I'm scared

[Tea of Doom]

Hello everyone,

Before saying anything else I just wanned to let you know that I don't have much knowledge in paranormal/psychic phenomenons. I'v allways believed in them but all attempts to explore that area of life were pushed aside by me or my parents.


Recently, strange stuff began to happen.

About a month ago I began hearing ringing in my ears before falling asleep. Tinnitus does normaly occur from time to time in quiet places so I told myself that it was normal. But in the next weeks the ringing reoccured frequently, and soon it transformed iself into very loud, almots painfull hissing. It was like if my ears were going to explode.

From the following week, the hissing began to come with some sort of weird sensation. It's was like if something was sucking me into It (really, I can't be more precise than that).

Usually, when I force myself to disconnect from the hissing, It works after 2-3tries and I fall asleep shortly afterwards. In that period ( between the intermittent hissing and the moment I fall asleep), I had semi-dreams (sorry I don't know the scientific name for these). It's the kind of dream when you are at the point of falling asleep and things in your imgination appear more lucid to you, but you can still weak up easily.

Well in those periods of time i began having weird visions ( if I can call them that). I was seeing a blur of gray and black tones. This is what was sucking me into it.

The whole process was really scary and I resisted at first.

But my curiosity was strong so, when i felt ready, I decided to let me be ''sucked in'' this whole thing, whatever you think it is.

At first, it didn't give any results. I was unconsciously fighting with the hissing, so I didn't have any concluding results. Quite frankly, I remember that I got sucked in to some extent but I don't have a clear memory of what it was like.

This was until I began to have dreams.

Dream # 1: I am seeing a girl I know from high school in a gray room. Suddenly I feel that I have the power and that I want to become a blur and swirl into her eye. So I do it. As I enter her iris, everything becomes swirls of gray and black and I feel that I am moving with incredible speed and energy, allways accelerating. This feeling is really really scary. I wake up sweaty in the morning.

Blur ; I have mentioned this expression a lot of times and you'r probably wondering what is it like? Well the most precise definition that I can give is that it's like if you were a concentrated ball of liquid matter and vapors.

Dream # 2: I am a blur. I am inside a house wich i can't portray because i am inside a wall. This time, aside from the feeling of fear I also feel that this house is familiar to me. Suddenly, I am propulsed at an incredible speed, ripping through the walls of the house and stopping in some chambers for a split second. This frightens me. Here again, everything is black and gray and very blurry, while I was moving I once saw somethign that looked like a kitchen table, but i can't be more precise than that. Although like the previous dream I did not control the speed at wich I was going, I had an absolute control of where I was going. After moving for some seconds the feeling of terror and fear began to be less persistent because I began to feel proud of myself for some reason, and I was enjoying the agility with wich I was moving. This time I woke up at 2 am! (This is highly unnusual for me, because I usually weak up in the morning or in the middle of the night after having a nightmare, but I never woke up 2 hours after I fell asleep)


After waking up I was scared as I watched my dark room. So i turned myself to the wall and slept untill next morning.


I have never lived anything like this. It scares the hell out of me, and I don't really know what is this phenomenon or what should I do about it.

Can anyone help ?

P.S.: The girl from dream # 1 doesn't represent anything special to me. We weren't friends and she almost never talked to me.

[help4me]

Before delving into the dream/vision aspect of things, have you seen a doctor for the ringing/hissing in your ear? Sometimes physical ailments can cause strange physical sensations which may or may not seem related. Please understand that I am not dismissing anything you have experienced, it's just that the inner ear affects so much of our body that it's worth looking into.

Second, before you go to sleep at night, invision yourself wrapped in a loving protective light. Make this light as bright as you like, design it anyway you want. Believe in its power to protect you. Know that even while you sleep, this light will still be around you, still keeping you safe. Practice making this light when you are awake as well. Before you explore, or give into "being sucked in" learn to use the light well. You must protect yourself before you explore.

[Tea of Doom]

Thank you for your response.

It's funny that you mentionned to use that protective light, because that's exactly what I did when I was a kid and I was scared of the dark.

I've been exploring Erin's blog and I discovered many things that I believed were true when I was a kid.

Actually, I think I was more spiritually awake when I was a kid. I'm currently trying to reestablish a strong bond between me and my Higher Self.

And yes, i'm planning to go see a doctor for my ear.