My story

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Hey everybody (:

I'll get straight to the point.
Ever since I was little I've had a few things in my life which might be really normal for all I know, but none of my friends seem to understand what the heck I'm talking about, so I thought I'd tell you and see if anyone might "enlighten" me in this "issues. You don't have to read it all, it is quite a lot, but it would be nice if someone would read one of my "issues" and maybe give me some feedback. I have tried to make the "issues" as short as possible and of couse I can give further examples and such if anyone wishes to know in order to maybe help me.

To add is also that I don't believe in heaven and hell, God and Satan. I do, on the other hand, believe in spirits, "angels and demons" and such things.

1) Dreams of the future
When I was about 10 years old, I started to dream a lot and I remembered almost all of my dreams. Now, that's not maybe so unusual, but here's the thing; I dreamt of things that were yet to happen. My uncle, when he was younger, dreamt about a house just next to theirs, burning down at a certain date (can't remember which date, many years ago before I was born) and when that day finally arrived, just as he had dreamt, the house burned down to the ground. He dreamt a lot, but lost his "premonition" dreams around the age of 19. I myself, stopped dreaming after my depression that I had 1½ years ago. But just recently I had a dream. I had a dream that, to sum it all up, said that I was to, officially, become my current boyfriend's girlfriend at the 1st of september. I even dreamt the whole scenario. And it happened, just as my dream had shown.

2) Connection
First I should say that when I was little, from age of 5-10, I used to spend a lot of time in the woods where I grew up and I could sit for hours and animals, such as birds, snakes and such could easily gather around me, not afraid of me, even if I made hasty moves or was singing or whatever.

Cats, dogs, horses, ye, every animal I have met, whether they have been nice or cruel to other people, they are always nice to me. My dad took me to his friends place and their dogs are hysterical; they've been treaten like **** by the owners before my dad's friends and they try to bite everyone and everything that comes near them. Now, when I was there, the dog just ran straight towards me and my dad told me to go the door immidiately, but I stood still and the dog just stopped at my feet and started stroking his nose towards my leg and then just sat complete still by my feet.

Also, animals, for some reason, can just look straight into my eyes, without looking away, for minutes. We just look at eachother, without me stroking them or anything and when animals are upset, they just turn "normal" or how to put it, when I stroke them. Same things with babies under the age of two, human babies that is, they always look at everything in their surrounding, but when I look at a baby, the baby looks straight back at me. Without crying or screaming, occasionally they smile, but other than that, they just look at me. Sometimes they even fall asleep from looking at me.

3) Good intuition?
My friends call me Nikugan. It means "naked eye" in japanese. The reason to why I have that nickname is because they think I have "piercing blue eyes". They feel, when I look into their eyes, that I can see ALL of them; their thoughts, their feelings and such. I find it easy to tell a person's lifestory, opinions and such by just looking into their eyes and people have said to me that they feel like I'm reading them like a book. Also, when I'm out for walks or such, sometimes my whole body screams to not go on to a certain street, so I either keep walking forward or turn another way, because certain places feels wrong (no matter if I've been there or not before). I can't really explain it, it just feels like I have a sixth sense for feeling if roads/places/people and so on are good or bad.

Is all of this just ordinary things that all people have or is it something above the normal? Tips, questions, answers - everything is welcomed.