Deja vu

[theuprising]

I experience this sometimes when I get REALLY high, if it doesn't have any spiritual or psychic connections, its at least severely psychologicaly bizzare. Its a feeling that you have MEMORY of things occurring PRESENTLY. First time I experienced it during a freak out, and that didn't go over so well, it lasted hours. Afterwards, I rationalized that it was because I was thinking of a memory, couldn't remember it, and convinced myself that the memory I was trying to remember was exactly the present, given the incredibly incomplete nature of our memories.

But maybe there's more to this, maybe this is a glimpse into the truth. I experienced it again after getting really high, and it was almost like a "feeling" (as is everything), and I swear to god that my friend that I was sitting with said "Why!? Why has this happened before!?", something I remember him saying last time I got in that state. Later I asked him about it and he said that he never said that which spooked me out making me think there was more to all this (there would be no reason for him to say it both of the times).

Is this tapping into the superconscious, where there is no time? For me even the state of thoughtlessness is a "feeling" which I can keep or push away, even psychosis to me is a "feeling", like once, when high, I was pondering what it would be like to be insane and it was like I tapped into the "insanity" and started hearing voices not of my own but instantly shut it off. Of course there are threads here of how schizophrenia may be someone breaking into the unconscious/collective unconscious etc. So are these the meanderings of a druggy or am I on to something (by the way try meditating in a dream for a bizzare and direct look into your subconscious lol).

[LostMyMap]

It's just a glitch in the Matrix....

[Midniteshowers]

Weird... I just tried meditating in my dream a few hours ago for the first time on my own accord, and it is something that I am going to definitely try again in the future.

[Stacedoll]

I wish more people would write up more about their deja vu experiences. I've been getting them since I was little, now there happening nearly everyday, sometimes a few times a day.

Sometimes its a sense of I've been here before, or in this situation before, other times I could tell you exactly whats going to happen before it happens give or take a minute or so, nothing major but enough to get my thinking of why it keeps happening, happened to me twice yesterday so happening as recently as that

[compost1989]

I lived at las brisas apartments in Sierra Vista Arizona 1.5 years ago. One night November of 2008, I heard another voice from outside of my body saying that he was my soulmate and he would find me soon and that I needed to concentrate on school. Then the voice left and I continued to try to speak to it for a second but it was gone.

Some neighbors moved into my apartment in March of 2010. Stephanie and David with their daughter Chyanne. At that time I did not realize psychics existed. I had extreme De Javu. I remember scrambling to my phone for the past 1.5 years asking friends if they told me about a certain book, etc. I could hear in my head sometimes that my friends were saying mean things about me behind my back. This happened twice.

My thinking was clouded during that time. It was hard for me to think and concentrate. After we moved out of Las Brisas...things started to get worse. In October of 2009 I got a job at Dillards in Sierra Vista. When I was driving home one day I had a horrible picture of impending war brought upon me. I didn't take the thought seriously. I was a little paranoid at first though.

When I was sitting outside on my porch one evening, I saw a picture of a vampire in front of me. But it was too quick for me to take much notice. I also heard a strange voice.

Then I went to Texas at the end of October and subsequently quit my job at Dillards. When I was in the car with my sister and her friend Elissa, I thought, "I feel like I'm about to go on an Adventure of some sort." When I visited some old friends, Rebecca Royston and Tyler Waguespack, they kept saying "A friend of mine..." and then whatever they said would happen. Except one: "A friend of mine spoke to a psychic in a van in Austin"

I told them I was planning on moving to Austin at the time. It was unsettling. From July-August we did not speak to Stephanie or David for personal reasons. We continued contact with them sometime around September. When I'd go over to their home though, they would say weird things. Once I went over there and she said, "imagine this scene, a man and a girl who have known eachother for a long time are standing by this wall (she described it as a corner) and she has her head on his chest and with one arm wrapped around him and another on his chest. What do you think it means? Does she like him?" I replied, "no, I sometimes feel awkward hugging certain males. I think she just felt uncomfortable." That situation happened with me and David 7 months later at the end of April of this year.

She also asked me why I said I hate my life when I lived at Las Brisas. I asked her why she wanted to know and she said that david had been saying that recently. I told her that she needed to talk to david about it and that I didn't know his reasoning but she persisted and said that she wanted to know my reason. I replied that it was because of bad thoughts. She looked like she was on some sort of mission. I can't really describe it but she didn't look surprised by it.

After that when I would go over to David and Stephanie's they would have me sit next to David and I felt drained when I did. He told me a story about how a girl and a guy were neighbors and one night she thought, "he would be a good boyfriend" but he had a girlfriend so she didn't think anything more of it.

Another time, he told me a story about how a guy liked this girl and they were neighbors but both of them had significant others and she said that she didn't know him all that well and he replied "we've known eachother for 1.5 years."

All of a sudden when I was sitting next to him on another evening he said after I explained to him my deja vu feeling, "you feel deja vu when you meet your soulmate." I replied, "I don't believe in soulmates."

This may seem odd because of the two experiences where I was approached by my soulmate, but I really didn't think much about them and continued my life. One night my boyfriend and I were talking and he said that his grandfather used to say that you feel deja vu when you meet your soulmate. Then he looked at me and said "who said that first...DAVID!" I was texting at the time and I said, "No, david wouldn't say something like that" But then I remembered my dream and my head shot up. But I immediately dismissed the thought, because I didn't believe in Soulmates. Another time I was over at David and Stephanie's, David began discussing a relationship two people had and Kevin (my boyfriend at the time) said, "Doesn't that sound familiar, like ours?" Another time they were discussing who paid for what on Kevin and Mine's first date. I drove and didn't want Kevin to pay for the gas but he insisted and I allowed him to. He also paid for the movies. Another time...David mentioned Jet.and Kevin said "Debra loves jet" and david mentioned the verse "we see what you can't see" "I bet you like that", David said and I said that I loved that song. Then I remember Kevin saying, "Paramore, yeah."

Another thing that David told me during that time was that a neighbor of his and him were speaking and she said "Are you psychic" and even though he was and said "yes" she laughed and didn't believe him. That happened five months after he told me that. I'm approximating but that happened between me and david.

Another time, David had to go to the base to sign out on leave and I needed cigarettes so I asked him to go. It was after I had mentioned Tiff and Emma's voices saying mean things about me behind my back. After we left I was driving in the car and David looked at me strange and I thought, "Maybe David is psychic, Maybe David and Stephanie are psychic. No that can't be it." When we got back Kevin was gone and his friend Mike was gone too. Anyway Kevin thought we had sex or something and Mike said he didn't trust David.

I felt so much deja vu during this time that I decided to take a trip to Montana to visit my father and get away for a bit. When I came back, one night, Kevin played breakup songs and sat me down on the couch and asked if I was happy. I said yes, and he got up and said "i just wanted to make sure." After that I had a feeling that Darrell was going to die and Phillip was going to drop out of school. Things got better between me and his family. We had a lot of problems in our relationship before but we seemed to get along a lot better.

We still visited David and Stephanie but Kevin did not seem to want to go over there. I just wanted to hang out with anyone and sometimes I manipulated my boyfriend to go over there because I liked David and Stephanie. One night, David said "So some friends of ours only want to hang out when no one else can" Another time, David said "I'm going to move to Texas in December."

Kevin and I were going to move to Texas in December of 2010. I thought he was going to move too. It was odd. I had a feeling like something was going to happen between me and David and I didn't know what but I felt a foreboding and I didn't want it to happen. David also told me a story about how a guy likes this girl and he didn't want to miss her Birthday so he went over the night before because he was going out of town the next day.

During this period many of my friends told my future: Kevin's dad, Phillip (Kevin's younger brother), Emma Southee, Josh, Matthew (Kevin's other younger brother), Brad Hatfield, Lisa and Johnny read my mind when i Was at his house. I thought when I was helping them unpack, "If I compliment their house too much they might think I want to move in or something" and Johnny said "your moving in!" right after I thought that.

When I would write stories or write in my journal a feeling like I was being watched would come over me. In March, Kevin and I were driving by a sign that said "be careful on Spring break" or something like that and I felt like it was important somehow.

Well. I wanted david to come to my birthday party. They rarely went to our house. He came over the night before and I remembered what he said and I thought it was odd. Well, at the party I heard a voice in my head, mockingly say, "So my grandparents met and got together after she wrote a story beginning with possibilities and they both moved to Texas around the same time and it continued and then I said, "aww that's sweet" and then anyway the whole thing doesn't matter he mentioned how they dated secretly while they were in relationships with other people and I commented "how disgusting" and then he kept repeating "but this is how my grandparents got together" and I would say "i know, but its sweet"

He also told me how he liked this girl and Stephanie kept saying things behind his back to her to get her away from him and she believed it. And then he told me how they were talking and they didn't know if their babysitter could babysit and the girl offered and he didn't want her to because he wanted to run and shower and he didn't want her there. That happened soon after.

I felt like my boyfriend was saying things about me behind my back during that time. It was an uncomfortable feeling but I didn't think too much of it. I looked in his phone and certain parts of conversations would be deleted in the text messages. I checked his facebook account and I didn't find anything.

[compost1989]

Well, At the beginning of April, Kevin and I went to a barbecue at David and Stephanie's. The feeling of Deja vu and everything had been too much for me to bear. I remember feeling weak as I sat on their couch. Outside I heard kevin and David talking and David said, "yeah a buddy of mine once destroyed a marriage." and "an army friend of mine even though he suspected his girlfriend to be schizophrenic, he stayed with her, that's love" and I heard Kevin tell him about how I told him when I got drunk the night of my bday "I just love everyone so much I don't know if I want to be with you. Its all equal" (that is something David told me about the night before my birthday that I forgot to mention earlier in my email). Then David said "She said that!" and came and sat down next to me on the couch and looked me in the eyes and said "you know that guy he used to live with, well he dies! and his brother, he drops out of school." And then he started telling us a story about a friend of his. This friend is female and she had been ****ing with her boyfriends head, her soulmate he said.

One day she was okay with the prospect of marrying him and the next she wasn't. This was ****ing with her boyfriend's head he said. And there was this other man that she was interested in and he was interested in her and he was her soulmate but he had a child and was with the mother of his child and he didn't know how he was going to manage without her.

I didn't know that he was talking about me but based on the situation and my conviction that all obstacles can be overcome if you want to I said, "he sounds like a coward to me." After that david got pissed off and continued.

I turned my head away from him and thought, "I think I'm going to move to California and live there and not come back." I missed many pieces of what he said. The next thing I remember him saying is, "And she moves to California and lives with her sister. He was her soulmate. He would have given up his girlfriend and child to be with her."

Then he continued and I don't remember all of it. I have it written down in a notebook but its packed it basically tells details about the next month of my life. going to california and coming back. breaking up with kevin beforehand. Incidences and conversations between KEvin and me and me and my friends and my family and me. etc. many things.


He ended up telling me my future, of me breaking up with Kevin, going to california, things that happened. Lots of things. But now, I just think some psychic or spirit is messing with my head. Its been going on for a long time. I've been hearing voices. My life will never be the same. I now view deja vu as a warning sign for psychic interference.