Strange thing happened to me last night

[IrisFreya]

I have been on a quest for self discovery for only the last couple of weeks. I have been aware of my abilities in very small quantities over the last 17 years, but in the last couple of weeks..a lot more is coming through and the intensity of which is great; until last night.
I am in the process of leaving my emotionally/verbally abusive husband, he is unaware of this though. I have been here for 7 years, have 3 children and have been trying to get him to understand he needs help and it is ok to get help. I know he is miserable as a person, and has been from adolescents on.
Yesterday was an exceptionally high day for me. Just awesome things were happening, I was in contact with my guide for a great part of the day, until last night. I was sitting on the couch doing some of my writing like I have tried to do every night in the last month or so. All of a sudden I crashed so low, I am not sure that I have been quite that low on any occasion. But never after such a wonderful day. I felt as if suicide may be the best answer.. I couldn't even meditate last night, I tried positive affermations...nothing. It was bad, so I decided to go to bed. Told my husband I was going to bed good night, and well, this morning...I am back to normal. Having a good day and feeling preatty good about the changes taking place. I am now thinking that I was feeling his emotions...I know I am an empath, but have never felt something so absolutly or intensly. I still need to leave, but am now a bit more concerned about how my actions may be effecting him. Not really sure why I wanted to put this up, but I just felt that it was somthing I should do, and I am looking at this new impulses as something worth listening to. I guess if there is any advice to be had I would love to hear it. Thanks for reading and sorry so long.

[desertrat]

Its too bad your husband does not want to deal with his problems . You may of been feeling his emotions , you might be feeling stuff of your own . You might go back in to some of your past lives and see what is there . There is some thing called projecting you project your feelings on to some one else . This all happens on a subconscious level . We do create our own reality , even thoes that are mean and hurtful to us . Your course of acction is yours . You could leave your husband ,and find some one else that treats you the same way . desert rat

[IrisFreya]

I am aware that it could be me; but I am getting in tune with myself and changing the way I behave and look at things in this.

[megs8402]

Originally Posted by IrisFreya

I have been on a quest for self discovery for only the last couple of weeks. I have been aware of my abilities in very small quantities over the last 17 years, but in the last couple of weeks..a lot more is coming through and the intensity of which is great; until last night.
I am in the process of leaving my emotionally/verbally abusive husband, he is unaware of this though. I have been here for 7 years, have 3 children and have been trying to get him to understand he needs help and it is ok to get help. I know he is miserable as a person, and has been from adolescents on.
Yesterday was an exceptionally high day for me. Just awesome things were happening, I was in contact with my guide for a great part of the day, until last night. I was sitting on the couch doing some of my writing like I have tried to do every night in the last month or so. All of a sudden I crashed so low, I am not sure that I have been quite that low on any occasion. But never after such a wonderful day. I felt as if suicide may be the best answer.. I couldn't even meditate last night, I tried positive affermations...nothing. It was bad, so I decided to go to bed. Told my husband I was going to bed good night, and well, this morning...I am back to normal. Having a good day and feeling preatty good about the changes taking place. I am now thinking that I was feeling his emotions...I know I am an empath, but have never felt something so absolutly or intensly. I still need to leave, but am now a bit more concerned about how my actions may be effecting him. Not really sure why I wanted to put this up, but I just felt that it was somthing I should do, and I am looking at this new impulses as something worth listening to. I guess if there is any advice to be had I would love to hear it. Thanks for reading and sorry so long.

Iris,
Thanks for sharing. I am always comforted to hear how other empaths are adjusting to unification. I know it can be completely overwhelming to be bombarded with intense feelings and have no idea how to address them! I wish I could advise you in some helpful manner, but I am just coming into understanding myself. I would be grateful for any other experiences you could share, I am finding these discussions to be quite helpful in my development!
Love and Light
Meghan

[microELVIS]

I also had a very low dip in emotions last night as well, around 11pm est, some music that was playing happened to cheer me up though.

Thanks for sharing.

As always I wish you the best in your separation

Peter.....

[desertrat]

If I were you I would go into deep meditation and ask your higher self/guides/masters , am I creating this problem ? Is this karma ? What is my best corse of action ? One method I use is I visualize a beam of white light from my third eye chakra to a point of light in deep space . desert rat

[IrisFreya]

Originally Posted by desertrat

If I were you I would go into deep meditation and ask your higher self/guides/masters , am I creating this problem ? Is this karma ? What is my best corse of action ? One method I use is I visualize a beam of white light from my third eye chakra to a point of light in deep space . desert rat

I have and I also have been on the path that is getting me out of here with my children. I am vibrating on a much higher frequency than my husband, and now I am not content to live life on the lower vibrations. He is stuck in the past, and everyone has always caused the problems in his life, so he believes. He has told me that I need to change and that will make him happy. I am quite content with the idea of raising the children as a single mother as I have been raising them alone as well as raising him. Now I have figured out what happened last night and it is due to the shear sensitivity of my gift. I am a natural empath, and now that I am working on developing my gifts, I need to learn to shield myself from others at times. I didn't think to do that last night. I also didn't think that he could cause me to crash so low. I know now and well, hope tonight will be a different story.

[Jane Doe]

Your situation also sounds like you could be manic depressed.

Explore the possibility. I'm not saying that it is something FOR SURE with your mental state, but don't simply wave the psychic card in front of yourself, completely ruling out the possibility that it comes from inside.

Pay attention to when the "low" feelings come. The fact that suicide flashed briefly into your thoughts is a classic sign of manic depression.

[IrisFreya]

Originally Posted by Jane Doe

Your situation also sounds like you could be manic depressed.

Explore the possibility. I'm not saying that it is something FOR SURE with your mental state, but don't simply wave the psychic card in front of yourself, completely ruling out the possibility that it comes from inside.

Pay attention to when the "low" feelings come. The fact that suicide flashed briefly into your thoughts is a classic sign of manic depression.

I have been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder however what happened this night was very unusual for me, and I usually need triggers to go from one extream to the next. Not only that the "high" was more of a normal "high". I have been able to tell when I am in my manic state as I may rapid cycle..but not so quickly back to normal as I was the next day and have been since.

[desertrat]

There is one more thing you might consider , being remotely influence . This is only a remote possibilty , but worth thinking about . Here is a link to another thread on this forum Abuse in Telepathy Channel I had a girlfriend that was bi polar , the time she was with me she seamed fine , I never understood why she had to live in a mental instution . desert rat