I need to make a change - in attitude or something.

[tramseyer]

For several different reasons, I have spent most of the past two years accomplishing little but getting my Master's degree. Since early 2003, from 2003-2005 I did fairly well with temporary work, but then the bottom dropped out and I have lived with my parents, off of savings and leftovers from student loans.

I now have to get a full time job. However, I have gotten lazier than sin, and in a HUGE comfort zone. I remember very well how exhausting full time work was, and how boring it often was, and how time consuming. I am throwing up blocks to my progression right and left.

The quickest way for me to get money right now is to get a full time job, work for a few months to ease the pressure and get through the holidays, and then consider my options. The problem is that I have so many negative emotions and history and expectations around hunting for work and getting it that even though I've worked on them; they're still holding me back.

On everything else but work, I am trying to turn around. (Yes, I know, you're not supposed to use "try," but I can't point to any successes yet.). I read several success blogs and emails, and revamp my Flylady "Daily Routine" list with things that I've learned. (I'm not getting very far down that list yet, or with the associated emails, but I'm improving!)

I started exercising again. I found "Think and Be Rich" again, and am creating a "Ben Franklin system" - like his little notebook where he checked off a value every day if, in his opinion, he had done well with it. Mine is a little bit different, but the same idea. I had no idea how many things that I have mismanaged by not checking in often or keeping a much better eye on.

I still feel depressed and overwhelmed. I'm hoping as I get things more under control, that I will get/feel better, and at least have more ambition and desire for money and work.

If someone could chime in with a "yes, been there, done that and survived - it'll get better if you keep going," I would really appreciate it. I promise to consider any other comments too

Thanks
Theresa

[Jes]

Been there, done that, and survived. It'll get better if you keep going.

First off, don't think so much about the job. Just go get it. It's not going to be nearly as bad as you're anticipating. And if it is, you only have to stick with it 'til you find something better.

As for feeling overwhelmed, I'd set aside two or three days before you begin work to implement the "Getting Things Done" method by David Allen (Google it!). You will feel 100% better by the second or third day, as you'll know exactly what you've been putting off, what you can keep putting off, and what you can't.

Don't forget to relax. You have a master's now, so you're in a better position than the greater majority of the world's population. I'm sure whatever you do, you'll be just fine.

Good luck!

[Max Power]

If your past on any level is infecting and/or affecting your present moment, then take control of your moment, this day is all there is. As soon as you remember a past that you don't like, you're creating it right then and there.

How you think and what you do today is all that matters, for it's the only place you can ever exist.

Max