very odd dream

[amixa]

before i tell you this dream i had i will give you some background info on maybe why i had it.. but i'm not sure. i'll try and keep this as short as i possibly can.

i've always been interested in psychology and why people become the people they are. of course i'd be interested in why people become psychopaths/schizophrenics and why are there people who are attracted to children..

i can't even recall when i did this.. could have been a couple months ago could have been a few months ago. i just wanted to understand why a child molester would exist. what purpose does it hold.. and so on.

i was just trying to find an answer but all of a sudden i got the vision of a man .. having relations with a little girl. it felt quite real.. and for whatever reason i had the vision as if i was floating above the man.. watching down on both of them. for a split moment i understood the man's attraction.. which was slightly disturbing. does anyone know what i could have possibly been accessing? is this the akashic library? or my own soul's experience?

ever since then i've felt slightly uneasy as to what i experienced. a couple nights ago i dreamt i was in a building of some sort.. and i was preparing (it gets slightly blurry here) my reiki master came in either before or after to smudge the room with sage but the act that was taking place was me killing a molester. i had come across his 'items' or keepsakes of his victims that were in a box i own. they were 8 x 10s of children. 2 of the ones who had already been 'perverted' were painted on depictions of the children in black and white and their portraits moved (like in harry potter the pictures move) i can't recall what happened to them but it was or seemed unnatural and disturbing. there was one portrait that still remained a photographic peaceful image of this boy who was still content. even though the molester was dead i had to release him somehow. (this photograph also moved) i also hid all the evidence of blood and for whatever reason people from my old workplace all came in as if they were supposed to be there.. they knew what had happened (that i killed him) but just stated it was a crime scene (police were with them) and allowed me to remain free.
skipping a bunch of other plot narratives i travelled to mexico to get to a meeting place in a specific desert or nature reserve? and released him (his portrait) into the wind and off into the land.

thanks for reading this far. this is it though. this isn't as clear as other dreams when i can usually tell if its a medicine dream or not. any suggestions would be great thanks

[Parthon]

It sounds like the first dream was the answer to your searching question. How better to know a persons motives than to experience them directly.

As for the killing/releasing dream, it sounds like it's your inner connection to protect children from molesters, even if you'd have to kill the molester. Your master and friends might have been other parts of yourself, or even your guides, representing that while they didn't say it was okay, they'd turn a blind eye to it. The hiding of the evidence means you'd still be guilty for ending another humans life, even though they are a monster. The pictures of the other two children could be those children you think can't be saved, why would that be?

I could be way off, but this is what I see from your dream. What kind of interpretation do you get from it?

[amixa]

Originally Posted by Parthon

It sounds like the first dream was the answer to your searching question. How better to know a persons motives than to experience them directly.

As for the killing/releasing dream, it sounds like it's your inner connection to protect children from molesters, even if you'd have to kill the molester. Your master and friends might have been other parts of yourself, or even your guides, representing that while they didn't say it was okay, they'd turn a blind eye to it. The hiding of the evidence means you'd still be guilty for ending another humans life, even though they are a monster. The pictures of the other two children could be those children you think can't be saved, why would that be?

I could be way off, but this is what I see from your dream. What kind of interpretation do you get from it?

well the first wasn't a dream.. it was a vision.. so i'm not sure where i got that information.

the actual dream.. i just don't know interesting interpretation though....

[Parthon]

How did the dream feel to you? What kind of emotions were created for you? Deep inside, what kind of underlying message in the dream resonates with you?

[amixa]

Originally Posted by Parthon

How did the dream feel to you? What kind of emotions were created for you? Deep inside, what kind of underlying message in the dream resonates with you?

well in a way i felt like i had become the molester or close to one as well since i connected with one in my vision. it was disturbing how much i felt a kin to him as if it was like a previous life of mine or something. maybe it was but i've never thought of previous lives before for me so i don't know what that's like.
so perhaps me killing this molester was to kill off whatever i gained through that vision. its the children's portraits that left me feeling urked as i only could free one of them.. the one that was still healthy and alive. the other two had been distorted and i don't know what happened to them after. perhaps for someone else to heal? or perhaps these represent parts of my life that aren't healed in general..

[Parthon]

That sounds pretty good . Would it be accurate to say you were killing off the last connections to something you don't resonate with?

I think you were spot on when you said the distorted pictures are parts of your life that aren't healed, perhaps you could find out which parts?