What would you do if you were put on ADDERALL when you were seven?

[strawberryShaker]

so i am worried about being on adderall.

because it is expsnsive and i want to rely on myself, not a drug/narcotic

mostly my health insurance is going away soon. and its 45 ♥♥♥ a bottle. i dont want to spend that much anymore

i really like adderall.

HERE IS THE THING!
i have been on adderall since i was freaking 7.
How do i know if im unable to concentrate if i never even learned how?

i have not been taking my meds for a few days, and am trying to stay focused without them ( i have no choice i ran out and have to wait a bit to get some more). anyway i have been able to get started at 8 am today and such (i have the week off btw)

but unspurprisingly i always drift off.
i have made a list of excuses i usually make to drift off:
-im just going to clean a little
-im just going to make some food
-im just going to take a shower
-it wont hurt to get on the internet for a little while just like 10 mins HAHAHA
-i am just going to listen to ONE song

you know things like that. things that are normal for everyne.
to where it seems like i just have no discipline without my adderall. i dont believe in myself without adderall.

of course thats totally different if what im working on is fun, or interesting or matters to me. there are days i work much longer than 6 hours. and i work when my adderall should have worn off.

anyway i want to graduate>< im sick of being in school.

but i feel like i have a broken leg sometimes. what im learning can be REALLY freaking hard and like my brain is being fried. But i learned this much already. It was way harder when i didn't know ANY thing about this program at all.

still its like this ADD brand. it really makes sense when people say if you believe you can do a thing you can. sorry for sounding cliche and all

how do i stop letting that feeling "what if i really AM just ADD?" keep me unmotivated ? how could i trick myself to come back to something even if i drift off ?.... because even when i drift off and catch myself there's this feeling "i think its hopeless to come back"\

i really do make excuses not to work too=/

what if being scatterbrained is the result of multitasking too much, and never making myself do anything hard without the adderall?

ya know this is a hard question. but it just seems fishy. my parents were way to distant to help me with school work or anything. i did not get much guidance as a kid because adults were always leaving me alone.

please serious answers only

i CAN focus on reading a book, researching things randomely like history, watching documentaries, drawing, writing a letter, writing a script without adderall

what would you do to trick yourself to come back? and not lose interest and steam because you think you have ADD? b

tia!!!

[wanzulfikri]

What is ADDERALL? I want to help but there is something that I don't understand. Can you summarize it a bit? What;s the real problem?

[strawberryShaker]

Originally Posted by wanzulfikri

What is ADDERALL? I want to help but there is something that I don't understand. Can you summarize it a bit? What;s the real problem?

an amphetamine to help you concentrate. technicially its kind of a narcotic

it creates euphoria in you for an hour and then you go into a working trance for like 6 hours

its actually commonly accepted in my country
sorry i thought it was common knowledge !

[wanzulfikri]

Basically, you have some kind of addiction to this ADDERALL?

[SireneB]

You're asking very good questions, and I applaud you for it. Don't have any answers in particular, but I think there are ways other than drugs to address kids who have trouble concentrating. Do you have a regular, strenuous exercise program (or regularly get a strenuous workout in your normal activities)? That would be one thing that might help, from what I've read and seen in others with attention issues.

Good luck. Don't stop asking.

[strawberryShaker]

Originally Posted by wanzulfikri

Basically, you have some kind of addiction to this ADDERALL?

Not really addicted. Well at least I don't think so. I don't go through withdrawal when i don't take it. But its super fun to be on and i can focus for ridiculously long amounts of time on it. Like a superhuman.