Can anyone HELP on how to work this thing? Lol. PLEASE READ! any feedback appreciated

[laceyjade10]

I am trying to work on my perception, um, whatever you want to call it.
I have always seen things, had dreams and good intuition or guides. I have extremely southern Baptist parents who would freak out and punish me as a kid when I talked about what I dreamt, felt or saw..It has only been in the past year or so that through the internet I am finding people who talk about it! It's really great to find so much info and people willing to talk!! I just wish I had local friends to talk to...
Anyway, alot of times it is overwhelming what I feel so I would leave or try and go to sleep with a radio on after checking all my locks obssesively and making sure I have something to protect myself. I havent really found info on ways to practice or maybe filter what you sense so you can understand it. I just get the uneasy feeling like I'm not alone. The more I just think about it, the more things seem to go on around me. Light will turn off or blow out, hear weird static stuff on the phone, think I see a shadow around a corner or comming into the room. Sometimes the figure shaped shadows are dark and sometimes they are whitish.
Just the other night I was thinking about it and got so exhausted but still felt odd so I did my usual practice that I have done since I was a child, I reached over and turned on my radio, low, on a country station. As I was closing my eyes and trying to concentrate on the song, the volume slowly turned down until it was all the way down....I just froze for a few minutes with my eyes tightly shut. I finally reached over and turned it back up and it didnt turn down again.
So, the next night I got out a recorder, sat on the couch, and decided I was going to try and communicate or whatever you want to call it. I closed my eyes and said out loud, "Ok, I am listening. I am going to try and hear you." Felt silly, but it felt right. So, I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on making my brain go to that level between awake and sleep. I dont know what a professional would say, but I just kinda feel that is when my subconscious could maybe hear better but I could still kinda control..?..
Well, what happened when I reached that level was overwhelming! The only way to describe it. It was like I heard 10 or more voices all around me talking. I couldn't understand all of it. I know one male voice seemed pretty agressive and angry, but I couldnt get what he was saying. A couple of things I did make out..A female voice kinda desperate saying, "We try getting in across the street but it's too crowded!" And other kid or lady saying, "They wont let us in!" One said, "What is she doing ?!" and I remember hearing someone yell "Water!" And just tons of talking. And all the while there was that one agressive presence or spirit or whatever it was. I didnt see him or the others but I could feel them all around me. Ninety miles an hour. That one male spirit went behind me and it was like pounding the air. He scared me and I was overwhelmed. I was trying to pull out of it, snap out of it, but it was hard...Like I was stuck. Then this female voice came in so clear and loud and close. She said, "Lacey." In a tone like a mom or teacher would to make you snap out of a daydream. It snapped me out immediately and I expected to see someone in the room because that voice was so clear. I looked at the clock and only 5 minutes had passed. I didnt recognize the voice, it didnt have a southern accent like all of us do. It was very clear and authoritave but not mean or hostile in anyway...I felt so grateful to that voice for snapping me out.
Anyway, since then I havent tried to go on that wavelength again. I wanted to learn more and see if there is not a better way to control that so it wouldnt be so overwhelming. Maybe, should I be in the presence of someone else??
Also, I didnt think about it at the time but there is a church directly across the street..Weird that they said they couldnt get in, wouldnt let them in, and that it was too crowded...!!! I dont know if they were talking about the church or not, but it definetly was a crowded...I expected to maybe pick up a word or something faint, not to dive into such a crowd and didnt expect anything hostile...
SO, please, anyone know anything?? Have any input or ideas? What is the word or term for doing that?