A Nocturnal Attack

[Eric Revelin]

This morning I awoke after a full eight hours of sleep. I didn't sleep straight through, I never do; I always wake up once or twice, look at the clock and grumble while I plunge back into dreamland. The point is that it was a fairly typical night. I was in a bad mood and I didn't recall anything from when I was asleep, which, again, is normal for me.

I turned my computer on, got on my instant messaging programs and shortly after a good friend of mine logged in and began a peculiar conversation. First, before I go into that, she's a Wiccan who's very adept spiritually. She's the only person I've ever met that's able to read me as well as I can read myself (for instance, she doesn't just pick up on what kind of mood I'm in, she picks up on why without me dropping any hints). She's told me stories about my past lives and who we were to each other and so on. I find it all very fascinating and I believe things like reincarnation do, in fact, occur. However, I take everything I hear with a grain of salt when I've had no personal experience with it, including what she tells me. I'd never suspect her of lying to me but I know how much personal perceptions can taint the truth.

Now then, she told me that shortly after I went to sleep last night three goblins and a mercenary went on the attack. She was there looking after me, casting shields over me as I slept and she beat the aggressors back. She said they wanted me for my mind and power. Had they succeeded, they would have taken my soul, they'd have left a dummy mind to take my place within the body then when I got weak they'd put me back and kill me off so no one would be the wiser.

This all seems very crazy to me, probably because I'm used to entertaining "strange" notions but it's not very often I see them in reality. Nevertheless, I feel I can't simply disregard what I've been told. What I'm looking for is information on what this might have been and whether or not the premise laid out for me could actually happen. Am I potentially in danger and what can I do to protect myself if I am?

If it helps to know where I'm at in my development, here's that information:

I've gone from feeling very fearful and timid to feeling strong and clear-minded and focused. This has happened over the course of the last two and a half months. I feel a lot stronger and calmer, so considering what I'm trying to develop within myself (single-pointed focus, intuition, mastery of my subconscious) I could see how what I've managed so far would make me valuable to entities like that. I haven't cultivated any psychic abilities yet but I know how to use various kinds of energy to my advantage and I've got a very strong will. I imagine that if I'm going to be attacked this is when it's most likely because I'm coming into my own but I'm not knowledgeable enough to defend myself. I imagine it's like a jousting match with an unarmored toddler.

There's still a lot of garbage in my subconscious. I used to feel so fearful that I couldn't read a newspaper headline without panicking, and I was self-conscious to the point of being mentally and emotionally paralyzed. I haven't gotten rid of that yet. Instead I've reached a point where I can think clearly and take action without being hindered by it. It isn't nearly as intense as it used to be and it's not constantly eating away at me, but it is definitely present. I'm guessing that if I'm letting nasties in, this is how I'm dong it. I've begun meditating while envisioning myself within a protective bubble of energy, a bubble that also serves to cleanse my mind, body and soul. If anybody has suggestions on how I could modify this to be more effective or on something else I could do it would be greatly appreciated.

[Erin Pavlina]

Sometimes when you show signs of life and light the ookie spookies pop over to get a taste or a look-see. Your friend's spirit may have been called in to defend you. My guess is that you would not have been taken over or died, but instead feasted upon, which feels awful.

Keep doing the energy shielding. White and gold light before bed.