Maybe someone can shed some light??

[mare]

Hi everyone!! First, I would like compliment this website and the people that contribute! Ive been learning alot as I read all the threads!

I wanted to ask if maybe anyone has gone through what I have or if anyone has any information they can share with me.

I became quite ill last year! It cam eout of no where. First, I lost my appetite. I just couldnt get anything passed my throat without choking. Of course that led to extreme weight loss...I went from 145 to almost 90 in a matter of weeks. Shortly after, I started experiencing panic attacks and extreme anxiety. I had every medical test imagined and nothing!! I thought I was going crazy!!! (so did my doctor). His only option for me was anxiety pills! Well, something inside of me said...NO WAY! Convetional medicine gave up on me telling me it was all in my head but it wasnt!! I looked so different!! When I looked at myself in the mirror, I didnt see me anymore! I was terrified of Im not even sure what!! Just this overwhelming fear that I was dying. Didnt help that some doctors told me I deteriorating but they werent sure why....soooo...I decided to venture into natural and spirtual healing. Some experiences were good some were just HORRID!! I have been taken advantage of so badly but some people that claimed they could help me...with a huge cost attached to it! Most of these treatments left me broke (which Im still trying to catch up on)! I realized that people take advantage of people that are desperate for healing and answers! I found that so tramatic as Ive always been one to help anyone I can!! I lost my friends, some family members, money and almost my job in such a short time!!

Im Catholic so I tried praying to Jesus and all the Saints but still felt very alone! I went against my religion and tried getting help from psychic's and healers. One psychic told me I was possessed and made me do all these rituals which only made me feel worse. She told me I had to pay $1700 to remove the spell! I was just digging myself deeper into desperation!! I tried chelation treatments, reflexology, prayer, natural medicine, reki, distant prayers...I tried everything!!

I decided to see a Homeopathic doctor. He did help alot!! I started getting better physically! I still experience dizzy spells and some physical pain. Sometimes Im sooo tired I dont even want to get out of bed...but I try to keep some spirit up and not let this affect my emotional and spirtual state!

Has anyone ever felt this way?? I feel like I'll be this way forever! Its hard to deal with symptoms and everyone tells you nothing is wrong!! At least if I had something wrong with me physically, I could deal with it. But not knowing why this has happened is ok with me now because Im stronger and dont feel so scared of death!!

Thank you for reading my post. Im not sure what type of responses I'll receive but I send you many blessings for listening!!

[MsDBlu]

Hi,

Happy to hear you are finding your way out of illness. It can be done. I let doctors talk me into a whole lot of medication at one point, in fact I felt I'd lost about 12 years of my life.

I have been on a spiritual path for many years. Now in looking back I feel the medication, which I no longer take, really interrupted my path, and in fact caused less functionality over a period of time. My real downhill slide began about four years ago, when I lost one of my younger brothers. Seems the grief triggered a whole lot of stuff. Anything that was buried wanted to come out.

My true help came, when I joined a test group, with an energetic intuitive healer, which I am so grateful for. I certainly didn't have the money to pay, and she had never helped anyone like me before, so it was a crap shoot in some ways. Her healing program is energetic based on Quantum mechanics, so it is healing at a cellular level, which means one can even go beyond genetics. Check out Bruce Lipton for the science behind that. Once my intention was set, I had to work through the emotional issues which were causing my illness in the first place. When I do not process my emotions, my physical and mental symptoms reoccur so quickly! It is instantaneous for me.

I have found those trapped emotions also hold obsolete beliefs systems in place which can be released once I have processed the issues. Seemed like I too became ill very quickly in some ways. The side effects of the medications and what they were stealing from my body and my life had a lot to do with it as well.

I also try to focus on wellness because that is what I want more of. I still have a way to go, but every time my symptoms return, I know that some emotional issue is needing to be processed and released. My body is my process, hard as it may be to admit. Homoeopathy is absolutely awesome. As well, it can work very quickly, it certainly has on me.

A good book I could recommend is "The Divided Mind". by John E. Sarno. He explores the mind/body disorders epidemic, and where illness originates. I do not have a good opinion of the pharmaceutical industry, and how they like to sell sickness. Ray Moynihan & Alan Cassels have written a book about that, called "Selling Sickness".

I wish you health, and hope some others will post to also shed some light.

[Love]

Hi Mare.

I can definitely hear? the frustration and sadness in your post. I can relate to feeling something is wrong that doctors just don't seem to be able to identify or care about. It's awful. I don't have any answers for you, but I hold you in my heart.

[JSB]

Hi Mare,

I am sorry to hear that you have been having so much pain and trouble.

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It helps you to strengthen your body's energy and clear energy blockages.

It has a spiritual element to it, but is not tied to any one religious viewpoint or dogma; there is no conflict with Christianity or any other religion.

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I hope this is useful information.

Best Wishes for your recovery, well-being, and good health!