Was this a 'third eye' thing?

[Midwinter Mist]

Less than half an hour ago, I had a 'moment' of good and bad feelings.

For reasons that I won't get into, my mind hit a serious line of inner anger and frustration. Thoughts which often plague my mind and keep my OCD so ever strong were now stronger than ever. I wanted to cause pain to someone I love so very much, and potentially kill them.

I brushed through the thoughts, assuming it was just another one of those things, but it wasn't. This was for real, and it was all because this person was supporting something that kills me in my own world. For me, it's something that kills the world itself and I'm very passionate about it, but what I felt was wrong. I'm not sure why the negative feelings grew to the extent they did, but various contributions had clearly made something inside me snap. I guess perhaps it was something waiting to happen.

I had my MP3 player at my side and a part of me wanted to play it. In fact, that part of me kept telling me to do it in order to turn those feelings into dust, because the right music turns me inside-out - the true heart and soul within me is released.

I hesitated as the negative thoughts were incredibly powerful, but then it happened. I put on my headphones and fired up the MP3 player. A song was brought up on screen from the last album I must have played. It's beautiful but not what I wanted to play. However, it decided to play itself, so I just accepted it and closed my eyes. Then, something changed.

Despite what I'm usually like (I don't find it easy closing my eyes for extended periods of time under certain conditions as I have paranoia problems), my eyes wouldn't open. I refused to open them, stating that at that point I feared no evil - nothing, and could not be harmed by anything or anyone. I emphasised it to the extreme along with how I could not be destroyed. At all. No exceptions.

My head just 'woke up'. Suddenly and strongly, I felt my fears and strengths coming to life in the sense that my fears felt present but they couldn't stop these unknown strengths. I started to feel this really cool air blowing against my face. A part of me felt like my fears were well and truly around me (evil) and I even stated that I didn't even fear being touched by the 'unknown' at that point. My heart felt a slight burst as I then felt something touch my leg but my strength just blew through the roof over it. I was literally becoming fearless and was like a mountain that couldn't be moved.

I was fighting this negative inside and then, along with the cool air blowing against my face, my head became really heavy and it felt like it was slightly pushed back. I then felt something feeling against the surface of my forehead, which then felt like it was both on the inside and outside. I could feel it making the shape of an eye, and bearing in mind that I was entering this really unfamiliar trance-like state, a part of me wondered if it could have been something to do with the third eye, though I personally have no idea. However, a part of me was very quick to believe that I was transcending in some way.

Anyway, this all proceeded with much intensity and I literally punched the hell out of these fears and destroyed the negativity I had experienced within no time at all. In that time, I explained so much to myself and it feels like I've been mildly cured. I say 'mildly' because I still have so many personal obstacles and a depression that crushes the life in me, but the problem I experienced earlier was absolutely annihilated.

After a little time passed, I told myself that I was coming out of that state and so I did with the feelings in/on my forehead, etc, instantaneously vanishing.

[bluestar]

Could be you just had a meeting with The Shadow or a part of it, and maybe a major part. Sounds pretty positive. Maybe you met that shadow self head on and transmuted it. The alchemy of doing that would be likely to really extend your consciousness.
We all have this Shadow. The positive thing is when we take real personal responsibility for it, grasp it and work with it, rather than projecting it onto others or life situations, etc.