Past life Spirt or Something worse?

[indigoschild]

Last night, I was feeling particularly down as I thought about a recent relationship that ended. I went to sleep in tears. As soon as my head hit the pillow..as I was still crying, I felt a warmness to my left side and then I felt hands attempt to either pick me up and navigate me over so I could lay on my stomach. I wasnt sure which but i did know that I wasnt in the mood to play "spirit rescue" or talk to anyone or thing last night...i just wanted sleep to come fast. He tried a few times to "pick me up" and I told him to "just leave me alone!"...he said something like, "Come on Queen or Come here Queen"....very soothing but in a voice that made me think of one of those TV show announcers for those action movies or super natural shows...lol Firm and just a tad bit creepy, but not scary.

THis was NOT the first time Ive heard his voice and not the first time I have felt the warm feeling on my left side or back. It happens often. Or as often as I am feeling down at least. Ive felt it for years actually. When the tears come, I just KNOW i will get a visitor that helps sooth and calm me so I fall asleep. In the past, I have felt a feminine presence at times, but most of time, its male. However, its been happening like every other night recently, and no longer happens when Im JUST feeling sad. In fact, I have had to ask it to go away a few times because I dont understand the increased activity and I feel it BEFORE i go to sleep now and when i fully awake....he still seems to be there. Feels like someone is cradling me or spooning with me in the bed....a little creepy although super soothing.

I pray often, especially right before bed and for some reason, I starting to feel like my prayers for protection are being ignored I just dont understand this spirit, or energy that surrounds me...what do they want from me? I, not complaining because I have not head anything violent or malicious happen during these times (although i have in the past) with a different spirit i think...but this one seems to want something else. My meditation hasnt given me any clues although i think i get "impostor" spirits every now and then they attempt to trick me into thinking its the same spirit.

This particular warm spirit has been with me since i was 18, I am now 32. It JUST started talking to me. Any incite that would not scare me half to death..lol is wanted. Is this maybe a past life thing?

[indigoschild]

I hope this isnt too long...hoping I get a few responses this time around. My post must REALLY be boring...lol

[bluestar]

Does this feel like an invasion of your personal and private space, or is it something you want, and welcome? (Like a good friend turning up when you feel a bit down)

[indigoschild]

Originally Posted by bluestar

Does this feel like an invasion of your personal and private space, or is it something you want, and welcome? (Like a good friend turning up when you feel a bit down)

Very welcomed, but that bothers me for some reason. Like i KNOW that when things get bad...i can shed a few tears and he will come.

[bluestar]

Why does this bother you?
It can be that once a strong rapport happens between Souls, the other Soul can feel quite distinctly (via an emotional kind of telepathy) more or less what the other is feeling.
You might not want to say, but why does it bother you?

[indigoschild]

@Blue...i think one of the saddest thoughts i can of would be that my "other half" isn't on this earth with me....this is why it bothers me so much. What ever this thing is...i feel like ive known it in another life and time. This is why it bothers me so much.

[bluestar]

Well, that Soul may not be on the Earth at this present moment....(or he might be??)
But he certainly seems tuned to you, and present with you at times when you are feeling low. It appears he has a consciousness of his own (?) That he's not an imaginary friend. He does seem very much 'alive' in his own way. Is that what you feel?
Is he someone you would like to stay with you, or not?

[indigoschild]

Originally Posted by bluestar

Well, that Soul may not be on the Earth at this present moment....(or he might be??)
But he certainly seems tuned to you, and present with you at times when you are feeling low. It appears he has a consciousness of his own (?) That he's not an imaginary friend. He does seem very much 'alive' in his own way. Is that what you feel?
Is he someone you would like to stay with you, or not?

I cant think of anyone on this earth that I have that feeling with, presently or in the past. Well..maybe one person but he would not be calling me, "Queen" and we just broke it off...lol AND he didnt know me 15 years ago when this all stared so i think I can scratch him off the list..lol Other than that...i cant think of anyone else... Alive in his own way? Well..the HEAT i feel is crazy! Its just hard to imagine anyone else out there is quite like me...i sleep at weird hours and IF this person is just doing something like AP (like i do), it would have to be at the same time and doing the same traumatic events right?...idk...seems to be a long shot that they are hear on earth to me...but that would be nice What were you thinking when you said, "Alive in there own way"? I think...for now..im ok with him staying although i would not want to form too much of an attachment in fear that i would become TOO comfortable. Do you think this might be a past life thing?

Hey thanks for responding btw...i greatly appreciate it!

[bluestar]

Well I don't really know...
Maybe there is a way of communicating more with this person. Though I don't know which way would be best. You could just speak right out to him when you feel him in the room with you, and ask away. Then you might hear some more info...? Just a thought.
Or go AP....see what you see?

[indigoschild]

Originally Posted by bluestar

Well I don't really know...
Maybe there is a way of communicating more with this person. Though I don't know which way would be best. You could just speak right out to him when you feel him in the room with you, and ask away. Then you might hear some more info...? Just a thought.
Or go AP....see what you see?

Out of frustration last night..i did ask, "What do you want!"....and this is when he said the come on queen thing...like he wanted to take me somewhere or position me differently. I will try asking again..if he comes back. I wasnt so nice last night....totally tried beating him up...lol My AP self is REALLY strong!...lol

[desertrat]

By AP I dont know if you mean astral projection . While out of body you should be able to see him and know who or what he is . We all astral project at night and most dont rember, he could be some one that followed you home .You could have of been together in a past life and queen was his nik name for you . We create thought forms also , he could be a thought form . He does not sound evil , just trying to comfort you . desert rat

[indigoschild]

@Dessert, wasn't familiar with thought forms so i looked it up. They had an episode on xfiles back in the day on the subject...lol Yes, I did mean astral projection, i tend to remember my episodes, especially recently. Although i have felt this person, physically, i have been very hesitant to look at him directly. Once i get over that fear, i will let you know what i see.

[Weena]

Hi Indigo's child. It could be a spirit guide or guardian angel. If it's a spirit guide then it is a possibility that you knew each other in a past life. I reckon it's excellent when that happens (physically feeling an energy being...happened to me twice: once it felt like a human form and an other time it felt like the mustache my spirit panther). It's been forever since it happened.

Also, just before you go to sleep is the best way for a guide to come through. If you don't feel scared or threatened it's probably a good entity... keep us updated if he comes back!

[indigoschild]

Originally Posted by Weena

Hi Indigo's child. It could be a spirit guide or guardian angel. If it's a spirit guide then it is a possibility that you knew each other in a past life. I reckon it's excellent when that happens (physically feeling an energy being...happened to me twice: once it felt like a human form and an other time it felt like the mustache my spirit panther). It's been forever since it happened.

Also, just before you go to sleep is the best way for a guide to come through. If you don't feel scared or threatened it's probably a good entity... keep us updated if he comes back!

@Weena, he came back early this morning...and pretty much stayed this time. Only i had to ask for my "Warmth" back because i think i may have freaked him out the night before cause i was so angry and sad...i did not want to have anything to do with spirits or the dead...period! Just wanted a good night sleep and I wasnt shy about expressing what I wanted....so this time, I was ready for him and wanted to know what he was about. For some reason...he keeps putting HEAT on my back. Its cold as heck in my room (cause i like to sleep in cold) but there is something about my upper back that always feels warm. When the warmth isnt there...its those same moments when i no longer feel anyone else in the room with me. So i asked for it this morning...and then it was back. Every now and then, i get these impostor spirits that are just messing with me (i think) i dreams but i can quickly figure them out. This particular spirit no longer waits for me to fall asleep. And im getting the warm feeling on demand now. Had a vision of a huge cathedral church...all white with pillars and framed photos. I touched them...felt like I was there. I saw a couple getting married... no faces. Saw someone at the foot of my bed too..but not sure if it was related. Anyway, i have a Reiki session in a few hrs and im going too see what the intuitive says about all these extra heat ive been feeling lately that I think is related. I will let you know how that goes.

[desertrat]

Him giving you a vision of a church wedding sounds like he is telling you were married in a past life .

[indigoschild]

Originally Posted by desertrat

Him giving you a vision of a church wedding sounds like he is telling you were married in a past life .

Yeah, thats what i got from it too. Just want to make sure my lucid dreaming isnt interfering with visions. Just as i typed that...i got this really bad head ache..ugg..then it was gone...hum...

[indigoschild]

Originally Posted by indigoschild

Yeah, thats what i got from it too. Just want to make sure my lucid dreaming isnt interfering with visions. Just as i typed that...i got this really bad head ache..ugg..then it was gone...hum...

Saw him (see original post yesterday morning. IM pretty sure this I was was the same person. He wore a hat like someone from the late 60 would wear. I did not see any features other than he was kinda tall, lean and wore that hat. It was like looking at a non translucent shadow and there was lots of light behind him. I pretended not to see him. At the time, i just thought it was another random spirit and I did not feel like being bothered...lol I went to sleep pretty mad at my mother and was just angry. Anyway, my room was filled with mist and I marveled at how interesting that looked glancing back at him and going back to sleep. Had a dream right after than my mother had died and i was speaking to her spirit. I was upset and asked her did she have any regrets. She told me she did not and was very smug about it. I knew right away I WASN'T talking to my mother and i told her so and said, "then you are NOT my mother. My mom actually CARES but she is just afraid to show it thinking she will get hurt". I woke up with those words ringing in my ear and i felt a large hand on my back with that warm feeling that I often feel with that spirit is around. I went straight for my phone and texted mom really quickly to tell her to be careful...even though i KNEW the dream was more symbolic than a warning. It was there to give me a message and that was an explanation to my mother actions. I felt that it came from that spirit....the warm hand stayed on my back and I went back to sleep still feeling that warmth.

Kinda felt like I was a child being scolded...lol I defiantly learning a lesson in that dream and then woke up to that feeling like it came from him. Defiantly getting past life here now...