something strange happens when i meditate

[drgfly]

When i try to meditate, first of all it is very hard for me to relax however when i am finally able to get to that place of complete relaxation i start to see a slideshow of faces images of people i have never seen before. they start as a swirl of light and it moves and changes until an image of a person clearly appears just as clear as looking at a photo the deeper i drift the faster the pictures come every picture a different person. after a while i guess i get scared and i pull myself out of it. its very strange and i dont try to meditate anymore because of this. i have problems with vertigo and migranes and tried to use meditation as a therapy but now i am afraid of it. this is only one of the reasons i sought out this site, throughout my life i have had strange dreams of going through a house searching for something, in one dream that i had for years im dressed in a long dress its dark and im running from someone. the sidewalk is wooden i cut a corner looking behind me and run into the person i am running from. he stabs me under my ribcage and the pain wakes me. i dream of title waves and i wake up tasting the salt water. since i was a child i have blurted thoughts out jokingly and the next day it happens. what is wrong with me. there are other things to. i just need some insight. i dont understand all of this. i feel so week and drained of energy, my body hurts my head hurts im dizzy and there is realy no medical explanation.

[KBaYogi]

Originally Posted by drgfly

When i try to meditate, first of all it is very hard for me to relax however when i am finally able to get to that place of complete relaxation i start to see a slideshow of faces images of people i have never seen before. they start as a swirl of light and it moves and changes until an image of a person clearly appears just as clear as looking at a photo the deeper i drift the faster the pictures come every picture a different person. after a while i guess i get scared and i pull myself out of it. its very strange and i dont try to meditate anymore because of this. i have problems with vertigo and migranes and tried to use meditation as a therapy but now i am afraid of it. this is only one of the reasons i sought out this site, throughout my life i have had strange dreams of going through a house searching for something, in one dream that i had for years im dressed in a long dress its dark and im running from someone. the sidewalk is wooden i cut a corner looking behind me and run into the person i am running from. he stabs me under my ribcage and the pain wakes me. i dream of title waves and i wake up tasting the salt water. since i was a child i have blurted thoughts out jokingly and the next day it happens. what is wrong with me. there are other things to. i just need some insight. i dont understand all of this. i feel so week and drained of energy, my body hurts my head hurts im dizzy and there is realy no medical explanation.

Firs off, there is nothing wrong with you or strange about what you have just written. Those judgments are "wrong" and only hurting you. The dream? Could be a past life, could be from something outside yourself, or something within you. The faces? Could be anything, past lives, guides, spirits, etc. It isn't anything to be afraid of. You sound like you are just a really sensitive/open person.

Something that might help. Daily, ground yourself. Actually, ground yourself whenever you think of doing it. Someways: 1) hug a tree. 2) Sit quietly, visualize roots growing out of your feet in to the earth and feel yourself getting heavier. 3) Visualize a cord going from your root chakra and connecting with the crystal core of the earth. Or any other way.. as you ground, feel excess energies you don't need being taken by the earth.

Also try saying, and mean it; "I release all energies that don't belong to me and/or no longer serve my highest good." and "I call back all my energies, all I need is within me." Do those throughout the day too.

And shielding. Try to visualize yourself shielded from energies that don't serve your highest good. One way, call a golden ray of light to surround you, protect you, and only allow energies that serve your highest good through.

A lot of this stuff would be good to do before you start meditating. Then don't be afraid of what you see and if what you see is unclear to you, try asking for it to be made clearing. Could try asking who the faces belong too.

Good luck.

[Wax Frog]

They've never taken on photographic clarity, but I've also had the light-swirl-into-faces experience. I never found it frightening, though, actually fascinating.

[drgfly]

thankyou i will try, i am just confused with all of this. i feel so different from other people, strange like i dont fit. i have always felt the things i feel even as a child. i can walk into a room of strangers and instantly take on the feelings that each person is having. the problem is i take it personaly always. if i know someone is feeling angry or unwelcoming i automaticly feel like it is focused towards me. sometimes the rush of different emotions makes me so nervous. however this has helped me alot in the fact that i can instantly tell if someone i am meeting is genuine or if they have bad intentions but sometimes i wish i could just shut it off. i know nothing about all of this and have always been taught that feeling and knowing things is a sin. i know it could not possibly be but still i have always been afraid of diiging into it. meditation was realy my first attempt at trying to learn to control and maintain all the different things i feel. what i did not say about that for fear of realy knowing what it is is what realy scares me and has ultimately made me stop trying is this, i see the pictures of perfectly normal people then all of a sudden a realy scary face forms, it does not look human at all. all of this has realy taken its toll on me mentally i feel like im on a island all alone because no one would understand they might even think i am crazy. im so clausterphobic i have not rode an elevator in 15 years. and now i have the vertigo. i have seen specialist, had ct scans seen ent s for the ringing in my ears, nothing seems to be physically wrong with me. so now i wonder could it be connected to the other things that i just dont understand. i need help understanding all of this but dont know where to begin.