Hello, back from my 3+ month hiatus.

[ellie]

Hello all,

I thought I would report back, after my 3+ month hiatus.

Well things have certainly changed. I have come such a long way over these last few years! Lots have happened in these months that I was away. Well I think lots.

I feel at the moment a big 'shift' happening in my life, a lot more confidence...that's for sure. I remember when I first came to these forums I was so anxious, self-concious, and just down right scared.

And I think I figured out the key for change, well for me at least and that is, 'give things ago, face fears, make mistakes, fail, be ok with it, and grow from the experience. And don't make such drama out of issues in your life. Any issue can become big, if you make it, or see it that way.

Also experimenting and trying lots of things, has been a big thing for me actually. I didn't realise, for my personality type, that I needed to release a lot of ideas that were in my mind. I was so scared to fail and try things over the years, that I just ended up in a big ball of anxiety and a whole lot of pent up energy. What I found was once I gave things a go (although it was really hard at first), that slowly I was realising that I was getting stronger, and slowly figuring things out. Trying things, enabled me to sort through, what 'works for me' and what doesn't. Failure, has been great for me, because I mentioned in another thread, it has helped me to tick things off my list, for what works and what doesn't.

One of the best things I did, was experiment in projects, and eventaully found my nieche in art. This has opened up so many doors for me, and most of all gave me confidence in my abilties. I can feel this confidence within me, and so I knew everything was going to work out just fine. I also now have a full-time job, which by the way, I am sure I wouldn't of gotten, if I hadn't experimented with my own projects! I am now working in a place I have always wanted to work in, quite bizarre and surreal actually (first job I applied for...for years... after I decided it was time to get a full-time job),. To be honest, I never thought I would be able to work in a corporate environment again, but it's quite a nice environment..the best for my personality type.

I am also so much more confident around people, I making friends, going out, meeting people. I also am noticing, my fears with authority is starting to dissapear, and I am learning to 'speak up'. I noticed a huge shift in the type of people I am meeting to, I am now realising there really are 'great, interesting' people out there.

Again it was all the little baby steps that helped me, things that you/I wouldn't think make a difference but all helps. Things like going out and playing a sport, or joining a new club, all these little things help you get to the next level...you don't notice it at the time, but it all helps. You may not even stay in the sports, or the club, or whatever you try...but that doesn't matter, it's all just helping you to push ahead.

I know my next phase now is to find a partner, but yeah I am sure that will work out fine too

So yeah life is pretty good and thought I would let you know, yes you really can change the way your life is heading.

I don't know if I will visit these forums very frequently anymore, but I did want to report back.

Ps- I don't really do manifesting or mantras anymore, sometimes but very rarely, the key really was for me to give things a go, things that I feared and realising they really are not that big of a deal.

[ZephyrusX]

Nice seeing you around again ellie.

Glad to hear that everything is going well for you!

[Matt Maresca]

Good to see you! I've spent a lot of time lurking and reading the posts (occasionally posting) and certainly remember you as one of this board's rock stars. Glad to see things are going well, and I wish you the best moving forward!

[ellie]

Thanks ZephyrusX and Matt Well I hope others find some hope in my post

[supertom]

Heya ellie, nice to see you again.

[ellie]

Thank Tom Nice to see you too!

[Federer]

Hello Ellie, That's very positive and bright post from you. good to see you active here. Now i have decided to slow down myself, go ahead carefully. Fix issues from deep within and enjoy the shifts that are happening into our life. You look very changed and enjoy. Sure you will find your partner.

*hugs*