Very Weird Experience

[VoodooChile]

I once had an experience that I could not interpret for myself. I was hoping someone here could offer more insight.
When I was 17 I had a big fight with my girlfriend. At the time I was taking anti-anxiety medication called Ativan. After the fight I was angry, so I started taking the Ativan. My best friend was with me at the time. I remember taking 8 pills total, and then I just blacked out. But when I was blacked out I continued taking the pills. My friend told me that I turned mean and possessive over the pills at the time. But the end of the night, I had taken about 25 pills. At around 4:00am, I came out of the blackout, and I was back in control of my actions. I decided to get my mom's hand-held mirror to see how messed up I looked. This is where it got weird. When I looked at my pupil in my left eye, I saw a face that wasn't mine. I am a male, but I saw a young woman's face in my pupil. She was mouthing words that I couldn't understand, along with making concerned facial expressions, and putting her hands on her face. Now I could have dismissed the whole thing because I had taken so many pills earler, but my friend, who was completely sober, witnessed the whole thing. We both watched as this young woman's face remained in my left pupil. She stayed for about 5-10 minutes, and then it was back to my reflection like normal. It was the strangest experience I have ever had. I was wondering if anyone here has any idea who she was or why she appeared. Has anyone heard of anything like this before? I have tried to find information but there is just nothing on the internet about it. Any input would be great. Thanks a lot,

-Brian

[Danni4343]

I have never heard or come across a situation like this. I am going to put in my two cents and say it was a hallucination.

[VoodooChile]

Wrong. Two people hallucinating and seeing the same exact thing? My friend was completely clear headed. So it definitely wasn't a hallucination.

[Billy]

I have never seen anything quite like that but as far as I'm concerned I want to see it. Your story sounds absolutely fascinating to me.

[VoodooChile]

We were going to take a picture but by the time we got the camera she was gone.

[VoodooChile]

I want to add that an experience like that would usually scare the hell out of me. But during the whole experience I had no fear whatsoever, which makes me think that it was a good thing. But I'm really not sure because I can't find any information on this. I was thinking that maybe the psychics on this forum would be able to interpret such a strange experience. Thanks,

-Brian

[Billy]

Important questions I would ask you in regard to the female face is, was she directly trying to communicate to you? did you have the feeling that this was an effort to get a message across, and did she have the appearance of a concious entity who was aware of her situation? and lastly what was your gut feeling to the event? If the event was a positive experience associated with an attempt at communication then she was probably a guide or even a lost spirit who took advantage of your unusual situation to communicate what she thought was relevant. There are many possibilities but when I deal with dissembodied forms of any kind the first thing that I do is weigh the situation by accsessing my feelings on its pressence. Experience has taught me that even the most harmless looking spirit can be hiding an intent to do harm but my feelings on the situation never lie. Some spirits are very limited in their awareness and are kind of like a scratched record in that they make repetitive gestures or scenarios add infinitum because they simply don't know that they are dead. But a concious being who is aware of their situation and is attempting to communicate is always worth making an effort to understand, I have learnt some of the most amazing information from guides and other species of life form that dwell in the reality fields that permeate the universe. Hope that helps.

[VoodooChile]

She was definitely trying to communicate with me. She was mouthing words that I obviously couldn't hear, and also looking directly at me. She was also definitely a conscious entity who was aware of her situation. I didn't get the feeling that she was a lost spirit. I felt like she appeared because of the situation I was in. She seemed to show real concern, almost like saying "oh my god what were you thinking" by her gestures. So I believe that her presence was directly related to my situation. I am clairsentient and can easily sense negativity, and there wasn't any negativity associated with her. She was visible to both me, and my friend, but her message was clearly directed at me. I always wondered if she could have been a spirit guide, but the situation was so strange that I didn't know how to interpret it. Do you think she could have been my spirit guide? Maybe she wanted to make sure I was ok?

-Brian

[Billy]

Yes I definitely think now that she was a guide, which can be thought of sometimes as a loose definition of an dissembodied spirit who offers guidance or information whether at a specific time in someones life or is assigned in a more permanent role staying more or less within our sphere of influence so as to be there in times of crisis or to subtly offer info and even manipulate some space time parameters if nescessary and permitted. You are one of the priviledged few to catch a glimpse through the window into the realities that permeate our existence. Very cool.

[VoodooChile]

It's great to hear that you believe that she was my guide, because that confirms what I believe as well. I definitely feel privileged to have had such an amazing experience. And I'm sure she put the idea in my head to get the mirror that night because it's not something I would usually do. I'd love to see her again but I'm not sure how to go about it. Any ideas?

-Brian

[Billy]

Well that was for you a moment of crisis and probably waranted specific intervention on her part. The reasoning is that spirit guides who are given resposibility towards their charges adhere to strict rules and mandate. There are rules of communication between us and them that must be adhered to unless certain conditions warrant otherwise. And the reason is quite simple. The unseen worlds operate around us making untold changes to our lives, creating influences that in turn drive the wheels for humanity to grow spiritually as a whole and also individually. It is not nescessary for humanity to have completely free will in order to cultivate the soul and achieve spiritual growth, but simply to believe that we do, and there lies the heart of the matter. When those of us that are not spiritually mature enough to take in this truth glimpse the gears of this wondrous machine in action :ie guides etc, a rebellious nature can form within our selves. This is why for the most part it is critical for guides to stay hidden and influence the individual in a subtle fashion ensuring that the forms are kept in regard to the individual believing that total free will reigns in their world, then when their reality is manipulated around them in order to serve the greater good the soul will create the appropriate response and change its evolution in accordance with the laws of creation. You were given this glimpse of the inner workings and it is never done by accident, inside your soul you were ready to witness these truths and you should expect only more in the future.
Craig

[VoodooChile]

Craig,
Thank you so much for that explanation. It feels really good to have been given a glimpse of the inner workings of the spirit realm. It's also awesome to know that I was given that glimpse because I was spiritually mature enough to witness those truths. I always believed that spirit guides wielded a substantial amout of influence. I think we all need to be nudged in the right direction at some point. I like to think of myself as spiritually awakened, although I look forward to a lot more spiritual development. So it makes me happy to hear that I should expect to witness more truths of the spiritual realm. I'm very excited for what's to come.

-Brian

[Billy]

youre welcome. when I was writing the last response I recieved a very strong message to write those particular words down, because I was originally going to say something else. Those words were for you alone and I usually don't go into so much detail regarding these topics but I was asked to in your case. You have friends on high who love you and want you to know that you have a very special purpose to fulfill if you want to grasp it. What that future is I wasn't told but I do know that they will be there for you and want you to know that the pace that you take in finding this purpose will be fine as far as they are concerned. They say "don't read too much into the future and risk doubling the stresses that you already take on in life, know yourself and we will be there".

[VoodooChile]

Craig,
Your last reply really hit home with me. The last 3 years have been really rough for me. I have had a lot of health issues. I'm not sure if you saw my other post, but I can't eat, so I get my nutrition through an IV. It's a weird situation, because the doctors aren't totally sure what's wrong with me. But your reply made me feel better about the whole thing. I've always felt that I had a special purpose to fulfill, but I've had some trouble figuring it out. I haven't been able to finish college because of my condition, and when I go back, I really don't know what I want to do. I just feel like I should have figured it out by now.
But recently I have been trying to communicate with my spirit guides to ask them for help with my situation. So it was really nice to read your reply because they were able to communicate back. I really appreciate you helping me to understand these issues. Hopefully I'll figure out my purpose soon.

-Brian

[Billy]

What I would ask you to do regarding my last reply is to take a look at the information there and only use what you feel comfortable with. Although I was able to make a connection empathically through communication with my guides as to your current emotional state, and I could feel your surprise and understanding of the words before you. You see, I am psychic but I usually don't do readings or charge money for my skills. I was asked on the spur of the moment to do it and I rarely refuse that call. But anyway the request by my guides to do the reading for you was accepted and now the sense of urgency that I recieved from them has subsided. I wish you good luck in your future and I believe also that if you adhere to their advice in regards to not projecting many of your uncertancies into the future that a lot of your current maladies will eventually ease, but please do not stop seeking medical advice or treatment, and no I hadn't read any of your other posts. Peace and good luck
Craig

[VoodooChile]

Craig,
Thank you very much for doing that reading for me. I really needed it at the time, so I appreciate it. Honestly, I feel comfortable with all of the information that you gave to me in your last reply. It made a lot of sense to me, and lifted some stress off of my shoulders. I definitely plan to adhere to their advice. Just knowing that they are there watching out for me and wishing for my success makes me feel much better. I feel much more connected now. So hopefully things will start to change for the better. But again, it was really cool of you to do a reading for me, and it's very much appreciated. Happy holidays, take care,

-Brian

[MyEyeIsOpen]

Brian, I can see you're not being fully truthful about something -- at first I thought you were two people carefully typing out a post you knew to be false in order to bait someone on here to make a fool of themselves. I don't think that's the case now, but I'm not sure what you're not sharing -- you may not even be sure. Think about that a little.

Be that as it may, the experience you described reminded me of a similar experience I've had. I once saw a young man when I was meditating and I had reached lucidity. I was examining him very, very closely -- almost like I had my eye right up to his skin. I was trying to understand who this man was and why he was in my meditation, when I examined his eye very closely. It was 100% clear when I saw his eye that I was looking at myself (although he didn't look like I look at all). What he was doing in the vision isn't important for you, but maybe the woman was you.

Also, you have Chron's disease.

[VoodooChile]

I honestly don't know what I am not being truthful about. I'm here because I'm at a very difficult point in my life, and I am very interested in spiritual development, and nothing else. And Craig and I are definitely different people. What about our conversation would bait someone in? Everything I have said in this post is the absolute truth, and I really don't feel that I'm leaving out relevent information.

Your experience was definitely similar to mine. But I don't think the woman was me. Craig's explanation definitely feels right to me.

It's very bold for you to come on here and say I have Crohn's disease. But I have been tested for it multiple times, and it was always negative. I spent 10 days in the hospital earlier this summer, and I was tested for just about everything. So I don't believe that I have Crohn's disease. Can you tell me how you came to that conclusion? I do have Celiac disease, but that is a totally separate and unrelated condition.

Lastly, when I started reading your post, I had a massive surge of anxiety, which makes me believe that something isn't right about what you posted. I'm not a psychic, but I am clairsentient. I hope you'll elaborate on what you posted.

-Brian

[MyEyeIsOpen]

I am sorry to have caused you anxiety. What I meant by two people was something like 2 guys sitting at the same computer desk crafting a post to appear as though the poster needs help, in order to bait someone else, like Billy, to say "Ah yes, I see your spirit guide, yadda yadda," so that you could have a belly laugh. I don't think it's really the case, but it came to me so I thought I'd mention it. Being called out like that can produce anxiety -- if you can't think of anything, then don't worry about it, I could have simply been wrong.

As for Crohn's disease, when you described your symptoms, a man I recently saw who did have Crohn's disease popped into my head, and it seemed important. Maybe I misinterpreted the image. If I was hasty, I apologize. Have a good night, try to feel better, and good luck on your journey.

[VoodooChile]

I see what you meant about about two people typing out a false post, but I assure you it's not the case.
It's true that my symptoms are very similar to Crohn's disease. When I was in the hospital, the kid in the bed next to me had Crohn's, and he was on IV nutrition too. I've been tested for it at least 5 times, and each test was negative. But you never know. I have met a lot of incompetent doctors in the past few years.
I don't know if your intuition is true or not in terms of me leaving something out. I definitely didn't leave anything out in my description of the woman in my eye. Maybe you got that feeling about my health issues, because I'm sure I left some information out, just because there's so much of it. But that's all I can think of.
But anyway thanks for explaining your previous post. Have a good night as well. Take care,

-Brian