Misleading information in meditation

[Fellforit]

Hi all,

I've been having some issues with my abilities lately and am wondering if any of you could help shed some light on the problems I'm facing. I really don't know who else to ask. Forgive me if this turns out to be a long post.

By way of background, for the last two years or so, I've been receiving images in my third eye area and some "voices" (inside my head voices, not outside my head) before I go to sleep, or after waking from a deep sleep. Some of these images have referred to events that happen at a later point so I believe they are clairvoyant. I know they are not made up in my head, as in I'm not daydreaming them or directing them. They happen randomly and I'm not sure what they mean at the time, so I don't think they're from my subconcious.

So I then started studying spirituality, read lots of articles by Erin, Anna and Slade, etc. and wondered if I wasn't perhaps awakening something. A lot of the articles referred to spirit guide communication and meditation. So I thought I would try a guided meditation to meet with my guide(s).

I did so a few times, and met with a guide who I call James. At first, he just sat with me silently in a supportive, comforting fashion. After a few meditations we started speaking to each other but I can't really remember what was said (only started writing things down later).

At around Halloween, I read Erin's blog on the AG (a bad entity), and got nightmares, headaches, scary visions and name calling for several days. I realized that it wasn't coming from the light and got rid of the guy (if that's what it was) by calling on Archangel Michael. Every one of those "symptoms" have since disappeared.

Recently, James introduced me to two other guides: one is Andrew, an old man who I liken to Abe Vigoda, who led me to what I thought was the Akashic Records. I didn't get much information, but had a few insights into a period or two in my past lives. I haven't been able to see any information about others in my current life, except for one ex boyfriend.

Another time, James introduced me to Angela, my "romantic love" guide. She came across as an angel - I actually started crying in meditation when I met her due to the love I felt. She said she is "working on things for me".

So, fast forward to a week ago and James called to me to meditate (I don't usually feel pulled to do so, but the last few times I have). He said there was something serious to discuss and then described an event that would happen yesterday (the ex coming back). This event has been predicted by 3 psychics over the last 3 years - but has never happened. Deep in my mind I think I knew it wouldn't happen and I'm not even sure if I want it to.

I asked to see Angela for reassurance, but she did not arrive. I told James not to lie to me, even to teach me a lesson, and he said he would never lie to me.

I asked for any communication from my angels, guides, higher self, etc. to be prefaced by the sign of the cross so that I would know it was from them (given the scary signs I had seen from the other entity earlier). Since then I've received some visions that have been prefaced by a cross, and some haven't.

Needless to say, the event did not happen. After three years of being told it would happen, I am tired of it and didn't think that my guide would lie to me too. At this point, I don't even want it to happen - I just want to move on.

So what do you think happened here? Was it my subconcious talking and not my guides at all? Did I make it all up? Was it the negative entity pretending to be my guide? Was the guide really talking to me but lying so that I would have no choice but to move on?

I'm leaning towards the fact that I'm making it all up in my subconcious and obviously have an issue that I need to work on. Perhaps a cord cutting would work.

But now I don't trust my meditation nor any information I get from guides. Should I just give it all up? I am very disheartened.

What do you think? Thanks in advance for your advice.

[Anna Conlan]

Hi fellforit,

A few suggestions/ideas:

1. You could tell your guides that you do not want to know what is going to happen in the future, unless it really serves you in some way. I personally don't like getting future information (unless it's really necessary) because it can mess with your free will.

2. You have to be careful with information or guidance that comes to you about romance. If it's about other peoples' romance issues, you're more likely to be accurate because you are not so invested in what happens. But if you get info on your own romance, especially where there is an emotional history connected to the person you get the info about, it can be tricky. The info could be from your own subconscious, desires and emotions. Maybe your subsconscious took on the guise of your spirit guide and spoke to you.

I do readings for other people and I am told I have a high rate of accuracy for others but I still do not consult my own guides/higher self on my love relationships because my track record in the past is pretty poor for my own romantic issues. I have gotten readings here and there from other psychics when I needed it and even then I was not ready for what they told me. (That's the thing with getting info for ourselves on romance - often we are simply not willing or ready to hear the truth about something or someone.) Whereas an objective person can see it right away.

I only consult guides about romance & compatibility when it is the beginning of the relationship and I'm not so invested. It takes a lot of skill to have that kind of objectivity and if you're very emotional, you may never get it.

Hope that helps. Don't be disheartened. Remember to do some deep breathing before you connect, that will help you to bypass the subconscious mind too.

[Fellforit]

Thanks very much for taking pity on me and replying, Anna. Your articles and advice have helped me a lot on this new journey.

I think you are totally correct and the information I received about my ex is purely from my subconscious. However, I have also had experience where I have received incorrect information (i.e. regarding career direction) through psychics and I also believe that the guides could be giving me conflicting information to show me different potentials so that I can make up my own mind as to which direction I need to follow.

In this case, on further contemplation, it has helped me to realize that I need to move on and am really ready to do so. Even if the ex did come back, I don't want to be with him.

So whether it was my own subconscious or my guides helping to teach me a lesson, I now know what I want to do with my free will.

I do get information/visions from time to time from my guides relating to my own love life. I don't ask for this information, it just comes to me randomly. I think they're just for reassurance purposes only though. I'm learning not to live my life by them and am trying not to let them affect my free will. Whenever I try to chase results by changing my behaviour so that the visions will come true, it never works out. Funny, huh? So now I just try to see them, write them down for future reference, and make decisions the way I normally would according to what feels right in my gut.

On another note, I wish I would get visions regarding others more often so that I can help people. But these don't come very often and sometimes they're not-so-nice. I was told in meditation that helping people will come later and right now I need to focus on myself until I become "fully integrated". Not quite sure what that means though. Which means I probably didn't make that one up myself because it's a term I would never use. Ha ha!