than I did growing up! My mom begged the doctor to give me something because I was such a s**t and she couldn't handle me. I have ALWAYS felt different...always...so this is an interesting concept.

[Believer]

Which kids aren't difficult though? I know I was, but I was born in 1984 (I'm 22), so even though I can relate to all of that, I have a low chance of being one, since it started in 1992(ish).

I know a lot of people who believe this are going to tell me not to be so literal or that I should have a little more faith. But to be perfectly honest, this all sounds silly to me.

I mean it's just so general that anyone can relate to it, much like the star sign pages in news papers.

Sorry if this post doesn't make much sense, I'm having trouble getting my thoughts down at the moment.

Oh and EVERYONE feels different mate!

[One]

22/25 Qualify!

Somehow I've still never successfully been able to execute a Jedi Mind Trick. Is it in the wrist? I hear it's in the wrist.

*edit: Seriously, it's not working.

[gemy]

My name is angel im 14 turning 15 in may the list above fits me perfectly. I know that i for sure add but could i have this too?

[OlderWiser]

I'm completely gobsmacked. Even some of the obscure stuff on that list... It's absolutely me. Wow. Not sure what to make of it. I'll have to think and read.

I'm not young, though. I'm 42, will be 43 this month. My mother always told me I was "born different" (in her mind, this was a bad thing, mind you). Maybe she was actually right....

[Maverick]

This entire post made me laugh, I had to say that.

A few years ago I heard about these "Indigo children" but I shrugged it of. After reading this post, I read a little more into it on the internet. It made me laugh more. I did not laugh because I think it is rubbish. I simply laughed because the description of an "Indigo child" pretty much fits me. There are a few things they have wrong, but it was written by humans, so there is always something wrong.

Anyway I just thought I would reply. I'm not saying hey look at me!! I'm an Indigo child. I will never refer to myself as that, I am me. And I know what I am. Its just funny to see all these other humans runnning around like ohhhhhhhh wow, look human evolution... Indigo children.

People make me laugh.

enough said.

[MagnusTapping]

This video of Akiane is the most awesome. She's featured in a documentary called 'Indigo Evolution' which you might like to watch. There's also a fun little movie with Neale Donald Walsch in it, called 'Indigo'.

I have met a couple of indigo children. In my experience they take to learning The Secret and Tapping/EFT very very quickly.

On the one hand, I would invite you to explore your spiritual nature with whatever practice you are drawn to. On the other hand, this is already unfolding perfectly, the very fact that you have found yourself on this forum is sign enough.

Don't worry about having some great destiny to find, we all have one of those and you can be sure that it will find you. Your job is no different to anyone else's; be the best person you can be and express yourself as fully as you can.

Magnus

[CFPurpose]

Wow Magnus!!

She is the best child prodigy I have seen so far in my opinion! Her paintings are amazing!

I liked what she said about eyes.

Thank you so much for sharing.

[Decheron]

Indigo children are not some new phenomena, it's just another new age label. Christ was a child prodigy, so was Mozart, so was my father. All people who lived outside the norm, isolated, strange, having self developed intelligence and outcast or distinct from the mass of humanity by their characters.

I too, have all the qualities on that list, have been made a lifelong outcast, rejected even within my family, have shown an unusual intelligence, creativity and spirituality all my life - and I am 47.

Having said that, I'm also a failure; housebound through enduring peoples' systematic prejudice, hostility and mental/emotional cruelty. Not broken, I work to better my life, be productive to the planet and have peace despite all attempts to prevent it.

I do not consider myself a human being, live by my own law and God, avoid humans and their way of living. The members of this site are all "indigo children", I think, all separate from humanity and creating a new world. So, Thestral, peoples' perception of you is probably true and you are one of the new species of human.

I expect everyone knows, but I'll mention it anyway; Indigo is considered the most sacred colour, the colour of God. Also, I don't know what The Secret is all about, but those who follow a different path to the norm are said to be "walking The Way", I suspect it's the same thing.

[OlderWiser]

Originally Posted by Decheron

Indigo children are not some new phenomena, it's just another new age label.

After I initially read this thread, I did a fair bit of reading on the topic of "Indigo Children" and that's the conclusion I came to, as well. It's just a label for describing a certain kind of personality type as far as I can see. There are plenty of reasonable explanations as to why we perceive more of them now than in the past.

I would like to think that humanity is evolving, but unfortunately I've studied a lot of history, and I've yet to see any real evidence that humans have ever gotten past our basically pre-historic brains. We know a lot more stuff, some of it pretty complicated, and our knowledge does keep expanding (although as we learn new stuff, we abandon older knowledge, so there is lots of knowledge that is now lost to us), and there does appear to be some shifting consciousness in some areas, but unfortunately I'm a little too cynical when it comes to humanity to think there are any widespread leaps in evolution. I haven't seen any reason to believe it.

I'd like to be proven wrong, of course.

I believe very strongly that INDIVIDUAL people can and do evolve. But it seems that for every person who really wants to grow and evolve, there are millions who don't.

[MagnusTapping]

Indigo Children are not a new phenomenon, but they are arriving now in numbers greater than ever before, and this reflects the advancement of consciousness on our planet.

Wallace Wattles said, 100 years ago, "The world is not going to the devil, the world is going to God." It may seem to you to be taking a rather round about route, but that is merely a case of what you focus on.

[Decheron]

Originally Posted by OlderWiser

I would like to think that humanity is evolving, but unfortunately I've studied a lot of history, and I've yet to see any real evidence that humans have ever gotten past our basically pre-historic brains. We know a lot more stuff, some of it pretty complicated, and our knowledge does keep expanding (although as we learn new stuff, we abandon older knowledge, so there is lots of knowledge that is now lost to us), and there does appear to be some shifting consciousness in some areas, but unfortunately I'm a little too cynical when it comes to humanity to think there are any widespread leaps in evolution. I haven't seen any reason to believe it.
(

Thanks for the input, OlderWiser, which inspires intellectual thought and consideration. I, too, have spent a great many years studying history, primarily ancient and medieval history, but also anthropology and prehistory. I was tracing the path of mankind, trying to find a point when humanity was not a destructive, arrogant species. Of course, I haven't found it yet. I have no faith in the modern world or humanity, seeking only to live as symbiotically as possible with this planet.

When I spoke of human evolution, I was viewing it from the Darwinian, biological perspective, not as some widespread leap in advancement (which only really happens in Nature when a catalyst forces the changes). Evolution is continuous and slow, no matter how little surface change can be seen. Scientists in the UK, for instance, publish a report every 100 years (the last was a year or two ago) cataloguing how humans have changed physically. The changes are generally subtle, such as changes in fitness, posture or infant mortality. Recent changes are thought to result from better nutrition and industrialisation, so scientists are speculating we may now adapt to suit long periods spent using a computer.

The human brain has evolved little physically, but only about 20% of the brain is commonly in use while almost nothing is known about the human brain's potential. It's thought we could well develop in mental capacities, such as telepathy or fine honing to keep up with technological developments.

Also, older knowledge is not lost for being abandoned or no one would be able to recreate past crafts or lifestyles. Much of that knowledge is pure instinct, genetically encoded and would be accessible again if it were needed. Most people would be able to hunt or build a home if needed, yet we once had neither structures nor tools. Admittedly, this isn't strictly abandoned knowledge, but there are many people who do not have these once universal abilities.

The main point of all that theory, then, was that these social anomolies may well be indications of the direction in which humans are evolving. Such people (like the "indigo children") will become the norm or extinct, according to how successful the adaptations are.

I'm sorry I haven't quoted sources or examples in more detail, but this isn't a thesis or book report. These are just personal opinions drawn from thousands of sources collected over a long period.

[OlderWiser]

Originally Posted by Decheron

Also, older knowledge is not lost for being abandoned or no one would be able to recreate past crafts or lifestyles.

Oh, but there are things that seem to be lost, unfortunately. The one that springs to mind is how they watered the hanging gardens of Babylon, but there are others I've also seen, such as techniques for certain kinds of constructions, many kinds of arts and crafts, and so forth.

Some things can be reconstructed or learned anew, sure. Perhaps some of it is genetic memory (I believe such a thing is possible).

I would actually like to be less cynical about the evolution of humanity. As I've said, I hope I'm wrong. I'd love to live to see humanity have a big spiritual awakening or similar. It's something to hope for, but I don't see much hope for it, personally.

[priyashah]

I read about Indigos only a few months, ago, and learned that I am Indigo when I did an aura scan in a meditation workshop recently.

Wrote about it here
Soul Kadee » Balancing My Chakras In Leo’s Meditation Workshop

[Decheron]

I've started a new thread on the discussion with OlderWiser, as the subject seems to be straying from the topic of Indigo Children.

Lost knowledge, evolution, dissillusionment with Mankind.

[mlc82]

Originally Posted by CFPurpose

I found this list about 2 years ago. Supposedly, you are an Indigo if you possess all of the following characteristics or are only short by 2 or 3. I have a hard time indentifying myself or anyone as an Indigo. "Indigo" is a term we have come up with and who's to say someone is really anything we have termed? Hmmmm.

Are intelligent (though did not necessarily have top grades).

Are very creative and enjoy making things.

Always need to know WHY (especially why they are being asked to do something).

Had disgust and perhaps loathing for the inanity of much of the required work in school, the repetition.

Were rebellious in school, refusing to do homework, rejecting authority of teachers OR seriously wanted to rebel, but didn't DARE, usually due to parental pressure.

May have experienced early existential depression and feelings of helplessness. These may have ranged from sadness to utter despair. Suicidal feelings while still in high school or younger are not uncommon in the Indigo Adult.

Have difficulty in service-oriented jobs - resistance to authority and caste system of employment.

Prefer cooperative efforts or leadership position or solo if expertise is valued.

Have deep empathy for others, yet an intolerance of stupidity.

Extremely emotionally sensitive including crying at the drop of a hat (no shielding) - to no expression of emotion (full shielding).

May have trouble with RAGE.

Have trouble with most systems (either emotionally, mentally, or physically)- political, educational, medical, law.

Alienation from politics - feeling your voice won't count and that the outcome really doesn't matter anyway.

Frustration with or rejection of the traditional American dream - 9-5 career, marriage, 2.5 children, house with white picket fence, etc.

Anger at rights being taken away, fear and/or fury at "Big Brother watching you."

They feel a need like a burning desire to do something to change and improve the world. May be stymied what to do.

Have psychic or spiritual interest fairly young - in or before teen years.
Had few if any Indigo role models.

Have strong intuition.

Random behavior pattern or mind style - (symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder), may have trouble focusing on a task unless of OWN choosing, may jump around in conversations.

Have had psychic experiences, such as premonitions, seeing angels or ghosts, hearing voices.

Sexually expressive and inventive OR may reject sexuality in boredom. May explore alternate types of sexuality.

Seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world May seek this through religion, spiritual groups and books, self-help groups or books, or individually.

If they find balance they may become very strong, healthy, happy lightworkers.

Metagifted Education Resource Organization: Adult Indigos

Interestingly, you actually almost described me spot on here and the only thing I've really read about "indigos" sounded so blatantly new-agey that I blew it off as nothing...

I hated school (hardly ever went), got decent grades which would have been much better if I'd actually applied myself but was bored to death by most of it and it took all of my energy just to stay focused or even awake (I'm talking kindergarten through graduating High School here- I hated almost every bit).

Also went through a period of really horrible depression (mainly from age 17 or so til about 23, I'm 24 now and with much more positive mindset though still feel I'm lacking direction toward purpose/passion), sometimes constant suicidal thoughts (the only thing that kept me from doing it was the effect it would have on my mom and dad, even my cat- other than those I couldn't have cared any less at one point). Really a big long story but this is the summary.

Virtually every bit of the above stemmed from realizing I no longer believed in the religion I was brought up in, which made pretty much everything I believed and every sense of purpose I had come crashing down, any sense of there being a point to life was gone... Shaky ground, and then one minor traumatic event occured, with another a couple of yrs later, which really almost did me in even though they weren't that huge of a deal looking back.

The rage part made me laugh, my mom used to tell me I needed anger management therapy when I was a teen, all it finally took was one broken hand thanks to a moment of rage and swift punch into a wall that wound up getting the best of me I learned the value of deep breaths after that one.

Have always been a very sexual person also, and find any religious or spiritual beliefs claiming that sex is somehow dirty or evil to be abhorrent.

I tend to annoy people because I am always interested in why, and again on the subject of religion, a lot of times I can inadvertently turn the "annoy" into "offend", just by asking those questions you "aren't supposed to ask" and not even being antagonistic about it.

"Seek meaning to their life and understanding about the world" - this to me is of 100% absolute importance, finding some reason for being here in the first place that I can actually believe is the #1 goal of my entire life at the moment. Everything else to me would stem from this.


I've never had any kind of psychic or paranormal experience, would love too even though it might terrify me

I could keep on and on, I meant to type a single paragraph and have gone on forever now, and have to leave so I'm going to shut up for now

[mimusisj]

Aaahhh I am soo glad you posted this!!! About 2 months ago I went to a psychic and was told that#1. I am a healer, and #2. I am and Idigo Child, as well.... and I have also had the same kind of wierd experiences and was labeled as "more advanced" (well, according to society... I always thought of myself as a little ditzy and stubborn... but whatever.. ) all my life, too...(I am 26 and things are getting more intense for me as far as psychic abilities/intuition are concerned)

It's so nice to know someone else is having the same wierd experience!!

Keep us posted on anything you read up on!! If Indigo Children are meant to start "paving the way" for an enlightened future, we oughta stick together!!

p.s. the psychic also told me to read "The Secret".... which I had just started to get into after reading The Law of Attraction...

[Brendon Colby]

Wow...I though that video on Akiane was amazing! There seem to be a lot of people coming on here, reading this, and feeling just really validated (lot of 20 somethings). I don't think the label matters at all. Some people seem to be getting hung up on the label. I just think it's nice knowing there are others out there that feel like I do, that are like me. Somehow I had gotten it into my head that I was alone here, feeling so complete "off" from how most others seem to feel. It's just nice knowing I'm not.

Brendon