Disturbing Dream

[Wolfspirit]

I had a dream last night that I killed someone! I've never had a dream that disturbing before, and was wondering what it meant.

In my dream, I stabbed someone (don't know who it was), and then quietly left the building. Then I was so scared that someone would find out what I did. I mananged to wake myself up from the dream because I knew it was so out of context and I would never do that. But then as soon as I went back to sleep, it started again. I hid a bloody towel at my old house (haven't lived there in 3 years), and then I was scared to go to work (my present job in real life) because I had started hearing about the murder on the news.

Before I went to sleep last night, I was working to release a negative money pattern. I was doing some mirror work with affirmations and then a subconscious reprogramming exericse (repeating a new money belief) in the few minutes before I fell asleep. I am thinking that maybe the killing in my dream represented the beginning of letting go of the negative habit. In a weird way, I felt a little lighter after the dream. I feel like the fear in the dream is because I have been working to realease old, negative habits, and have started to finally move in the direction of my dreams, and as happy as I am about this, it scares me a bit, just because moving forward is new and I want everything to go right (I've been stuck for many years). Hope that makes sense...

Any ideas? I was really creeped out when I woke up. I couldn't even hurt a fly!

Thanks!

[Angela]

Well, this dream means you like me.

Good job on your own dream analysis! I would ask, "what purpose was that old belief about money serving for me -- what was it doing for me?"

When you get that learning, you can use the learning to protect you going forward, without having to believe the old thought, and the fear can just drop away.

[Wolfspirit]

Originally Posted by Angela

"what purpose was that old belief about money serving for me -- what was it doing for me?"

The old belief was not serving me well at all. The old belief kept me in the mindset that I would always be broke because "that's how it's always been, and always will be." What a terrible thing to keep telling myself! There was also the belief that I wasn't smart enough or good enough.

Thanks for the good advice. I feel like I am doing better every day. The dream last night just kind of threw me for a loop! Not sure why that particular metaphor (killing someone) was used in the releasing - something nicer, next time, please. But I suppose if it was something nice and normal, it wouldn't have gotten my attention and helped me realize what the purpose of it was.

As you posted, we learn what the experience has to teach us and we move on in confidence.

Thanks!

[Wolfspirit]

Originally Posted by Angela

Well, this dream means you like me.

Very funny.

I told my fiance about the dream and he joked he was going to call the cops on me. That brought some humor to the whole thing and gave me a good laugh.

[spongesuesquareskirt]

Your interpretation makes total sense to me! I can see why the dream itself would be disturbing, but it sounds like in the context you described, it is just a way of "disposing" of a negative belief, but also feeling nervous about it.

Maybe the belief was really strongly held, or you wanted to make sure it would never bother you again! And that's why your dream used such a strong metaphor.

Best wishes on your new path forward with supportive beliefs.

[Angela]

I think all beliefs had a positive purpose at the time we started believing them.

They might not have been very effective, mostly because we started believing them when we were itty-bitty and we didn't have very strong inner resources yet to be be able to cope with whatever was happening that had us make that decision to believe, but it was still a positive purpose, in our itty-bitty mind.

The reason I think it's important to find that positive purpose of an old pain belief is that if you junk it and replace it with a new one without getting the learnings - that is, seeing what was the purpose and looking to see how your newer, adult, more resourceful self might handle it going forward, sometimes the old belief will simply lurk in the shadows.

The unconscious mind will tend to hang onto it to protect you.

[Wolfspirit]

Originally Posted by spongesuesquareskirt

Your interpretation makes total sense to me! I can see why the dream itself would be disturbing, but it sounds like in the context you described, it is just a way of "disposing" of a negative belief, but also feeling nervous about it.

Yes, I agree. I feel like I was able to release some old beliefs, but there was that nervousness as to, "Is it really gone? Have I indeed made more progress?" and so on.

Originally Posted by spongesuesquareskirt

Maybe the belief was really strongly held, or you wanted to make sure it would never bother you again! And that's why your dream used such a strong metaphor.

I agree with this too. If it hadn't been something to strong, I probably wouldn't have made the connection.

Originally Posted by spongesuesquareskirt

Best wishes on your new path forward with supportive beliefs.

Thank you!

[Wolfspirit]

Originally Posted by Angela

The reason I think it's important to find that positive purpose of an old pain belief is that if you junk it and replace it with a new one without getting the learnings - that is, seeing what was the purpose and looking to see how your newer, adult, more resourceful self might handle it going forward, sometimes the old belief will simply lurk in the shadows.

This makes so much sense! When I look at my previous experiences, I can see why I had those beliefs, and I can see now how/why they are not serving me anymore. I feel that my previous beliefs have allowed me to develope a greater appreciation for money and also a stronger, positive belief in myself to go for my dreams and know I can do it. All of those "negative" beliefs have been a sort of launching pad to propel me toward my desired life.

I agree that it's very important to find the lesson in everything, both positive and negative.

Thank you all for helping me sort through my dream last night, allowing me to contuniously move on to higher levels. Thanks!