Messages and MP3 Players

[Midwinter Mist]

Along with a sudden increase of interest in spirit guides, I’ve been thinking a lot more about angels, number sequences and ideas of God, Lucifer, spirits and demons.

I recently felt extremely emotional and was speaking out loud, asking why it is that I just can’t pull through this nightmare and live a better life. I don’t know exactly where I stand in terms of beliefs and powerful entities such as God and Lucifer (I’m Agnostic), but I started calling out to both of them. Through my emotion, I started to go on about how a God must have abandoned me and the rest of the world with how evil tends to prevail and good often suffers. I complained about the times I did pray at different stages in my life, opening up and crying tears for help and yet by doing so my problems would often intensify (maybe it’s a psychological thing in that I built expectations and it made all seem worse to me when they weren’t met / answered).

I rarely have somebody to talk to about my problems, so I always talk to what feels like either another part of myself or another being. I’ve been doing it since a young age and it’s rather strange, particularly because it’s like my mind splits into two personalities, but the side responding back to me is incredibly knowledgeable, almost as if somebody really would there for me, speaking through me.

Nevertheless, through my emotion, I started to go through various scenarios in my head and started making this pact with the devil, which I then broke, put back, broke, put back, etc. I went on about how I don’t think I can make it and was definitely having a hard time with the anger and emotion inside. For me, it felt like time up - that’s enough of it.

However, through that, I suddenly started fighting against parts of my personality that need to stop. I was in fact so tired of it all that I gained this sudden strength and I’m finding myself battling some things back.

Anyway, I started looking for angel numbers but lots of numbers kept appearing. I was feeling useless, worried that my life would remain the same, despite various numbers pointing to patience and change that is finally manifesting soon. There came a point during the past early hours when I did turn to the computer and I felt struck when I saw 5:55. So, I looked back at numbers and meanings and then I was sitting there, playing my MP3, which I sat on my desk, staring blankly with my head full of guides, angels and spirits and that’s when the song on my MP3 suddenly paused. The screen of the MP3 lit up during the process, as it would do if I did that.

Technology is technology. Errors are common in the tech world, but what transpired seemed odd to me. The only problem my MP3 had briefly in the past was a song or two pausing itself, except the screen wouldn’t light up and it just came across as a typical error. What happened this time was almost like the MP3 was being controlled.

The song restarted. I shrugged it off, but then the MP3 player began to navigate through the system by itself. Due to the fact I was literally thinking of ghosts and the like before it, it did take me a bit by surprise, though I kept an open mind as I watched on.

Anyway, the player visited the first menu and began to move up and down the lists to enter specific folders, managing to find its way to the album section (despite there being albums, videos, radios, pictures and plenty more). It then entered the album with my own written songs and navigated through the list. It started to play one of the songs and then was skipping through the tracks. At one point, it hovered on a song about the death of me through my ways, prior to stopping. The screen lit down.

It was blank for a few minutes, so I decided to whisper out and I said, “Find a song.”

Right at that point, it lit up and began to navigate through the songs again.

Eventually, it landed on my song about words and it persisted in playing it through, right up until the point I say, “Silence is all but a thousand words coming.”

The song stopped right there with the time count of 2:22.

At that point, even though I was surprised with it all anyway, it was now that I really started to take it more seriously. The song stopped on a line that was perfectly relevant to 2:22 and it was also relevant to questions in my mind. I found it very strange and it was at that point that the craziness of the MP3 player started to die down. There was also a point, though it wasn’t while that song was playing (that would have made it even crazier) that the volume was also adjusted. While briefly on one of my other songs, the volume simply went up from 22 to 23. I found that interesting as I’m 23 in December.

So, yes, technology is prone to errors and I’m aware this could all be a coincidence, but there was still something strange about it and I’m certainly not too sure what to make of it. However, if 2:22 is anything to go by, perhaps that’s an answer to my cry and that I’ll soon see something big occurring in my life. This is also the first time that something like that has happened, which again makes the timing all the more intriguing to me.

[desertrat]

You may of been controling the player with p.k. Psycho Kenisis . There could of been a being of some kind giving you the numbers . If bad things are happing to you it might have repressed stuff you need to get rid of , we create our own reality , even bad things. Use white light meditation , yoga , breath work ect. to resolve repressed stuff . desert rat

[Summerbreeze]

Hey,

your situation sounds pretty common to me, just had to tell you.

I'm involved in this since lately too.

I think what you mean with mind split is the desire for your intuition, i think you use your thinking at least subconsciously to let it hear what it has to say (guidance).

But the process can be confusing at sometimes, because we have few voices in the head.
For example I have a voice that finds it hilarious to add the word Satan or Lucifer in my prayers or randomly in my thinking when i ponder about spirits etc. It's really annoying.

I use my intuition too since I'm 4 years old old, it gave me valuable thoughts, as a child i went under the desk thinking about my problems, i thought it was a magical desk.

Lately i experimented with the presleep consciousness concerning lucid dreaming, now i have problems to fall asleep, it is like i would fall in light trance and the thinking would take over without or little of my control and it is saying nonsense things, tonight it was like it was talking to the person next to me about etheric bodies, it annoys me, i can handle it, but its hindering my sleep sometimes.

The story with the mp3-player sounds cool, i have syncs with music often.

I see the whole thing as a period, i think it makes us pretty strong as soon as where a through.
I went too fast in this i think, i take a break and clear my head with meditation.

Have a nice day.